Chapter 465

Adam leaned on the steering wheel and released all his emotions. His shoulder revealed a feeling of sadness. Under the heavy pressure of the night, the fragile line seemed to be unbearable and could collapse at any time. The faint halo of the street lamp fell to the ground and fluctuated along the shoulder line, but it became more and more lonely and at a loss.

Adam leaned weakly against the back of the driver's seat and breathed out a long, long breath. His thick eyelashes trembled slightly, and his narrow eyes revealed a trace of loneliness. It was like the butterfly wings in the drizzle, splashing with water mist, but it was hard to hide the fragility, It spread slowly in the thick night.

This is the end. The night before the operation, nothing happened, nothing changed, he just tried to drive once, less than 200 meters away, and then suddenly stopped. Such nothingness.

The air suddenly quieted down, and the mixed emotions filled inside and outside the car. Without saying a word, it was better than a thousand words. Seth could not help biting the tip of his tongue, which avoided the embarrassment of tears.

After the catharsis just now, Adam could feel that the flame in his chest became mild, but it still didn't go out. He regained his spirits and thought about it in his seat. He always felt that he should do something more, but he didn't have a clue. He suddenly recalled something and then took out his mobile phone.

"No!" Seth saw the first eye of the mobile phone, narrowed his eyes and pondered for a moment. Then he understood Adam's plan and cried out in horror, "Oh, No." When Adam opens his address book and begins to search for phone information, his foreboding is coming true - is Adam going to call his ex girlfriend Rachel?

This is definitely a disaster! When you think about Adam, he is always too kind and easy to be cheated by Rachel. He will always forgive Rachel easily. In the face of death, Adam is likely to forgive Rachel again. This is the typical Adam. In this way, all their previous efforts and insistence will be invalid, which makes Seth chagrined and angry.

Seth just felt a burst of chest tightness, as if the old story of will was playing out in front of him again. He could not help crying out, "no, you can't call her, man!"

But Adam didn't respond at all. He just focused on the mobile screen, which made Seth beat up the window angrily, trying to attract Adam's attention, growling, "think about what she did to you!" But it still didn't help. Adam found the number and dialed directly. "You're a girl," said Seth, grudgingly! Adam

This infuriated Adam. He turned his head and yelled back, "you're a selfish bastard!" His face was red, his mouth was foaming, his eyes were wide open, and he didn't have the usual warmth or the usual cleverness. He said, "you care more about your damned love affair than being my friend!"

Seth was stunned by the sharp accusation, shyly avoided his sight, stepped back, put his hands on his waist, bowed his head and sighed, but found that he could not refute it at all. Finally, he had no choice but to stand in the same place, could not say a word, and fell into the mood of self blame.

Adam found that he was panting heavily, but only after a few words. He began to gasp rapidly. He felt that his breath was a little uneven. He took a big breath of oxygen, but missed his trachea. As a result, he began to cough violently. His weakness quickly swept over his face, and his back began to sweat, The pain of his soul being pulled away made his brow lock.

The spread of the virus in the body is so clear and real.

However, Adam was not angry. On the contrary, he outlined a smile in the corner of his mouth, which was ironic and sad. Why not? He has no choice, has he?

"Hello." The phone is connected, but the voice on the other end is not Rachel, but Catherine, Adam's psychologist.

Not long ago, when he met Katherine, he attacked and hurt her, just like a jerk. At least, before the operation, he can express his apology.

"Cough." Adam was caught off guard and choked again, "Hey, this is Adam." The smile on the corner of the mouth rose, but after the taunt, it was a little embarrassed and strange. I could not help but droop my eyes to hide my emotion.

"Adam?" Catherine is very surprised, obviously did not expect that the other party of the call is actually Adam, "it's already midnight, what's the matter?" Catherine's voice was a little flustered, too. I don't seem to know how to deal with the current situation.

This makes Adam dumbfounded, chuckling out a voice, mouth gently pulled down, "probably is a sudden nervous breakdown." Then he shrugged, "I think I just pulled my throat." Yes, he uses a rare word like "throat", not throat. It's a strange laugh.

"..." this was Catherine's first reaction. She was stunned for about a second. Then she came back to herself. Her panic gradually calmed down. She slowed down her voice and said, "I'm really, really happy. You'll call."

The familiar voice seems to have a healing energy. Before we can react, our eyes turn red. After the emotional collapse just now, he doesn't have any protective ability. He will be broken at a touch. "I just want this to end soon." His voice began to become hoarse, and a strong force dragged his legs down. A bitter smile came out of his mouth, but the glittering light of his eyes became brighter and brighter. "I'm really fed up with this disease."

The sound suddenly stopped.

Adam gritted his teeth to death, but he still could not restrain the slight trembling of his lips. The shining tears twinkled in the corners of his eyes. The pain deep into his bone marrow was like smoke, but he could not get rid of the shackles of his eyelashes and fell down. The last trace of dignity was barely maintained, but he still could not persist, We had to surrender.

Surrender.

In the end, he was defeated and chose to surrender. In front of cancer, raised his hands, put down his weapons, gave up all resistance.

Anna Kendrick was suddenly stunned. She just came to help with the play. All she needed to do was to stand by and read her lines and help lenley get into the play.

But at this moment, looking at Adam in the driver's seat, a little bit faded, a little bit fragmented, a little bit surrendered, the pain and despair, penetrating the distance, penetrating the screen, penetrating the night, slowly penetrating, like countless cattle hair, along her pores, into the blood.

All of a sudden, Anna has a kind of impulse to cry. The uncontrollable sadness almost breaks her psychological defense line. The pain from her nose makes her drop her eyes and concentrate on the script in her hand.

"You know, if the surgery doesn't work, then... That's it." Adam gave a light smile, but he didn't feel the smile at all. He just felt endless disappointment. The light in his eyes was shining gently, but the surrounding night was eroding bit by bit, as if the naked eye could see that the residual light was getting weaker and weaker. The life was passing slowly, slowly, but could not stop. It was so cruel and sad.

Smile stopped in the corner of the mouth, like smoke dissipated, no sound to "call" a. Lightness, softness, loss, loneliness. The indifferent light in those eyes was in danger in the rich night, but it was like a flowing feast, magnificent, blooming and annihilating in an instant.

Anna couldn't help but hold her breath, for fear that her breath might blow away the last vitality. After all, she couldn't hold back her tears and fell down. She knew that death was cruel, or that she thought she knew it, but now, when Adam's life and death were playing out in front of her own eyes, that turbulent emotion easily defeated her.

The reality is so cold, so cruel... So bloody.

"But... You know, I've never been to damned Canada..." Adam said with self mockery. His voice became feeble and his nose ran down. He didn't care. He raised his hand to wipe it and tried to raise the corner of his mouth. But the light in his eyes was still fading, and the night seemed to be getting thicker and thicker, "I never told a girl I love her..."

Words, stop here, a breath stuck in the throat, unable to change. If he wants to, he can continue to say it, but what's the point? This is the end.

The eyelids drooped again, covering all the emotions. There was no sound, no color, no movement between the eyebrows. The look was like the wet and cold water vapor in the streets of Seattle after the rain. "That sounds stupid, right?"

"No, it's not stupid." Anna found that her voice was trembling slightly. She wanted to say something more, but she found that her mind was blank. Any language was so pale that she could not express her inner feelings, and could not pacify Adam's emotions. Finally, she could only stop here.

She bit her lower lip to keep her emotions from leaking out. But it's so hard.

"Sorry, I was such a jerk that day." The words of apology finally came out. Adam raised his hand in a hurry, wiped away the tears from his eyes, and began to smile with relief.

"No, I'm the asshole." Anna shook her head and said, "I'm too incompetent for you. This job is really hard. If I mess up, I could ruin a person's life... "

Adam pursed the corners of his mouth, stopped for a moment, and whispered, "I guess we're all beginners."

"Yes..." Anna responded in a low voice.

Two people so silent down, no one spoke, the quiet air in the slow flow.

People always think that they have seen through life and death, that they have conquered nature, that they have mastered the laws of society, but in fact, people have never really understood birth, aging, illness and death. In front of the laws of nature, everyone is a beginner, and no one can get used to it.