Chapter 139 - All The Love

Alice and Adam spent a sleepless night in silence in each other's arms with no idea on how to let go of their guilt enough to console the other. They were supposed to be leaving this city in the morning and Alice felt that her heart would be too heavy and she would not be able to ever return here without thinking of this awful time. Adam packed his bag gloomily. He wanted to explain his absence for that time but felt a little uncertain. What if she hated him for being so concerned about another woman when she had specifically come over here to be with him. And then she had even suffered so much because of him!

Finally, he decided that he would explain Zhao Hui's situation later. He had anyways arranged suitable doctors here and she would soon be taken back to their country. Maybe once her condition was stable, he could introduce them. What was of utmost gravity at this moment was to get out of this trial stronger. Though he had no idea how to go about it.

Their bags packed, Adam picked up the doctor's reports and slowly placed them in the bag as well and silently sent the bags down while he waited for Alice. Just then there was a knock on the door. He widened his eyes as he let in Apollo, Gyeom, I.M and Felix. They usually met in the corridor before their departure. And they were all holding something or the other.

"What is going on?", he asked with a frown.

Gyeom was the one who stepped forward this time and asked, "Where is sister in law?"

Just then Alice stepped out and gave a tentative unsure smile to everyone. She felt a little lost, unsure how to thank these wonderful people or even how to face them. Ignoring her awkwardness, Gyeom went forward and placed the small bag in his hands into hers, before saying," We are going to be travelling by bus and it will get boring on the way. Some of our fans have assembled this and sent their love for you."

Alice had barely handled the bag when I.M placed a small recorder on top of the bag, "If your eyes get tired or reading, just listen to this."

The next item was placed in Adam's hand. It was probably a book. Adam looked down at the title and immediately felt gratified. It was a book about how to support yourself and your partner after losing a child. 

The guys had gone above and beyond everything for them. Whenever he thought of Alice being alone in this room, when she had fainted, he felt an inexplicable fear in his heart. If it had not been for them, he did not know if Alice would have even survived the blow .He had read her file last night and knew that if she had not received the treatment on time, she could have been infected and lost the ability to ever have a child. 

Soon everyone had boarded the bus. Unlike the normal bus with the congested seats, this was a customized sleep liner and all the boys who had pulled an all nighter in order to compile their gift  for Alice, slipped into the bunks to snore away.

Adam helped Alice up into a bunk and crawled in with her, ready to see what Gyeom had given Alice. Slowly small hand written notes and printouts were taken out of the bag and Alice could only read them with teary eyes. Some people had shared their own experience with having a miscarriage while some had written words of encouragement and hope while some had even shared how they too had felt guilt and how they had overcome it. And Gyeom it seemed had stayed awake overnight and look through each and every word of encouragement while staying up all night and then printed them out for her. Her gratitude towards all the fans as well as these boys could only increase by every minute and like Adam, Alice felt really lucky for having them around Adam. They had not just accepted her as Adam's wife but also as their family. From waiting outside her room to doing all this to cheer her up. 

Next up they heard the recording that I.M had given them. Alice recognized the first voice the moment it sounded. And stiffened. It was the doctor who had told her about her miscarriage. The voice that she did not think she would ever forget. Next up was the voice of Felix who asked about Alice's condition and as the doctor explained the miscarriage in the most laymen terms, Adam understood what Felix wanted to do by this. 

He looked down at lice who lay in his arms, listening with her eyes closed and rubbed his hands over her arms and shoulders in comfort.  Once the conversation stopped, he replayed it so that she would hear it properly," Even in medical science there is no specific reason for a miscarriage. It can be due to chromosomal abnormalities due to genetic factors, or it can be that the uterus is not strong enough or anything for that matter. And it is not something that you can have control over. In Mrs. Parry's case the fetus was not even the size of a nail and she could have miscarried for no specific reason at all. Yes physical stress may play a role but from what we understand that could not be the reason in Mrs. Parry's case. It was just fate."

The words repeated over and over again until finally, Alice simply snuggled into Adam and continued to keep her eyes closed as she contemplated over what she had learnt. Before slowly falling into an exhausted sleep. Adam continued to rub her arms as he then read through the many experienced that people who had miscarried and their spouses shared their feelings over the matter.

And finally, with the love from his brothers and his fans, he knew that they would be able to over come this obstacle soon!