146 My Present And My Future

Karl was still trembling as he waited for Cecile to speak. They were sitting on one of the bench at the main veranda as they faced each other.

He told her everything and he started it with the moment he had met her. He confessed that he had fallen in love to her that day she said hello. Then he continued as he came clean of everything. He did not leave a single thing that involved Cecile. He told the truth, every little piece of truth from the start.

After his long confession, Karl exhaled loudly. He felt that the heaviness in chest had lightened.

He couldn't believe that he finally did it. There's no more hiding, no more secrets.

He looked at Cecile with begging eyes. He was ready to beg on his knees for her forgiveness and so he did.

"I'm really sorry Cecile. I did not intend things to hap..." he repeated but Cecile stopped him.

"Shhh... How many times do you plan to say sorry to me? Things already happened and I understand everything. You did nothing wrong that time… You're also a victim." said Cecile with her soft calm voice.

"But you know what makes me sad? It's because you are saying sorry for the wrong thing..." he heard her speak with tone of irritability.

Karl creased his forehead and looked at Cecile with a confused face as he blinked several times. He was quite at lost with the sudden change on Cecile's expression.

Cecile's mouth twitched as she let out a long deep sigh. She already had a hunch that the man that night who she had slept with was Karl. But she was too occupied with Aldrin's death to care less.

She knew Karl was a nice man. He was always good to her even before but it really surprised her that he had loved her in silence for that long without saying a word until now.

"Karl we've been together and married for years and you will only tell me your true feelings now? Did you know the dilemma I suffered thinking you just married me because you want to take responsibility on what had happened that night?" Cecile snapped.

Karl's mouth opened wide in shock. He did not expect Cecile's reaction. He could say that her current look was neither negative nor positive.

Cecile told him also everything and how she had waited for him to clarify things.

They apparently had a big misunderstanding for both being quiet for all those years.

"I assumed all your actions with the thought that you're doing things because you feel responsible. For all those years, how I hoped that we could truly act like married couple with feelings involve like normal people, like how it should be… Not like a robot that we often did things because it's our responsibility as a married couple," Cecile continued but this time she was stammering as she talked. Her tears that she was trying to suppress began to fall out from her eyes.

Hearing that, Karl hugged Cecile tight and said, "I'm really sorry. Cecile I promise to make things right. Oh God, I'm so stupid. I am sorry..."

Cecile was sobbing still while in his embrace as she speaks, "Why are you so insecure and a sissy? Yes, Aldrin was someone who was very special and will always be kept in my heart. But past was past. Karl… you are my husband and I love you. Aldrin was my past but you are my present and my future..."

Yes Cecile loved Karl because he was someone you could easily fall in love with.

"I love you so much Cecile. Geez, I should have been honest earlier. I've wasted so many years. How about we try to make a sister for Ryu? I think it's not too late…" Karl suddenly said with a jest to make Cecile laugh.

It broke his heart seeing Cecile was crying…

Cecile burst out in laughter as she wiped her tears then she hit Karl's chest with her little fist. "You… how can you joke around like that as if we're still young," Cecile said while she blushed.

"Well we have to make up for those wasted years and I intend to pay you double for my stupidity. So dear wife, how about I start it by giving you a princess this time? I think it's still possible… let make a princess…" Karl continued as he caressed Cecile's blushing face.

This time Cecile smiled and said, "Stop teasing... and joking... See? I'm no longer crying so stop."

Karl winked at her before he pulled his wife once more and wrapped her to his embrace.

From now on, both of them will focus on the future… they will move forward making up for those years wasted.

It was never too late, as long as they live; they could seize the moment and always start anew... together… as married couple in love.