Chapter 368

"But Xiangxiang said it could be operated on. You'll be well after the operation..." Wang Guiying said.

"She said it could be operated on, but there was no instrument at all. The iron sheet in my brain would still move. One day it would cut my blood vessels and I would die..."

"But isn't it better to have Xiangxiang with you?"

"I don't want to see her sad for me. I don't want the last memories I brought him to be painful..." Gu Zhennan's face was pathetic, tightly closed his lips, clenched his fingers tightly, and his joints turned white because of his strength.

"But you also hurt her heart. Don't you see how sad she was just now?" Wang Guiying shook her head.

Gu Zhennan looked sad. "It's better to have a long pain than a short one. She's disappointed with me. Maybe she won't feel so bad in the future. Maybe she can forget me earlier... Mom, in fact, I'm also in pain. Just watching her cry, my heart is like a knife!"

"She usually likes to laugh and is a lively person, but look at her this time. In order to take into account me, she is so careful and walking on thin ice. She wants to see my face. I'm afraid I'm not happy and live so hard. I can't bear to..."

"Then be nice to her!" Wang Guiying can't understand.

"I can't control myself." Gu Zhennan smiled bitterly, "I think I'm useless. You don't know, mother. Seeing her live so trembling and love so humble, I hate myself... "

"What a proud person she was. She lived so recklessly and was in high spirits, but because of me, she could only lower her voice, dare not speak loudly and dare not laugh. She was not her anymore. I couldn't destroy her!"

"It's only a short pain for her to leave me now. After a long time, maybe she can forget me. I hope she can be happy..."

"But Zhennan, what do you do? You are too bitter? " Wang Guiying burst into tears.

"You haven't had a good life since you came to our house when you were eight years old. Now it's not easy, but you......" Wang Guiying burst into tears. "It's our family. I'm sorry for you."

"Niang......" Gu Zhennan's tears also came down.

"I still remember when your father and I were helping others dig canals. You were so small, dressed in rags, black and thin on your face, your eyes were so hungry that you swallowed when you saw us eating..."

While recalling the past, Wang Guiying wept, "your father gave you his food. You knelt down and kowtowed to us, said you were willing to be our children, and said your surname was Gu, just like us..."

"At that time, your father and I really thought you were given to us by God. We didn't have children for so many years. I don't know how many people laughed at us. When you came, we finally had children, and your father also had a smile."

"You are really a lucky star. I was pregnant with Zhendong not long after you came. You don't know how happy your father and I are!" Wang Guiying said as she wiped her tears.

"At that time, you were so young that you rushed to help us do things and didn't dare to eat more food. I know you were afraid that we would not want you if we had our own children, but you are the lucky star of our family. How could we not want you? We treat you as our own son..."

Gu Zhennan's eyes are also red.

That year, he ran out of his house and later wandered around. When he was thirsty, he held some water by the ditch. When he was hungry, he turned over the trash can to find food, climbed the train and went wherever he went until he met Gu Jianguo and his wife.

In fact, he observed them for several days and knew that they were good people and had no children. Only then did he appear in front of them.

He said his surname was Gu and his name was Gu Zhennan. He said he could be their son.

They did not despise themselves at all and took care of themselves as their own sons.

But he was still terrified that they would not want him, so he worked hard, ate less and did more, so he wanted to have a home.

"Later, your father was in poor health and became ill. We went home. We left home for ten years and brought you and Zhendong back. No one knew that you were not our own, and we never told others..."

"I know, mom, I've been grateful for so many years..."

"But our family is sorry for you. Because of your father's illness, you suffered a lot in those years, and the burden of the family was on you. Later, you couldn't go to college. After all these years, if it weren't for us, you wouldn't have had such a hard time..."

"No, no, if it weren't for you, I might have frozen to death and starved to death..." Gu Zhennan shook his head and his eyes were red. "Mom, you gave me a home and gave me warmth. I've never regretted coming to this home..."

"But you're not happy. You've never smiled. You've only had a smile on your face in the past two years. But why did you drive her away? I can see that Xiangxiang has real feelings for you. She doesn't care about those things. Why do you..."

Gu Zhennan smiled bitterly, "Mom, she can not care, but I must think of her. I don't want to see her unhappy and careful..."

"But child, you've hurt yourself..." Wang Guiying burst into tears.

"I... Oh!" Gu Zhennan smiled sadly, "maybe I won't live long. I don't care, but I may not be able to be filial to you..."

"Zhennan, don't say that. You hurt my mother's heart so much, Zhennan." Wang Guiying was very sad.

"Mom, I've thought about it. If I die, the cement plant will be left to Zhendong. There's a big plant over my oil field that wants to give it to Xiangxiang. Mom, don't blame me. That's all I left her..."

"Stop talking, Zhennan. We don't want these. I just want you to be good..." Wang Guiying burst into tears.

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Guo Xiang ran out from home. It was summer, but the wind blew on him, but he had a bone chilling chill. His brain was white, like heavy snow. The whole person was as cold as being wrapped by snow.

She ran to Ji Changlin in tears and scared him.

"What's the matter? It's Zhennan..."

"No!" Guo Xiang shook his head desperately, "Zhennan, he doesn't want me anymore. He wants to divorce me..."

"Why?" Ji Changlin was shocked.

"I don't know, I don't know, master. What did I do wrong?" Guo Xiang squatted down crying and covered his face with his hands. Tears flowed down from his hands.

"He... Must not want to drag you down or make you suffer. He is not that kind of heartless person..." Ji Changlin sighed.

"But I do. I'm not afraid of suffering. I'm willing to bear it with him!" Guo Xiang cried, "why can't he understand me? I'm willing to change for him, willing..."

"This may be the reason why he wants to separate. He doesn't want you to change for him. He thinks you live too hard..."

"But I don't think it's hard. I'm willing to step back. Even if he really can't be cured, I'm willing to spend my last time with him. Why did he drive me away?" Guo Xiang can't understand.