516 I HAVE TO GO

"Do you know who I meant?" Senja scrunched her face in annoyance to be interjected like that.

"I know who you meant and my answer is no." He said with finality.

"I have suggested him to looking for Gong Xu, but he didn't agree." Xiao Jun raised his hand in defeated.

"Xiao Tianyao!" Senja called out his full name in all seriousness. "You will not tell me that you hold a grudge toward him, right?"

"I will tell you that you will not go to meet him by yourself." He said resolutely.

"I will not go by myself, I will go with Uncle Su."

"I will not allow him to go."

"Then I will go alone!"

Senja insisted stubbornly that caused Xiao Tianyao groaned exasperatedly.

"Okay, I think I will leave this matter to both of you." With that sentence, Xiao Jun excused himself from the couple who were glaring at each other.

"Give me one reason that acceptable why I can't leave?" Senja huffed and crossed her arms.

"He is Modama's son."

"And you have a child with his sister." Senja said matter of factly.

A pain crossed Xiao Tianyao's face that made Senja regretted the moment she finished saying it, but it was the truth and he couldn't judge Gong Xu in that way. His excuse simply didn't hold the water.

"You should have known, since we met him and Senja at the Mountain Sui Sword Sect that he was no longer with Modama. They are different" Senja softened her tone. "Like Luna. She was against her father as well, right?"

With the mention of Luna, Xiao Tianyao avoided Senja's eyes as he stood up and took off her cloak, then sat down on the edge of the bed.

Senja knew that she had pushed his limit, but they needed to talk about this sooner or later. So, she followed and sat beside him.

"I don't mind your past with Luna." Senja started, she pulled her legs to her chest and hugged them while nestled her head on top of her knees. "She was a brave woman who stands with what she beliefs. Going against her own father must not an easy thing to do."

Xiao Tianyao still refused to look at her and gazed at the distance away.

"She loved you and she chose to be with you."

"She hypnotized and manipulated me to gain information, Senja." Xiao Tianyao corrected her.

"You will not be here if she chose to complete her task, from what I knew, the Emperor and Modama are very itching to get rid both of you."

Xiao Tianyao shook his head and turned around to look at Senja. His eyes swirled with anxiousness and uncertainty.

"She loved you Tianyao."

"But, I don't know if I loved her." Xiao Tianyao lowered his head, hiding the complicated thought that reflected in his eyes.

"Of course you do." Senja put her finger under his chin, urged him to look at her. "I saw you in much pain when you knew that you had killed her. You acted that way not because you were feeling guilty, but because you love her, and I could feel it at that time."

Xiao Tianyao grabbed her hand and planted tender kisses on her knuckles before he pulled her closer and kissed the crown of her head.

"And I was hurt you in the process… I am sorry, I never meant to hurt you." He buried his face on the curve of Senja's neck while saying his apologize.

"I know, you will never mean to hurt me." Senja kissed his shoulder and hugged him back.

They were staying like that until a few more minutes, enjoying the presence of each other, filled the empty holes of their own heart by savoring the warm of one another.

It was a comfortable silence until Senja reminded him with the matter at hand.

"So, I will go by myself or you will let Uncle Su to accompany me?"

With that question Xiao Tianyao groaned and let go of Senja's body. "Why are you so stubborn? Can't you just let the children be? We will find another way to cure them."

To find the cure of the children wasn't in their to do list and couldn't count as an urgent matter to be resolved, so when Xiao Tianyao rejected the idea of Xiao Jun to looking for Gong Xu, his brother didn't pursue the matter further.

"No, this is the way and I have to meet Senja as well."

"We will attack the Q city within three days. There will be bloodshed there and I will not let you get implicated." Xiao Tianyao glared at her.

"I just need a day to find them, two days to get away from the battlefield and on the third day, I will not be there." Senja blinked her eyes innocently, saying that three days was more than enough for her.

Xiao Tianyao looked at her with face devoid of any emotion as he spoke. "Now, I remember about him, Ye Xiu is a weird man."