Chapter 718

Adam grew numb.

He knew that he was suffering from cancer, and everything was so real. The pain of chemotherapy tormented his body all the time. The sensitivity of his bare head in the sea breeze of Seattle didn't help him. He was no longer calm, indifferent and indifferent. His world had been turned upside down, and he couldn't be indifferent any more.

But he doesn't feel any emotion. He's trying, he's trying, and he's getting nothing.

Kyle used his cancer to hook up with his sister. He didn't feel it; He didn't feel his mother's killing all the time; Rachel betrayed him and made out with other men. He didn't feel it; Rachel tries to sweet talk for himself, Kyle indignantly denounces, two people quarrel, he does not feel.

He was alone in the face of chemotherapy, cancer, lonely and lonely to travel through the big city, he did not feel; When walking the dog, some girls showed interest in him, but he didn't feel it; Kyle took him to the bar to meet his sister, chat, drink and roll the sheets. He still didn't feel it.

He's losing weight, his body is protesting, his stomach is rejecting all the food... He doesn't feel it.

The world of cancer and the real world have been integrated. Cancer is changing his life bit by bit, but he has no feeling. He tried to be angry, he tried to be sad, he tried to care, he tried to be a part of the world, he tried to reawaken his feelings, he tried to connect with life again, but he failed.

He's going through all this, but he doesn't feel it. It's like... It's like all the changes brought about by cancer are naturally integrated into his life. He knew that he should be angry, he should be lonely, he should be sad, he should be lonely, he should be painful, he should be afraid, he should be afraid, but he didn't. He can't feel anything.

Numbness.

That's how he feels.

Watching Adam sitting quietly in the bus stop, waiting for the bus. Without Rachel's pick-up, Kyle still has his own job, so Adam can only take a bus to get back and forth. Tessa tasted a faint sadness.

With the thin shoulders, pale lips and confused vision, cancer has become more real than ever before. There are no ups and downs of dog blood, no wailing vent, no self pity sadness, and no strong smile. It's just numb, just like a hiker in the bleak autumn, walking alone in the mountains, Difficulties and obstacles extend under the feet, but the lonely and indifferent figure outlines the magnificence and magnificence of the whole world.

Gently out of the tip of her tongue, Tessa tasted the taste of tears, but this time, her eyes are dry, no tears. The taste of the tip of the tongue goes deep into the heart.

On the way home, Catherine sees Adam and forces him to get on the bus and escort him home.

Looking at the car like a garbage dump, there was a trace of silence and disgust in Adam's cold eyes. Catherine seemed to be aware of Adam's meaning and said awkwardly, "sorry for the confusion, I'm not very good at sorting out these things."

"I can see that." Adam's head didn't move. He just tilted his eyes. Instead of rolling his eyes, he produced the effect of rolling his eyes. That kind of disgust had already overflowed, which made Tessa's mouth turn up again.

"If you need me to park, or anything else, let me know." Katherine thoughtfully said, "chemotherapy, for example..." finally, Katherine simply stated her original intention, "if you feel nauseous, just say it. I'll stop. "

"Good. Thank you Adam said in a hoarse voice, but his neck didn't turn and he looked straight ahead.

The carriage was quiet again. This strange silence had a kind of absurd joy. Adam's expressionless face and Catherine's rich expression formed a sharp contrast.

"So you don't have a car?"

"No, I don't even have a driver's license."

"Oh? Why? "

"Because... Well, it's too dangerous. This is probably the fifth leading cause of death? " Adam blinked, blinked again, still expressionless. "I guess it's just a little behind cancer." Still no expression.

The contrast was so striking that there was a lot of laughter in the whole screening hall. Tessa and hope are no exception. But after laughing, the kind of light sadness and bitterness is again turned up, empty heart, no landing. In a trance, Tessa seemed to feel the same way, deeply feeling Adam's numbness.

"But... What about the bus?" Catherine was still surprised, "after chemotherapy, take the bus?" It sounds so sad. What about the family? What about friends?

"Oh, yes." Adam seemed to react later. "Usually Rachel comes to pick me up. But... "Adam stopped for a moment, and there was a trace of thinking in his eyes. He seemed to be thinking about what it meant, but he didn't come up with a reason. When he came back, he quickly said," but we broke up. She's cheating

Fact, just a statement of fact.

Katherine had been stunned, driving and looking back at Adam, her face was full of worry; But Adam's face was still calm, which made Catherine blink and ask, "Adam, do you want to talk?"

Adam pursed the corners of his mouth and raised his eyebrow. "Actually, I don't need it. We have just left the hospital. There is no need to turn the car into a clinic. You're giving me a ride like a friend. "

"Yes, Adam." Catherine had no way to stop worrying, "if..."

Adam's voice was slightly raised. "You know what we really need to talk about is that there's rubbish on your ground!" Perhaps, he still cares, in the heart, those feelings and emotions are real, but he chose to forget and ignore. It's just that he doesn't want to talk about it now“ It doesn't make sense! I mean, you can at least put a garbage bag in the back seat. "

"Adam, your girlfriend betrayed you." Catherine interjected, but then she saw Adam's turning eyes. For the first time, Adam responded and acted. Her calm eyes made her flurried away. "We don't have to talk about this. There's no need!"

Adam noticed Catherine's confusion. When he took back his eyes, the corners of his mouth rose, and the numb and stiff brows softened gradually.

Catherine was a little embarrassed, a little raw, and she tried to resolve it, so she went on and on, "I just broke up with someone else myself. It feels really bad. "

"Really? Oh, I'm sorry Adam didn't anticipate such a path.

"No, it's OK. It's good. Because... "Katherine suddenly stopped and stood there for a long time." we shouldn't really talk about this. "

"Why?"

"It's not appropriate to talk to you about my personal affairs. Because if you know about my personal problems, the relationship between doctors and patients is tricky. " Catherine's explanation made Adam understand, but she couldn't help adding, "but I have to admit that I still check his Facebook every day to see if he's dating someone. It's really sad." Catherine frowned and regretted, "I shouldn't have said it. I shouldn't have said it."

Adam's smile rose from the corner of his mouth and nodded, "yes."

Embarrassment“ We should listen to the radio. " Catherine turned on the radio and let the voice cushion the embarrassment between the two.

Adam turned his head and looked at Katherine quietly. There was not much expression on his face, but the tenderness after the laughter just now was left. The dark brown eyes had little light, but he could not tell whether it was the refraction of light and shadow outside the car window or other reasons.

"Stop the car." Adam said without warning.

"What's the matter, aren't you feeling well?" Catherine got flustered and immediately pulled over to the side of the road.

"I just..." Adam opened the car door and picked up all the rubbish under his feet. "I can't bear it any more." Then he got out of the car with the garbage and walked towards the garbage can next to him.

"Are you serious?" Catherine's voice was distorted and flustered. Then she trotted to catch up with Adam. "Adam, wait, wait, you don't have to. It's my dinner. That brown bag is my dinner

The laughter broke out in the entire screening hall. Tessa hugged her stomach and watched Adam holding a lot of garbage. Then Catherine pulled out a brown box from it and signaled that it was her dinner. All the audience couldn't stop laughing. Then the two started cleaning up Catherine's car on the side of the road.

Simple conversation, it seems that there is no special content, but let people feel warm, light warmth. The eye contact between the eyebrows, the emotional communication between the words, watching, listening and listening, the smile climbed up the corner of each audience's mouth and brow, but did not notice.

But Adam noticed. Emotions seem to come back, and life seems to come back.

Rachel comes back in a mess. The frustration of her career and the abandonment of the artist make her disheartened. She hopes to get back together with Adam, and he makes her get out of his home; Rachel keeps one of her paintings at Adang's house. She doesn't take it away. She says it's for him. He and Kyle smash eggs at the painting and burn it.

He joined Alan and Mickey, sitting in the courtyard, enjoying the life of a celestial life brought by a cannabis in the afternoon, and then make complaints about his work.

He bravely refused his mother's excessive care and said that he could be strong; He opened his heart and tried to communicate with Catherine, and the psychological negotiation finally began to take effect; He took the initiative to receive chemotherapy and began to fight cancer.

But it all stopped when Mickey died. Mickey died, a cancer patient died, his chemotherapy friend died.

Television news is reporting that "according to speculation, Mount MOA in the savai highlands erupted early this morning, emitting four miles of black plumes of dust and smoke. Initial reports said the volcano was weakening. But now, according to the analysis of our experts, its activities are actually strengthening. "

Adam sat in his place, watching the news, and was so stunned.