Chapter 1903

（3） Fall in sorrow

I lay on my side on the warm bench paved with tiger skin, listening to the girl in the palace talking about the recent developments in the back palace.

"You mean when you heard that I was pregnant, lady Shufei broke the tea cup in front of her servants in the palace?" I opened the plush, sat up slowly, looked at the girl in front of me and asked.

"I feel that lady Shufei is jealous that she has been favored by the emperor, and so soon she will have the emperor's Dragon seed..."

"Pearl, don't talk nonsense. Is that what a little girl can say about the harem? The last lesson was not enough?" I interrupted the little girl's mouth, the little girl immediately shut up and knelt down on the ground: "it's the maid who talks too much, please forgive me."

"Get up, and don't talk about it any more." I glanced at the girl at my feet, "pass a message to the girl beside the lady, and then say that I have something to ask her to enter the palace."

Facing Pearl's puzzled eyes, my palm slowly caresses the protruding belly. The child can't stay, but before

Severe pain spread from the stomach to the four limbs, the pain of tearing, like a blunt knife to cut a piece of meat on his body, in fact, it is true. The flowing blood constantly reminds me of what is flowing out of my body, that is... My child!

"Yan'er, hold on, I can't live without you. If you don't hurry up, I'll let you all be buried with me if something happens to your mother. " Ear is the concern of the light chant and slightly trembling roar.

Cold sweat from my forehead, my eyes in a moment empty to the extreme, what completely lost, just like when in the fire, want to hold the hand of the mother, but can only watch the fire a little bit devour her, so weak, so painful, as if even consciousness is completely emptied.

The maid of honor came with a basin of clean water. The man was not fake and drove everyone out, slowly wiping my body, as if touching a crystal doll that might break at any time. He was careful and solemn.

"Child..." I turned to look at him, hoarse voice let me some trance, this voice is I send out?

He wiped my knuckles with a thump, and silence permeated between us.

For a long time, the suppressed sobs slowly rose and reverberated in the whole room. There was something dripping on my fingertips, accumulating more and more. My eyes shrank and I couldn't believe looking at the man who buried his face in my palm.

"Why did God do this to me, why did he do this to us? How can you have the heart, how can you have the heart? " Tears down the corner of his eyes, wet the palm of my hand, at that moment, my heart seems to be burned by something in general, dull pain.

Lying on the edge of the bed, he took me in his arms.

Familiar and warm breath, familiar and warm embrace, let my nose suddenly a little sour.

It's really strange that my tears have already been drained in that year? Didn't you make a decision before you came back here?

But now, why see this person so painful, my heart will still follow the pain? I don't know. I really don't know.

On the second day of the abortion, tuobahong summoned all the slaves in the palace to ask for a crime.

"Drag out all the people in the temple and cut them down." Tuoba Hong's bloodshot eyes are particularly shocking.

"The emperor spare your life, the emperor spare your life. The slave does not dare to be slack in serving the empress. He does not have half empty words. I hope the emperor can see clearly." The kowtow and begging for mercy of the slaves echoed in the empty bedroom, with a trace of strangeness.

"Did the Royal concubine's child fall by herself?" Tuoba Hong reached for the tea cup on the table, and the tea cup fell apart beside the palace man.

"Emperor, spare your life, emperor, spare your life." Begging for mercy comes one after another.

"The emperor, the empress of the imperial concubine had visited before she suffered from abdominal pain. At that time, she also brought some tonic to take with her..." Pearl's sudden opening made the atmosphere in the palace condense.

"Lady?" Tuoba Hong gritted his teeth to spit out these two words and left with a wave of his sleeve: "I'll give you another chance to take good care of your empress. When you come back, you can see that your empress is half poor. None of you want to see the sun tomorrow."

Tuo bahong left such a sentence and did not return to my bedroom for three days, but these three days were enough to make the whole empire appalled.

On the first day, the imperial concubine was killed. More than 100 people, including the imperial concubine, washed the steps of the Meridian Gate. The reason for the killing was to murder the emperor's heir.

The next day, it was found that the abortion of the imperial concubine was caused by the medicine given by the imperial concubine. The imperial concubine was an accomplice, and the chief conspirator was the queen. In a rage, the emperor abandoned the queen and put her in confinement.

On the third day, the prince kowtowed to the court and pleaded guilty for his mother. He said that the evil people of the imperial concubines would bring disaster to the Northern Wei Dynasty. The emperor was angry at his unfilial behavior and abolished the prince.

In just three days, the princess was killed, the queen was banned, and the prince was abandoned. I was obediently lying on the bed of my bedroom, listening to the ups and downs of the court, waiting for the man's return.

On the fourth day, he finally came back to me and stroked my hair. The first sentence he said to me was, "how are you after you become mine?"

That pair of star like eyes, dyed bloody, but as always gentle, I definitely looked at him for a long time, finally spit out a word: "good."

He laughed, and his curved eyebrows were full of naked joy, but with strange tears. I don't know why, my heart was hurt, not very sharp, but to the marrow.

On the day when I became Queen, I sat in front of the dressing mirror, smeared rouge, pasted yellow flowers, helped the heavy crown on my head, and put on the complicated Xiahe.

Looking at the mirror like a demon like charm of their own, a little bit of rouge lightly smeared on the lips, the bright red is like the burning flame, once close will be pulled into the fire, burning.

"General Li, you can't go in." Pearl's voice came from the outside, and made me make up a little.

Bang, the door was rudely pushed open, and Li Huan came in with a cold face.

"General Li, if I remember correctly, men are not allowed to enter the harem, let alone the Queen's bedroom. Are you trying to rebel I narrowed my eyes slightly and looked at the man who accompanied Tuoba Hong from his childhood.

"Queen?" Li Huan was not frightened by what I said, and sneered, "if this is what you want, I have nothing to say, but please think more about it for the emperor, otherwise, she will regret it one day."

Li Huan said this to me with a strained face, then turned his head and left.

My heart slightly a sudden, shaking hands against the side of the dresser, feel cold sweat flowing down behind me, he knows what? Regret? No, I won't regret it, never! I clenched my hand clasped on the table, and my slender nails left marks on the table.

（4） Die in sorrow

Spring comes back, the snow melts, and there comes the sound of water. I stretch out my hand to take the snow water falling from the eaves. A hand stretches out from one side to wipe my cold hand clean and wrap it into the warm and generous palm.

"Yan'er, don't be naughty." Tuoba hongjunlang's face is faint haggard, and the original energetic eyes are also dyed with a layer of black circles.

"The emperor is very busy recently?" I asked in a low voice.

"Well." He just answered me gently, then picked me up and walked to the inner room.

The next day, when I woke up, he had left my bedroom. He never mentioned political affairs in front of me, but there is never an impermeable wall in this world.

In less than half a month after the abolition of the crown prince and empress, he made me the queen and led me all the way to the palace. The vigorous and resolute style and the cruel and bloodthirsty means have already made the civil and military people of Manchu Dynasty panic. Rumors abound. What's more

"The emperor should not ignore the Northern Wei Dynasty for the sake of a generation of enchantresses. This man was sent by heaven to harm us in the Northern Wei Dynasty. Please arrest him immediately and fire him in front of the Meridian Gate. Only in this way can the public opinion and the country be pacified!" It was an elder of the two dynasties, standing on the side of the road we were going out, telling us to die.

Tuoba Hong looked down at him and said, "the Duke of the country is old, but he can go home." He led me back to my bedroom.

"Are you afraid?" Tuoba Hong holds my hand, kisses my forehead and looks at me anxiously.

I shook my head and said with a low smile: "now in everyone's eyes, I'm afraid that I have become the favorite of Xia Jie and Daji of Shang Zhou. If I go on like this, I'm afraid that I will destroy the reputation of the emperor. The king might as well consider the proposal of the next king..."

Before he finished speaking, he was held against his lips and looked into the man's complicated eyes: "if you are really the beauty of the country, I will be the king of the country."

I was stunned, but I didn't know how to respond, until the sound of rapid footsteps came from outside, and the palace guards knelt down in front of us in panic: "tell the emperor, empress, how does the emperor deal with it

"Dead?" Tuo Ba Hong's eyes glared, and he held my hand tightly. With a cold face, he said, "take the coffin and bury it, and transport it back to the government."

"Yes." The guard stepped down and the man buried his face in my neck.

I shiver, low call: "emperor."

"Don't move, let me hold you for a while, just for a while." That person's voice rare took on some helpless frailty.

My hand meal, slowly stretched out on his back, can not say what kind of feeling in the heart, clearly know that things are moving in the direction they want, but there is no joy, I quietly closed my eyes, know that the next will be full of wind and rain, but tired.

The emperor's name of killing spread all over the Northern Wei Dynasty again. No matter the common people or the civil and martial arts were all ready to move. They were waiting for an opportunity, just as I ignored everything and waited for the arrival of the last moment.

They didn't make me wait too long. That night, the fire spread from the east palace to the main hall, and the deafening cry was blocked by the thin door. He sat on the throne, looking stunned and haggard.

This is the first time that I have seen such a weak man. Without the aura of the emperor and the power of majesty, he is just like a lost dog, and this is due to himself.

Clearly I should laugh, should be wanton ridicule, should take this time to all the way, but feel throat is blocked by something in general, how also can't open the mouth.

There are only two of us left in the palace of nuota, and my reason is eroded by silence.

Just when I was about to lose control, the door was suddenly pushed open, and I trembled all over. It was Li Huan who came in, not the thieves who made trouble.

"Here you are at last." Tuoba Hong walked down from the main seat as if he had been waiting for this man from the beginning.

"Wang, his Highness the prince has already led 5000 people into the side hall. I'm afraid it won't last long here."

Li Huan respectfully reports the situation outside, but Tuoba Hong doesn't have a trace of fear, and his eyebrows are dyed with a smile.

"Take the queen out of the palace." Just six words hit my heart like a heavy hammer, which made me look at him in disbelief. As soon as I wanted to say something, he bowed his head and kissed all the words.

"I know what you want to say, Yan'er, live a good life." He was still smiling, with tenderness and farewell in his eyes, and a trace of emotion I couldn't see through. I suddenly became nervous, feeling that something was out of my control, but I couldn't help it.

In the brain, the pain from the neck takes away all of his consciousness, and the final consciousness stays in the person's complex eyebrows and eyes, as well as the whispering light call: "Yan'er, I love you."

No, no! My heart clamored to refuse, but my body went into sleep step by step against my will.

When I woke up again, I saw Li Huan's complicated eyebrows. I propped up my upper body, and the lost memory rushed into my brain. I anxiously grabbed Li Huan's sleeve and asked, "what about him? What about the emperor? "

Li Huan did not answer my question, quietly looked at me for a long time, that pair of deep eyes like an abyss, can pass through countless barriers, peep into the deepest part of my heart, I feel guilty of lowering my head, holding his sleeve hand but stubbornly did not let go.

"Don't you think it's too late to ask this question now? Empress, no, maybe I should call you princess Moyan. "

Li Huan did not have any ups and downs of words, let me shock, let go of his sleeve, looked up at him in surprise: "you know from the beginning?"

"As like as two peas," did not you find your face exactly the same as that of Liu Fei? Li Huan looked down at me, the eyes were too hot, too fierce, let me inexplicable panic.

"Since you have known for a long time, you should know why I came back here. Why don't you tell Tuoba Hong?" I asked, biting my lip.

"Ha ha ha..." Li Huan sneered, and finally the sneer turned into laughter, which made my heart mention my throat again.

"Tell Wang? Why should I tell a person like Wang? "

Li Huan's words made my eyes widened to the extreme again. I tightly grasped the clothes in front of my body, and almost pulled the body under the clothes to bleed.

"Impossible, impossible." I whispered, blank in my head.

"Why not?" Li Huan had some cruelty in his eyes. He was so cruel that he wanted to cut me to pieces. "Even I could recognize your face at a glance, not to mention the king who grew up with you and saw you more and more alive."

"I don't believe it, I don't believe it." I hugged my head and covered my ears, trying to block Li Huan's words from the outside. "If he knew my identity, why would he leave me with him? Why do you let me do what I want? If he knew he was my brother, how could he touch me? How can I be pregnant with that incest product? No way. You must have lied to me. "

"No Li huantuo definitely interrupted my self talk and looked at me with pity.

"What?" I looked at the young man in front of me.

"Wang knew everything from the beginning, and that child was not the product of incest, because you were never the real princess of the royal family, never the real sister of Wang. You were just a stranger who had no blood relationship with Wang."

Li Huan's words were like shackles, locking all my consciousness in an instant, then hollowing out, I slowly let go of his hand and sat on the bed.

At that moment, I heard the sudden collapse of my world.

（5） Die in sorrow

I am the 13th Princess of the Northern Wei Dynasty. I was born to one of the four imperial concubines, Liu Fei. When I was young, everyone around me followed me. My father held me in the palm of his hand, and my mother regarded me as the flesh of her heart. But my favorite was my eldest brother, the crown prince of the dynasty, Tuoba Hong.

We grew up together, inseparable from each other, my father also joked that I would be betrothed to the eldest brother to be a child daughter-in-law. At that time, I just laughed it off, but I didn't expect that what I said in that year would become a prophecy.

I bowed my head and let the corners of my lips become bitter. At that time, I naively thought that the family could live the rest of their lives happily and never separate. But I didn't want that woman to destroy everything when she was ten years old.

"Concubine Liu's immoral conduct and immoral harem gave her three feet of white silk, and Liu's family was all over the place." That edict swept away all the happiness, let me fall from the cloud to hell overnight.

That night, I watched the figure of my mother's concubine hanging high on the beam, and the flickering lights reflected her pale face.

The fire burned all the things. In the terrible light, the servant girl beside my mother took me away from the palace. But at the last moment, I saw the woman sneering outside the palace, Mrs. Li, the biological mother of the eldest brother.

At that moment, hatred filled my eyes. Why her? And why him?

I got all the trust and sincerity I paid, but it was trampled under my feet. I vowed that one day I would let him pay for what he suffered, so I came back.

I thought I held everything in my hand, but in the end, I found that it was just the silent connivance of the man.

He knew that I had established my position in the palace by the royal garden. He knew that I had killed their children and put them on the lady. He knew that I had sent someone to frame the queen and infuriate the prince. He also knew that I had let out rumors about the Lord and made myself the target of public criticism, because I knew that he would protect me from the wind and rain.

He knows, all know, he just cooperate with me, smooth with me, let me get everything back and lose everything, too cunning, too cunning!

Tears down my cheek, but did not make a sound, Li Huan did not make a sound, just watching me collapse, watching me struggle.

"Where is he?" For a long time, I difficult to spit out a word.

"Imperial mausoleum."

I clenched my fists, looked up at Li Huan and said firmly, "I'll go with him."

Li Huan's eyes were full of surprise, but then gradually became clear.

The dim candlelight swayed gently in the corridor of the imperial mausoleum, and I walked inside step by step.

You knew that I was not your own sister. You knew that I was born with someone you loved before my mother's imperial concubine entered the palace. You always understood the intention of my father.

But you don't tell me. If you tell me, I won't banish our child because I love him as much as you do. I can't bear to let him become a taboo son and live in the world.

You are too bad, let me busy such a circle, but tell me, I do everything is wrong, let my heart forever for you to leave a seat, so you have to be responsible.

I slowly walked into the room where the coffin was placed and looked at the man in neat clothes. He was as handsome as ever, with a quiet face, as if he was just sleeping, not dying forever.

Fingertip touch his side face, the cold touch is so strange, memory every time he was held in his arms is so warm, but now the cold touch is reminding himself that in front of a corpse.

My old friend is a woman whom I regard as my sister You were reminding me then, weren't you?

Why does God do this to me? Why does God do this to us? How can you have the heart? How can you have the heart At that time, I naively thought that you were complaining about injustice. Now I want you to blame me, right?

"Brother Huang, you know that Yan'er is stupid. How can you speak so obscure? Yan'er doesn't understand. So you can't blame Yan'er for this. You can only blame you, right?" I stroked his face and asked willfully.

"You let Yan'er live well, but in view of the mistakes made by the emperor brother, Yan'er doesn't want to follow his words this time. It's a punishment for the emperor brother, and it's also a punishment for Yan'er. I believe the emperor brother won't blame Yan'er, right?" With tears in my eyes, I stepped into the spacious coffin and lowered my head to kiss his forehead.

Long sleeves flying, light and shadow Chuo, light reflected our two faces, blood donation splashed on the two people, integrated.

I reached across his chest, quietly looking at his side face, listening to the voice of blood dripping from his neck, as if I saw the figure of the man in a trance, I smile slightly.

"Yan'er, one day, I will marry you and make you the happiest person in the world."

"Well, from now on, I will only marry my brother and be his wife."

Once young crazy, peach tree, you promise me a lifetime commitment, I also you a lifetime love. After a thousand sails, I realized that what I wanted in my heart has never left, but you are no longer there.

People say that it's hard to paint a tiger's skin but not its bones. If there is an afterlife, I would like to draw your bones with my heart and never separate.