Chapter 15

I am waiting for him. He ran towards me from the sun, smiling with a row of white teeth, but he passed by me and grabbed the person behind me. He reached out to shake hands with me and I reached out in a daze but he took his hand back. He pointed to the person next to him and said, “Alvin, this is my Omega.”

… Why you are calling me Alvin? Didn’t you always called me Al?

“Al.”

He changed his expression, and for a moment we returned back to that morning. He looked at me seriously and said it again, “Al.”

I wanted to reach out and grab him, but suddenly my perspective was changed again. I stood in front of the bed and watched him calling a shadow (in his arms) over and over again: “Al, Al, Al…”

No… I am the real Al…

Turn around and look back at me…

I anxiously wanted to call out for him, but I couldn’t make a sound. I could only watch him kiss the shadow, then he get down from his bed and stood in front of me. He was surrounded by a crowd of people and was introducing a person to me, “This is my Omega.”

“You can’t do that to me……”

I almost started crying.

“Why?”

“Because……”

“Alvin, this is my Omega.”

“Because I……”

That word seems to be hanging on my lips, but I can’t say it out. I was feeling anxious, like an ant on a hot pot, watching him looking disappointedly at me, then turned and walked into the rain. The Omega beside him opened up an umbrella for him. He(G) reached for him and looked back at me.

“I know. That day when I entered the dorm, you were watching a ‘movie’, it is a man and a woman.”

Because I… I like you…

“Because I……!”

I was abruptly shaken awake, and the last few scenes in my dream were still very clear in my mind. My eyes felt a bit sore. I looked at German with a stunned expression. His face coincided with my dream, and I couldn’t react to it for a while.

German frowned and asked me, “Why are you sleeping here?”

The soreness from my shoulders and arms reminded me that I was reading halfway through a book last night. Then I accidentally fell asleep on the table and slept through most of the night. Outside the window, it was still a boundless night, and German was wearing a camouflage uniform. His handsome face was dirty, like he has just finished digging a coal mine, and there were some moisture on his body. He went out for training for the past two days and should be just returned.

“I… I read a book and fell asleep…”

German frowned and stared at me for a moment, then suddenly touched my forehead. His warm palm makes me feel very comfortable.

“… you had a nightmare? When I just entered the room, I heard you keep calling ‘Watermelon Watermelon’. What kind of a watermelon dream you had to make you cry like this?”

I blanked out for a moment before I reacted and touched my face. Goddamn… these are really tears…

Not ‘watermelon’… should be ‘like’ ba, I was repeating that word in my dreams.

[Banana : ‘Watermelon’ is 西瓜/xi gua while ‘like’ is 喜欢/xi huan]

German went to take a shower, and changed into his pajamas. He saw that I was still dazedly sitting at the desk, thinking about my life. He frowned and pulled me into his bed with the strength that allows no explanation.

“If I didn’t come back, will you really sleep on the table the whole night? You got so cold from just a nap.”

He hesitated for a while before he hugged me and wrapped up my cold hands and feet.

“Alright, just sleep, it’s all dreams, it’s nothing.”

I stared at his face in the darkness almost greedily, until he quickly fell asleep from exhaustion.Then I secretly touched my smart device to record down my dream.

That sense of despair in my dreams, I…

… I don’t want to go through it the second time.