Chapter 142

Xiao Mo seemed to have no intention to talk to me. He ate so gracefully and didn't mean to talk to me at all.

After dinner, Xiao Mo put on his shoes and left without looking at me.

When I was in bed, I was so gentle to me. Now I feel like a changed person. He has changed so much that I am very lost.

I had no appetite. After silently tidying up the leftovers on the table, I left for the hospital.

Xiao Mo has left, and I don't need to stay. Moreover, I don't worry about Gu Xin, so I still want to see it.

When I came to the ward, Gu Xin was awake. My mother was feeding him chicken soup. Although I had surgery, my body still looked very weak.

After seeing me come in, the whole family just looked at me, and no one spoke to me. Although my mother didn't say anything, her eyes looking at me were full of cold.

However, Gu Xin became like this. Everyone was angry. I forced myself not to care about their attitude. Then I went to my mother and reached out for the chicken soup in her hand.

"Mom, you haven't rested all night. I'll take care of Gu Xin. Please find a place to rest with my father."

My mother didn't speak. She pushed me to the ground and stared at me angrily.

I looked up sadly and looked at my mother. Before I spoke, her blaming voice came.

"What are you doing here? Haven't you done enough harm to Xiaoxin? To what extent do you want to harm him!"

She still blames me for all the responsibilities. She feels that Gu Xin has become like this. It's all my fault, but it's clearly that he signed a gambling debt outside. Why should he put all the responsibilities on me? Why doesn't anyone consider my mood?

The grievance in my heart can no longer be controlled. I looked at my mother with hazy tears, and the pain spread in the bottom of my heart, "Mom, why do you put all the responsibility on me? Gu Xin has successfully performed the operation now, and the operation fee has been paid. Why do you treat me like this?"

I choked to say these words. I bear whatever my mother says at ordinary times, but today I am really wronged. I also need others to understand, and I will be sad.

"The operation fee was paid. Where did you get the money? Didn't you say you didn't have money? Your brother's operation fee is 100000?"

My crying did not soften my mother's heart. Instead, her eyes looked at me became more and more angry, and her words were questioned.

"I..."

I want to explain, but I can't explain my relationship with Xiao mo. in front of the whole family, if I say that I slept with other men in exchange for the operation fee, how can I raise my head in this family in the future.

"Why? I can't say? In fact, you have money in your hand. You just don't want to take out the money to help your brother. Your brother has become like this. It's all your fault. If you take out the money earlier, how can your brother become like this? How can you lie in the hospital bed and don't move!"

My mother's sharp words, like a knife, scratched in my heart, bloody, my heart hurts.

I didn't hesitate to provoke Xiao Mo for the sake of the operation cost, and kept a shady relationship with him again. Now my mother misunderstood me. At the beginning, I deliberately didn't take out the money, and I deliberately hurt Gu Xin.

I watched my mother cry, crying a little desolate. It turned out that in her heart, I was such a person. I have paid for this family for so many years. Didn't she see it in her eyes? How could she think of me so? Why?

"Mom, am I such a person in your heart? Do you know how much I paid for this price? Why do you always complain about me without a word of concern?"

I stood up and looked straight into my mother's eyes. I really wanted to know why she did this to me. I was also her daughter, but she didn't care and love me at all.

What did I do wrong? I'm also her child. Is it because I'm a girl, not a boy, that I'm treated differently? Is it because I'm a girl, I'm not a family man?

When I was very young, I knew that my parents had a serious idea of son preference, but I thought they just preferred their brother, but gradually I found that it was not like that at all. In their hearts, my daughter was completely an outsider.

"I raised you so hard, and you earned money to supplement the family. Don't you feel wronged now? Do you think I and your father are sorry for you?"

Even if I feel sad now, my mother doesn't feel soft at all. Her eyes are still so cold. Now I really begin to doubt whether I am her own daughter. Why do you treat me like this? Why?

"No, it's right to honor you and dad. I don't feel wronged. I just want you to care more about me at ordinary times. Mom, is it so difficult for you? Can't you say a few words of care to your daughter?"

When I said this, tears fell like beads with broken lines. I looked at my mother sadly with expectation in my eyes.

I hope my mother will love me a little and be considerate of me after she hears my heartfelt words. Even if she only says a word about me, I will be satisfied.

However, it's always too easy for me to imagine things too beautiful. After my words came out, my mother's face became a little impatient.

"Your brother has become like this now. You only think of yourself. Why are you so selfish!"

My heart, in exchange for my selfishness, perhaps in my mother's heart, I am a selfish person.

"All right, stop arguing. Don't you see Xiaoxin's leg hurts now? Don't quarrel any more and affect his mood."

My father has always been a silent man. Seeing that my mother and I have been arguing, he can't help yelling.

Hearing my father's voice, I swallowed my words, then went to the hospital bed and looked at Gu Xin, who was pale and distressed.

"How are you? Are you still suffering?"

Although I usually despise Gu Xin's behavior style, I am also my brother. Seeing him lying in the hospital bed in such pain, I say I'm not sad. That's false.

It's just that he caused it now. If he didn't gamble, he wouldn't be like this at all.