Chapter 83 - Something Important Today?!

Su Xi came back to her home and without meeting anyone, she directly went to her room.

Her head was in a total mess right now!

She slammed the door behind her and pulled her coat out and just laid on the bed like a lifeless person.

Her one hand was on her chest, near her heart. It was beating so loudly!

It was the first time she did something wrong.

Never in her whole life, she wanted to be involved in illegal things.

Whenever she used to see her father doing wrong things, her blood used to boil. But now, she is involved and comes in the same category.

She is also giving her children the same upbringing, which she had.

But Su Xi did not want her children to say that their mother is a don. But she already dirtied her hands into that. No moving back!

All she can hope is that her children understand why their mother is taking so many risks in her life at thus age. But, will her children understand? She wants to remove that constant fear of being called, 'a underworld member!'

Her breathing was not normal. She closed her eyes and started taking long breaths through her nose to stabilize herself. Her face was white from lack of oxygen or maybe because her heart was beating too loud.

After half an hour, being locked inside her room she was nor feeling good.

She just laid peacefully on the bed with her formal clothes on. Her breathing rate was now normal and her face again regained its color.

Slowly, she opened her eyes and saw her surrounding. She reached for the glass of water that was there on the side table. Just then, she heard butler's voice from outside. "Young Madam, you are okay? Shall I serve dinner for you?"

"No need! I will eat myself. Just serve the children and you can go to sleep."

"Okay. Good Night, Young Madam." Butler said from outside the door and went to the kitchen.

Su Xi remained in her room only. She can't face her children like this. Till her work is not done she won't be able to meet her children's eyes. Guilt might eat her up!!

'God! Help me with this. I know this is not right but this is for my family.' Su Xi thought and prayed.

She slept for a few hours without eating dinner.

But at midnight, she woke up by her hunger.

Her stomach was aching because of being empty. Su Xi tried changing her sleeping position and tried to sleep but her hunger was not going.

Su Xi woke up completely and went downstairs.

In the kitchen, butler Ni had left some food for her in the refrigerator. She was damn hungry right now and eating something will only help her in sleep.

She toom the food and sat on the dining table alone. It was all dark, lights were off and the moonlight was coming from a large glass window which was facing to the garden.

Su Xi was praying that those aren't caught and hope that she will be successful.

But inside her heart, somewhere a feeling was there. Feeling scared that will she be able to do it? What if she fails?....

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In the morning, Su Xi got up with a heavy head. Her sleep was not finished but she knew she has to get up. Today was an important day for her.

Today, she will finish all those things started by Ye Huo. All the mistakes he made, this was her first step in correcting them.

She got ready and wore a black dress. It was loose and comfortable. Usually, she keeps her hair open. It looks nice being opened and flying like a wave. But today, she was in another mood. She tied her hair into a ponytail and looked at her reflection in the mirror.

'You can do it, Su Xi. For your children and your love!' She was motivation herself but it was less motivation and more like giving strength to herself.

Making her mind and heart believe that this was the only option left for her.

Maybe Gu Yan never knows what she is going because of him, but once they get together, she will surely punish him even if that day is far!

She went down and everyone was sitting on the dining table, having their breakfast. Ye Shan was the first one to notice her. "Muma...." He got down and hugged her.

"Good Morning, Mum..." Ye Shan wished her.

"Good morning baby. Ah, Shan, you know this that getting down from the dining table without finishing your food is not a good manner." Su Xi scolded Ye Shan.

"Sorry, Mum. I will keep that in mind." He apologized and ran back to his table and started eating like an obedient child.

Su Xi also sat with them and Butler Ni served the breakfast to her.

"Mom, why didn't you come down yesterday? Are you okay?" Ye Nian asked while showing her concern. She had thought maybe her mother is angry with her.

No matter how much she fights with her, she was still her mother.

"Everything is a good baby. Don't worry." Su Xi passed them a fake smile but no one took much notice of it. It was easy to hide her fear inside her.

As her children were not that mature, they are not able to see through her.

Ye Nian smiled, "That is good. I have some work so I will be late today." Ye Nian told her. But Su Xi frowned.

"What important work?!?!"

"Um… Our exams are coming up so we have to prepare for them." hearing her explanation, Su Xi nodded but she felt somewhere Ye Nian was lying to her again on this matter.

"Is there something important today?" Ye Shing suddenly asked.

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