Chapter 815

"No, you're not Heather cross. You are a coward

Blue Li angrily looked at the figure on the bed, and she closed her eyes peacefully. She gave up resistance, struggle and hope. She refused to wake up again and fight again. She held on too long, too long, she held on too tired, too tired, she just wanted to close her eyes and have a rest.

He knows. He knows everything. He has experienced, he has been in the same state, it seems that as long as you give up, everything will become simple.

However, the simplest thing in the world is to give up. Anyone can give up, but not everyone can insist on it. After giving up, it's all over and there's nothing left; If you persist, you may not be able to see the rainbow or have hope, but you can embrace at least one possibility.

It is precisely because of the crisis of life and death, just because of the experience of reincarnation, at this moment, lanli is more angry and helpless. "Heather, fighting may mean suffering and suffering; But if you give up, there will be nothing

At this moment, Lan Li revealed the most precious and secret secret secret in his heart: he was Chu Jiashu, and he had experienced everything that Heather faced.

Still, Heather didn't respond. The one who welcomed Lan Li was still silent, dead silent.

The mood suddenly out of control, Lan Li suddenly stood up, do not want to but knocked over a stack of books on the table next to, scattered all over the floor“ The sound of "Hua la la" reverberated in the quiet ward and broke the silence. Lan Li's reason dragged him back to reality. His turbulent emotions gathered together again. His chest was so stuffy that he felt pain. He took a long breath. Lan Li squatted down and picked up all the books.

A note paper fell, Lan Li picked it up, ready to clip it into the page again, but his eyes fell on the Juanxiu handwriting on the note paper.

Every stroke of the font, crooked, like a child who just learned to write. But Langley knew that it was Heather's handwriting. Exercise writing is the simplest and most basic part of Heather's daily physical therapy. Doctors even ask Heather to write a diary to record her mood and thoughts.

This is not a diary, but... Lanli doesn't know what it is. informal essay?

There are a lot of messy drafts and fragmented text fragments on the note paper, which are randomly written on both sides. Only a few sentences can form a complete sentence, but in the chaos, they firmly grasp the line of sight.

"I love you too deeply, but you never know, too afraid to leave, can only pretend not to care; I long for you so much, but I never show it. I hope to be with you in silence, until each other's heads turn white. "

The curves and turns of every word are so stiff and hard that they seem to pour all the strength of the body and all the weight of the soul. The longing and romance between the lines are so strong that people can't breathe. The most simple language, but has the deepest emotion.

Secret love, the most powerful and powerless word in the world, can let people into heaven, but also can push people into hell. This is a solo dance of one's own. In one's own space, it is dancing selflessly and blooming wantonly, but nobody knows it. So beautiful, but so lonely.

The force was so strong that even the heart could not help shivering.

"When you look back at me, I forget my age at that moment. I just want to dance with you at this moment. Your charm will never fade. Let me promise that you will only be more moving in the future. You make me want to have a home inexplicably."

Involuntarily, fragments of memory come to mind.

When he first came to mount Sinai Hospital, under the guidance of Anita, he visited the main departments and facilities of the hospital and listened to the explanation of matters needing attention.

In the rehabilitation room, a little girl is losing her temper. She stubbornly shakes off the help of everyone and the support of the parallel bars. She firmly and resolutely relies on her own feet to move forward. Her steps are a bit faltering, but there is no problem. She slowly and steadily moves forward.

However, one accidentally tripped his left foot over his right foot and almost fell down. Lanli was just nearby. She quickly helped the girl, but before she could stand still, the girl angrily pushed lanli away and growled, "I can, I can! Who needs your help? I am a normal person, I have nothing wrong! Don't treat me like a patient! "

The girl's parents rushed over in a panic, but the girl was pushing and shoving, refusing everyone's help.

The nearest blue Li also affected the fish, shoulder and head were hit. After confirming that the girl was standing, lenley released her hands and said with a smile, "it's not only the patients who need help. Every normal person may need help. " After that, Lan Li politely gave way and, under Anita's leadership, was ready to leave.

"Young man," cried the girl's mother Lenley turned his head. "Sorry, and thank you."

It was his first meeting with Heather, the girl covered with thorns, the girl struggling to resist fate, the girl who would rather fall than admit defeat.

"I want to be with you, through death, because you are always there when I need you most. I'll love you till my last breath, until death takes me away

At the age of 16, she spent nearly half of her life in the hospital. Her hands and feet were bound in this small world. She could not see the bright future and the meaning of life. Even the right to love and be loved was deprived.

She wants to like every girl, like the most handsome boy in school, secretly fall in love with each other, because each other's eyes and deer bumping, because each other's shoulder and heart; She wants to dress up like every girl, show her best year, enjoy the beauty of youth and revel freely; She also wants to be like every girl, looking forward to the beauty of love, dreaming of meeting her partner, holding each other's hands tightly, and going to the end of life.

But she can't, and she can't see.

She can only carefully cherish her vision and expectation, her beautiful vision in the bottom of her heart, even the feeling of envy and yearning are not easy to reveal. When death comes, how grand and magnificent it is, but it is so far away.

The sight falls on the bottom of the note paper, and then the familiar and strange words bump into the bottom of the eye, "Lan Li, Lan Li, Lan Li, Lan Li, Lan Li..." circulation, recycling.

One name after another, one after another, quietly tells the girl's heart, timid and shy, sweet and bitter, beautiful and romantic, a simple word, but can contain the world's most powerful and gentle feelings.

Suddenly unable to defend the ground, Lan Li's nose was sour, all the defense lines were completely defeated, and he was helpless to surrender. He just squatted in the same place and could do nothing. At this moment, Lan Li was so helpless and at a loss. He just froze here, put down his arms, put down his guard, so sad.

He didn't know. He never knew.

Carefully put the note paper back into the book, and then put the book back on the table and sat on the chair again. Looking at the green and tender face quietly, it was so pale that there was no blood color. It was peaceful and quiet. The corner of lanli's mouth could not help but outline a smile and asked softly, "Hey, Heather, in case you forget my voice, I'm lanli."

"Remember? You said you would never let go. " Lanli said sincerely and attentively, "last time in the Pioneer Village, we watched 'buried alive', met Lily Collins, and solved a gangster with a gun. Later, I wrote the song 'march forward', remember? You said it. You will never let go. "

"March forward" is a song written by lanli for Heather at the beginning

"My love, don't worry any more. When the world is cold and the heart is heavy, I will embrace you warmly, never let go, never let go until the blood dries up. Don't worry any more. I firmly believe that we will march forward bravely."

So, as Heather left, she whispered in Langley's ear, "I'll never let go.".

"Now, it's time to deliver." "We're all people who keep our promises. You don't want to leave with the reputation of 'treachery'," he said

Looking at Heather's pale face, the dark blue blood vessels are flowing slowly under the skin. It seems that we can clearly see that the vitality is dissipating bit by bit, gently pulling the heart, and the slight pain is coming continuously. It's not fatal, but it's unbearable.

"Do you remember the cancer fighting me? Adam didn't give up, and you shouldn't either Lanli slowly stretched out his hand and carefully covered his right hand on the back of Heather's left hand. The white skin still had a light temperature, but there was a slight palpitation in lanli's hot palm, which made people shiver.

Langley said in a deep voice, "Adam has a new life, and you can. For example, your dream? Singing my songs on the stage of "American Idol"? I'm waiting quietly; Another example is my movie? " But it's going to be released soon. Without you, what about the box office? For example... "

The voice stopped here, dragging out a long ending, shaking gently.

Lan Li could not help drooping his eyelids, hiding his embarrassment, "for example, the concert. Maybe one day, I can go on the stage and hold a concert. Although I don't think there will be an audience, maybe none of the tickets can be sold; But, it doesn't matter. As long as there is an audience, as long as you are willing to appear in the audience, I am willing to complete this concert. What do you think? Is this a good deal? "

The bitterness of his nose was almost hard to swallow, but lanli showed a big smile, bright and beautiful. He reminded Heather's little thumb and gently pulled it. "Heather cross, let's make an agreement like this, OK?"