Chapter 305

Ye Hezhan went out first and left the space for Lu Qingge alone. He didn't want to pry into her privacy unless she was willing to tell him. Otherwise, he hopes to give her enough private space and have her own secret!

Therefore, from the very beginning, ye Hezhan did not investigate where Lu Qingge had gone or what he had experienced during the six years of her disappearance. He does not care about Lu Qingge, but wants to give her more respect.

Of course, he wants to know everything that belongs to her, including her past. But she doesn't want to mention it, and he will respect her. Let the past be the past! Because what matters is the present and the future!

It's him and her!

After ye he goes out, Lu Qingge opens the notebook that Huo Zhenzhen left her. It turned out to be Huo Zhenzhen's diary. It's just that this diary is special, especially for Lu Qingge.

From the first day that Huo Zhenzhen saved Lu Qingge, to later, Huo Zhenzhen's psychological transformation from trying to use Lu Qingge and his two children to deal with ye Hezhan to treating them as a family!

Lu Qingge looked very carefully, as if between the lines. She could see Huo Zhenzhen's expression and appearance at that time, and even Huo Zhenzhen's mood at that time!

Lu Qingge carefully reads every mood and feeling recorded by Huo Zhenzhen. At this moment, she can clearly understand Huo Zhenzhen's struggle of entanglement and contradiction.

Huo Zhenzhen really wants to avenge her own brother he Jun, but she feels deeply guilty for taking advantage of her equally important Lu Qingge.

Huo Zhenzhen has been in this kind of tangled contradiction until later. Lu Qingge deliberately away, let her make up her mind, out of this last step.

Lu Qingge saw that at last, she hid her face, tears of regret came out from her fingers, "Zhenzhen, right I should not deliberately keep away from you when I find your special feelings for me.

I should have expressed my feelings clearly to you earlier I should let you know! "

Although she can't give Huo Zhenzhen a response in that kind of emotion, it doesn't affect their friendship, and it won't go against her original promise that Huo Zhenzhen will depend on each other.

She will be with Huo Zhenzhen, can be friendship, can be family, but not love.

She believes that as long as she talks well with Huo Zhenzhen, Huo Zhenzhen will understand Is it true that the result will be different?

It's just that it's too much I can't come There is no Huo Zhenzhen in this world, there is no Huo Zhenzhen!

Lu Qingge's hand accidentally touches the recorder's player, and Huo Zhenzhen's voice comes from it.

"My pure fool, let me guess what you are doing now? You must be crying now, aren't you? And it must be ugly to cry. It's ugly! "

Lu Qingge cried to himself and said, "yes, it's ugly. It's ugly."

"Qingqing, if you can. I hope you will never hear the recording I left you, so that I will always be with you. But I know that there has never been a if in this world.

In fact, when I first embarked on the road of mercenary, I had long accepted the fact that my life did not belong to me. But I'm very glad that when you are desperate, I stopped you in time.

Because my life can not, but your different ah. I have nothing but you. And you, and Xiaobei, and Nanbao.

You know, other people choose this road for money, even elder martial brother Yexun is no exception. And I'm not! I want to learn something and avenge my brother myself.

I'm just sorry I didn't tell you who killed my brother. He is ye Hezhan, the father of Xiaobei and Nanbao!

I'm really sorry I didn't tell you about my brother's killer until now. I kept it from you because I knew it. You can never choose between me and Yeh.

Since you can't choose, let me help you make this choice. You said you had to make a choice, didn't you?

Qingqing, don't be sad. When I choose to go this way, I already know my result. My life is too tired, but being with you is the most simple and happy time in my life.

But I know that when I don't control my feelings and fall in love with you, the good time won't last long. Because your love has already been given to a person, how can it be given to me?

So in order not to let you know my special feelings for you, I always pretend that there is no abnormality, and dare not show a little bit!

You don't know how careful I am. Because I'm afraid, I'm afraid that you know my special feelings for you. I'm afraid that you will dislike me and avoid me!

But I see you and ye he fighting together, I finally can't resist my share of jealousy and possession. I broke out, almost did not tell you directly, my feelings for you.

So I've been covering up my feelings for such a long time. After all, you've noticed it! You start to hide from me intentionally or unintentionally. Even if we live under the same roof, we hardly meet each other every day.You can't imagine how desperate I am. It's like the whole world collapsed! From the beginning, although I will not have a clear response to your feelings. But I still moth to the fire, perhaps, I still keep a hope for the miracle in my heart.

When the last hope was shattered, I tasted the helpless despair. I want to retain you, but I find that I have no qualification to retain you.

I'm just a homosexual! Why should I ask you to become the same person for me. Instead of watching you get farther and farther away from me, until finally, completely disappear in my world. Let me die! At least I died, for me, is a relief!

So Qingqing, don't be sad, don't be sad. This is my choice! Qingqing, finally promise me one more thing, OK? "

Lu Qingge forced his head, "as long as I can do it, I promise, I promise!"

"Don't feel sorry for me, live a good life with ye Hezhan, and help me earn all my lost happiness! Qingqing, I love you

"It's true!" Lu Qingge hid her face and cried, as if she was going to shed all her tears at one time!

Lu Qingge couldn't remember how long she had been crying. In the end, Lu Qingge couldn't cry. This is Huo Zhenzhen, her Huo Zhenzhen!

The world's most stupid, the most stupid Huo Zhenzhen!