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**Cannot touch

Cannot hold

Cannot be together

Cannot love

Cannot kiss

Cannot have each other

Must be strong,

And we must let go

Cannot say

What our hearts must know

How can I not love you

What do I tell my heart

When do I not want you

Here in my arms

How does one waltz away

From all the memories

How do I not miss you

When you are gone**

Joy Enriquez was singing from the cellphone near her ears.

Senja didn't feel the hard ground of the cave or the supposed dirt around her, instead she felt the comfortable of the bed and the soft pillow under her head.

She felt disoriented, but not dizzy enough to forget everything that had happened. The hollow in her heart still refused to close, as if it would always be like that…

Her heart tightened by the pressure of the memories about him that flooding in her mind…

The way he smiled…

The way he protected her…

The way he touched her…

And the last 'thank you' from him…

It's still echoed in her mind.

Suddenly she heard a shrill scream filled with agony. The sound was so heart wrenching and ear- deafening.

Only when someone yanked open the door with so much forces, Senja realized it was her own voice.

"Senja! What is going on?!"

The familiar voice that she missed… the familiar protectiveness of her brother…

"Sian, what happened to her!?"

Following after Sian, there was Lee and Zhao rushed into her room.

"I don't know…" Sian hugged the crying mess Senja, caressed her back hastily to calm her down.

Based on the sound of their footstep, Lee and Zhao were shuffling inside the room, checking every corner and windows. But, they could find nothing, there wasn't anything out of ordinary or possible harm.

Finally they came closer toward Senja's side and looked at her with concerned.

At this time, Senja had stopped screaming and was sobbing in Sian's arms.

"Tell us what happened, Senja?"

She opened her eyes slowly and looked at her worry brothers staring back at her, then she looked at her surroundings briefly.

In only a glanced Senja knew that she had returned to her world and she was in her own room.

"Were you sleeping and then… bad dream?" Zhao perplexed, crouching down on the bedside.

"Was it a bad dream?" Lee asked incredulously. The furrowed in his brows indicated that he didn't believe his own question. "You screamed like someone was murdering you."

Senja didn't answer her brother question… she buried her face on Sian's chest, looking for comfort.

Her family was here, she finally returned to the place that she belonged…

But, why she still didn't feel right?

"I missed you…" Senja said truthfully with weak voice, she hugged Sian's torso tightly.

The three brothers looked at each other back and forth, didn't understand what his sister meant.

"Because you only hugging Sian, does that mean you only miss him?" Zhao quipped.

With his remarked, he was earning a hit on his head from Lee and Sian at the same time.

"Hey! I just saying!"

With that, a faint smile graced Senja's lips… as she told herself that she would be alright.

Everything has returned to its place and it would fine…

She would be fine… eventually.

Right?

Gradually, Senja let go of Sian… as she looked at her brothers one by one, she indeed missed them.

"Bad dream…" Senja croaked.

The three of them raised their eyebrows in disbelief, Zhao wanted to argue and pursued different answer when Lee kicked his legs that automatically shut him up.

"Why are you wearing a weird dress like this?" Lee pointed at Senja's dress.

Senja looked down at the dress that she was wearing, she was still in her grey dress, the same dress that she was wearing when she went to the Mountain Sui Sword Sect.

"Cosplay costume?" Zhao asked quaintly.

However, it wasn't her dress that caught Senja's attention… it was her hair.

Her tresses long hair that draped on her shoulder looked odd. She got used to see her purple hair, but now her hair color returned to its original color. It was black.

She took her hair and looked at it with furrowed in her eyebrows.

"Now she looked at her hair oddly… are you sure she is fine?" Zhao whispered to Lee beside him.

After a moment of silence, Sian shook her body gently to get her attention. "Senja… what happened?"

"What date today?" She asked a question that was strange for them, but Lee answered her anyway. "Tomorrow is our mission in the hospital to retrieve the rare drugs?"

"Yes…" Sian drawled his answered, didn't understand why she was asking the obvious.

So… it's mean…

She came back three days before the night when grandma Riana asked for her help to find Yun…