Chapter 1136

Looking at Annie who was staring at him, lanli did not hold back. He shook his head helplessly, and the corner of his mouth rose like this.

Just as lanli was about to speak, Annie moved forward eagerly, staring at lanli's eyes. It seemed that with such an action, she could see the soul hidden in the deep of her skin. "Lanli, will you leave this time? Will you leave later? "

The watery eyes still have the tears that have not faded, flashing urgent light, the uneasiness of worrying about gain and loss, people can't help but feel soft at the bottom of their heart, the words of denial have been swirling on the tip of their tongue, but they can't speak at all.

Then, lanli saw the disappointment and sadness in the bottom of Annie's eyes, like thin rain and fog, twining on the color of her pupils. The little girl slowly sat down on the bed and released Lan Li's wrist. The smile at the corner of her mouth drooped with the arc of her shoulder. The light of the whole person seemed dim.

"I know. You'll leave after all, won't you? " Anne murmured.

"Annie." Lan Li called softly, trying to comfort him, but he didn't know how to express it. In the face of parting, in the face of children, the language has always become so pale.

Annie murmured to herself, "I know, I know. You think I know nothing, but I know everything. " Annie raised her head. Her eyes turned red again, covered with mist, and filled with tears and grievances.

"Dad and Karen are together. Every time he comes to the hospital, he hides and chats with Karen. On the phone, he laughs happily, but when he turns to face me, he becomes sad again. He doesn't like me, and dad doesn't like me all the time. But why? Is it because I did something wrong? Is that why dad left? "

"Dad's gone, Heather's gone, Alex's gone, and now mom's not coming. Why? Why is that? Why does everyone have to leave? Why can't we be together forever? I want to grow up so that I can be with the people I like and never be apart

"Now you're going to leave, too. Because you want to pursue your dream, you want to be the best actor in the world, you can't stay here with me, right? You still have your own life. You can't stay in the hospital forever and accompany me to grow up, right? I know. I know everything. "

"Why am I the only one in the hospital? Why am I the only one left? Why is no one willing to accompany me? Did mom suffer because of me? If I die, will my mother be happier? So I won't be alone again? Why is everyone leaving? Why? "

Thick cry cavity, one by one to ask, but the tears are always circling in the eyes, stubbornly stay, did not slip down, puckered up the mouth, mumbled vaguely, and then the voice began to choke up, that pair of smart eyes full of confusion and confusion, delicate eyebrows tied together, unable to stretch.

Lan Li felt sad, but he didn't know how to comfort him.

Raised his right hand, Lan Li gently stroked the wrinkles between Annie's eyebrows, showing a shallow smile, "Annie, life is like a journey, very long, very long."

Lanli suddenly realized that Annie was a child, but not just a child. For life and death, this is an indispensable part of her life, and early in her childhood began to witness; If you continue to treat her as a child, and don't tell her anything and beautify everything, sooner or later she will break these lies and lose hope for life.

So, Langley knew it was difficult, but he decided to have a good talk with Annie.

"Everyone has his own journey, so there are some journeys that we will cross and walk side by side, and then we will go our separate ways and continue on the journey.

Some people start from the beginning and then leave halfway; Some people join in the middle and then disappear quickly; Some people, after the confluence, will accompany us for a long, long period of time, until someone reaches the end, and then say goodbye forever. "

"Everyone has to complete his own journey, sometimes on his own; Sometimes, go together. If you are lucky, when you grow up, you can meet a partner who will walk hand in hand with you all your life; Even if not, it's the best memory of the journey I've ever experienced. "

Lanli's voice choked slightly for a moment, but it was still steady, and then he said, "just like heather. Heather has finished her life journey, but these past years are the most precious memories. It will always accompany us, just as Heather never left. "

Lanli raised his right hand and gently rubbed Annie's hair. "This is a lesson that everyone must learn and face. Whether it's going alone or in groups, in the final analysis, we all have our own journey to complete. "

Annie just looked at Lan Li in a daze, and the sadness in her eyes flowed out little by little. "But... But why can't I learn?" Then, tears broke through the dike and cried again, "I don't want dad to leave, I don't need Heather to leave, and I don't want you to leave. Why? Am I too stupid? So I can't always learn? "

The cry broke Lan Li's heart and almost broke the bank. He could only hold Annie in his arms carefully, hugged her tightly, patted her on the back and said in a low voice, "no, it's not like that. I can't learn it either, and I haven't learned it until now. "

It's always so difficult to leave. No one can escape the natural law of birth, aging, illness and death, but he has not been able to learn it after all.

At the door of the ward, Anita was holding pills and water cups in her hand. Her back was only on the wall. She didn't push the door open, but just stood quietly in the same place, sad. In the hospital, after being used to death, the nerves gradually began to numb. It seemed that they didn't care. They seemed to be used to it. But in fact, they were not calm, but gradually forgot the taste.

She raised the back of her hand and wiped the tears on her face. Anita pushed the door and went in. She put the object on the table. Then she patted lanli on the shoulder and shook her head. "Today, Annie's mood is too ups and downs. She can't continue to cry, otherwise she will have problems."

With a long breath, Langley gently patted Anne on the back again and said in a deep voice in her ear, "this is a very, very difficult subject, which I haven't learned until now. So, you don't learn it now. It's normal. Take your time, take your time. Now in this journey of life, I will always accompany you, and I will study with you. "

Annie's mood gradually calmed down, and the cry slowly disappeared. Then she raised her red and swollen eyes and looked at Lan Li seriously, "really?"

"Really." Lan Li nodded with a smile and said firmly, "not forever, but at least now." Lanli wiped the tears on Annie's face with his fingers and said, "you know, I want to be an excellent actor. I need to continue to run. If you can accompany me all the time during this journey and find your dream, then we can run towards our dream together!"

Annie bit her lower lip, hesitated for a moment, and said timidly, "is it like Heather?"

Lan Li's eyes flashed slightly, but his smile remained unchanged. "Yes, just like heather. However, you can have your own dreams, just as Alex has always dreamed of becoming Superman, you can also find your future goals. "

"I don't want to be superman. He's not good-looking." Annie frowned and said in disgust.

Lanli and Anita exchanged a sight and both laughed. Finally Anita said, "then don't be superman. Annie can think about it slowly. However, if you want to pursue your dream, the most important thing is to take good care of your body, a strong heart and a strong soul. This is the most perfect dreamer. "

Anita picked up the transparent plastic cup and water cup with the tablets and handed them to Annie.

Annie looks at lanli and catches the positive light. Then she takes the pill, simply looks up and swallows it. Then she drinks all the water in the water cup at one go, and smiles at lanli triumphantly, waving her quilt as if to show off. Seeing the bright smile in lanli's and Anita's eyes, Annie is shy again, All of a sudden, he got into Lan Li's arms.

Looking at the thin little Annie in her arms, Lan Li just felt a twinge of heartache.

For adults, they never understand how much thrilling and earth shaking they have experienced in their children's world, and their childhood memories have long disappeared in the cruelty and indifference of growth.

Lanli once read a professional research report, which mentioned a time illusion. For children, the passage of time is very fast, almost three times that of the adult world. In other words, one minute may have passed in the real world, but three minutes have passed in the child's world.

In the past year, it was three years for Anne; And the absence of joss and Langley, is also such a long and difficult time, every minute is not easy.

So, in today's meeting, Annie collapsed twice, and her mood could not be stabilized at all.

"Annie, how about setting up a secret communication line between us? If you miss me, just send me a text message or a video, and I will reply to you as soon as I finish my work. What do you think of this idea? "

Lanli's words had just set, and then she saw Annie's eyes brighten up like the little sun.