487 THANK YOU

Senja kissed his hand tenderly as her tears stained the bed, her lips parted, but there were no words that could be formed.

The feeling that she felt now, was overwhelmed her.

"I love you Tianyao…" Senja confessed softly between her sob, feeling the urge to tell him those words. "I love you…"

At this moment, she regretted it, why she didn't say it often, why she didn't realize how much she loved him…

Although Xiao Tianyao wasn't the first man in her live or he wasn't the first person who held her hand or kissed her, but he was definitely the first person that could make her heart beat faster, made her craved for his kissed, felt safety with his presence and be contented by only holding his hand.

She wanted to spend her day with him…

She wanted to have a family with him…

She wanted to grow old with him…

Holding his hand and said in the end of their lives that they made it together…

Despite the fact that she has to leave him in the end, it wasn't the end that she expected, not even in her wild dream.

"I love you…" Senja chanted those words like a charm, hoped she could change their situation, so she could love him deeper and stay with him longer…

With difficulty, Xiao Tianyao moved his body slightly. Ignoring the pain on his back that made him suck in cold breath, he cupped Senja's face and kissed her forehead like what he always did. Appreciating her presence here as tears streaming down on from his eyes and fell on her hair.

"I love you Senja… and I always do…" He said between the rasp of his breathing.

He couldn't be grateful enough for whatever reason that brought her to his side. He missed her badly…

"What should I do? What should I do…?" Senja pleaded, she clutched her chest tightly, feeling the pain was become unbearable to endure as her breath couldn't catch up with her.

"Please go…" Xiao Tianyao pleaded again, he didn't want Senja to see him like this.

Senja shook her head.

"Please…"

"No…" She whimpered pitifully. "I want to stay with you… I don't want to go…"

Xiao Tianyao felt his whole body in pain… it hurt him greatly to see Senja was crying like this. He didn't want her to cry, he didn't want to make her sad… because he hasn't done anything that could make her happy.

He felt, he had brought more tears and hardship for her since the first time they met rather than something memorable for her to remember him.

He should have spent more time with her, kissed her deeper and held her hand longer… the fact that he wouldn't be able to do that made him regretted it deeply.

Right at that moment, Xiao Jun's voice traveled inside from behind the curtain. He said softly, "Senja… Master Ye Xiu is waiting for you…"

After saying that, Xiao Jun walked away from the tent, giving the time that needed for both of them.

"Please… do it for me…" It was the day where Xiao Tianyao begged many times, more than he ever did in his whole life. "Please go…"

Senja shook her head again.

"Please… I will wait for you… here…" He persuaded her with his blood pooled on the bed, stained the white blanket and Senja's dress.

"I beg you…" Xiao Tianyao said desperately. His hand had turned numb as he couldn't feel Senja's touch anymore.

Finally, Senja nodded. She felt like someone ripped her heart, pouring cold water over her body that made her trembling uncontrollably.

"Go now…"

Senja complied, she didn't feel her body anymore when she got off from the bed. She leaned over and kissed Xiao Tianyao's cold forehead.

She caressed his chiseled face that didn't have much color now. Running her hand on his forehead, his cheek, along his jaw line… his lips…

Xiao Tianyao had closed his eyes, appreciated the faint warm from Senja's hand on his face. Even though, he insisted on telling her to go, but when Senja's finger tips left his face, he couldn't help the burst feeling of longing.

"Senja…" Xiao Tianyao called her, he didn't even have strength to open his eyes and see her for the last time, but he had to let her know about this.

Senja was about to drag her shattered body out of the tent when she heard Xiao Tianyao's weak voice called her, she rooted on the floor with her back facing him, waiting for his words.

"I am sorry… I never want to hurt you…" He was talking about how he had hurt her physically and mentally regarding how he had treated her after the problem about Luna and his memories.

They never really talked about this and Xiao Tianyao would never have a chance to rectify his wrongdoings.

Senja shook her head, "I know… you will never hurt me…" She whispered.

"Thank you…"

That was the last word that Senja heard from him before she walked away from the tent.

She felt empty and lightheaded. She had stopped crying when she approached Xiao Jun and Yun who were waiting for her at the outside of the tent.

Not far from them, a carriage had been waiting for her.

With head hung low, she let Xiao Jun gave her a tight hug and whispered something unimportant to her ear.

"I will look after Tianyao…" Xiao Jun said before he let her go.

Yun carefully grabbed her hand, led her toward the carriage and helped her settled in. He looked at Senja sorrowfully.

She looked like an empty shell. Nothing that he said would reach her.

Slowly, Yun closed the carriage door, trapped Senja inside the dim of that narrow place. She felt suffocated as the pain in her chest intensified and was the only thing that she could feel.

Yun sat on the coachmen seat as he pulled the rein and drove toward the other direction.

Separated Senja and Xiao Tianyao further away.