Chapter 88 - Subconsciousness

Green roses petals on the white marble floor, my white gown sweeping them as I walked, why were there green roses everywhere? I looked away to the altar I was leisurely approaching, Cedric stood there with a smile against his lips, the warmest I have ever seen, what was happening?

I looked at my gown again and then the banquet of roses I held, I gasped as the cognizance got to me, I was getting married to Cedric again? I looked at the crowd, Mother was there with a smile against her lips and...

"Papa?" I said in awe, he smiled at me with a proud look, and tears of joy leaked from his eyes, why was he here? He wasn't allowed in the Empire, how come?

Even Danette, Camille, Lord Lawrence, Lord Dalton, and Lord James were all present, they were all here, Even the Emperor himself. This must be a dream right? I turned back to Cedric, he still awaited me at the altar with a loving smile, it called me and I found myself overcome by it. A faint smile crossed my lips, Cedric, I was finally becoming his and his only, and he would be mine too.

Nothing can stop this moment, for what I felt for this man was bigger than me, I felt the world for him, I wasn't just gonna lay my vows for me when I get to the altar, I would also tell him how I truly felt, I will lay out my feelings to him as I intended and let the whole world know just how much he means to me.

I was finally getting to the altar that seemed the longest I have ever walked, the aisle was constantly prolonging and he was getting further away, why? Why can't I get to him? He was just there, I needed to be by him, forever, I wanted him. I frown but he kept his smile, wasn't he sensing my distress? Can't he see I can't get to him? Maybe I should tell him and make him understand.

"Ced-" I was cut off from my words when a bride wearing the same white gown, as she passed, I saw her red hair.

"Alice?" I said perplexed, she whirled to me giving me a smirk, she was dressed beautifully in the wedding gown, the finest design I have ever seen.

"He's mine Sylvia," she said with a smirk, daring me by it. She seemed confident and brave like I mattered little and she was the right one standing, just by her looks I felt that way, like a forgotten bride.

"Forever" she mouths, making sure the words got to me, as my eyes trembled, she whirled, proceeding to walk to the altar.

"No" I mouthed trying to walk further but the altar still prolonged going far away from me. But she was able to get there without any effect at all, without any struggle, as it willed her to be there.

"Cedric," I said but he didn't look at me at all, he still smiled but I knew it wasn't for me, it was for HER. He kissed her hands gently as he welcomed her to the altar. This can't be happening, I shake my head, the priest is already reciting some words.

"No, Cedric," I said but he didn't take his eyes off hers, staring at her like she was the only being on earth, the looks he only gave me but now to her like I never existed.

"Magnus Nicklaus Darkmore, do you take Princess Alice to be your lawfully wedded wife?" The priest asked.

"I do" he replied without even an ounce of hesitation, like he meant it, he meant to be with her. My heart sank, my breath quickened, this can't be real. I can't accept such, the man I love was about to be married to another.

"Princess Alice Alexander, do you take Magnus Nicklaus Darkmore to be your lawfully wedded husband?"

"Yes I do," she said breathlessly.

"I now pronounce you man and wife, you may now kiss the bride"

"No... no" my heart broke.

Their lips locked passionately and I felt my world shattered into pieces and everything lost, I drowned in my emotions.

"Nicklaus!"

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"Nicklaus!" I yelled sitting awake, my body shaking, my breath raspy. I was back in my room, I held my head groaning, pulling my knees to my chest, the same dream again?

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"You don't seem to be having much sleep my lady, the bags under your eyes are getting more prominent," Olivia said, powdering the under of my eyes to cover the bags I have had the past few days.

"I have been having an unsettling dream, what makes it weird is, it's the same," I said staring at my dull expression at the mirror, the past few days, the same dreams, the same pain, it was like a reliving cycle and odd because the priest mentions Cedric's true name and I too.

"Nicklaus" I whispered under my breath, his middle name the only name I called whenever I awoke from my nightmare.

"Dreams are of our subconsciousness my lady, perhaps you are bothered by something even in your sleep or something you can't forget" she states.

That could explain it but it still doesn't clear the fact about Cedric's true name, it was odd. I gave a heavy sigh.

"I don't think I can sleep anymore, the dreams are tormenting me", to relive the moment when Cedric would marry Alice, kiss her and caress her as he did me was torture.

"You have to, my lady or you would get sick," Olivia said worriedly.

The doors of my room barge open as Mother walks in, I rose to my feet greeting her with a bow.

"Mother".

"My dearest Sylvia," she said with a smile. "What's with your dull look? Your birthday is around the corner and you look like this?"

I froze as my eyes went wide, wait, my birthday?

"Judging from your look you have forgotten your own birthday, you silly girl, whatever are you thinking?"