Chapter 174

Maybe sometimes alcohol is really a good thing, Yancheng felt the strong taste of wine in his mouth gradually spread. But he still felt that it was not enough. He looked up and continued to pour a mouthful into the mouth of the bottle.

Suddenly, the hand stretched out from the side grabbed the bottle in Yancheng's hand and stopped him from drinking. The hand above the wine bottle is familiar with, with pale, morbid and slender fingers. Yan Cheng raised his eyelids and looked at Xu canbai impatiently.

"Xu canbai, don't be so fussy. A little drink won't do much! Don't always like to be in charge of me by yourself. First, take charge of yourself. " Yancheng wants to get rid of Xu canbai's hand and takes out his own wine bottle.

A lot of times, Xu canbai really made himself feel a little impatient. Because Yan Cheng is smaller than Xu canbai since childhood. Yan an doesn't have the consciousness of being a sister. More often, Yan Cheng still thinks that he is a brother.

When I was very young, Yancheng was used to living an independent and cool life. But Xu canbai is always like to educate themselves, and love themselves.

At the beginning, Yan Cheng was particularly disgusted that the boy who was older than himself would take care of himself. But gradually, Yancheng was so used to it.

Used to Xu canbai always nagging at himself, scolding his living habits. Yancheng also like this feeling, but later also have a little bit of habit.

However, there is another kind of Xu canbai, that is, Yancheng feels that Xu canbai is not competitive. It's a feeling of being a good man. Everything is for the sake of others first. Maybe Yan an is just like this, so he is unscrupulous.

Xu canbai always seems to have a gentle smile, as if he can gently tolerate all of you, all of your childishness, all of your willfulness. Used to such a gentle smile, will let others have an illusion that he will never fail the same.

Human nature is just like this. For a person, the better, the easier it seems to be to be bullied by others. More often, Yancheng is a little distressed to live in such a Xu canbai.

Now it's like this again. Yancheng is very upset. Also want to drink, all will be in Xu canbai again to stop their time feel impatient.

Xu canbai did not say much, but the action in his hands has always been very firm. Take down the wine bottle in Yancheng's hand, when Yancheng wants to say something again. Xu canbai took out his wine cup and filled it. I took a new cup and filled it.

Put the wine cup in Yancheng's hand, Xu canbai said softly with his head down: "Xiaocheng, have a few drinks with me today. I'll take you back later. "

Yan Cheng didn't seem to think that Xu canbai would say that he was always gentle. Now his voice is full of fragile feelings. The long eyelashes with low head become a shadow under the eyelids under the projection of the light.

Such Xu canbai, no expression, no smile, some just endless vulnerability, suddenly moved the deepest sorrow in Yan Cheng's heart.

I haven't seen such a Xu canbai for a long time, such a Xu canbai who makes others feel sad. In the past, Yan Cheng really thought that Xu canbai would behave like he did. For anything is a light tolerance.

Until that day, he was by his side, red eyes, but still trying to suppress his anger, see the expression on his face is no longer light Xu canbai. Yan Chengcai realized a problem, Xu canbai is also a person, a person full of feelings.

As long as it is human, there will naturally be emotional vulnerability. Usually did not let others see, can only show that Xu canbai is very will cover up, will cover up all kinds of vulnerability in his heart. One day, when it breaks out, everything will collapse and change.

Yan Cheng Leng Leng, and then with Xu canbai a little red eyes. There are a lot of things, there is no need to say more, Yan Cheng nodded and did not speak.

Just silently took over the wine in Xu can's white hands, and they drank it calmly. There is no content of conversation, but a silent cup after cup of drink, two people are also silent and quiet.

Soon, a bottle of wine will soon see the bottom. This kind of time, consolation or something is not as good as drinking. Let the alcohol paralyze their own nerves, maybe this will not feel so painful.

Though, maybe it's really sad. Even if you wake up after drinking, you still have to face these things. Why torture yourself like this. Just let me be weak. After I'm drunk tonight, let me face these things again, OK?

Yan Cheng drinks with Xu canbai one after another. He has never drunk so much Yan Cheng. When the second bottle of wine was about to reach the bottom, his consciousness began to blur.

Looking at Xu canbai in front of him, he gradually became blurred. Yan Cheng couldn't help the heavy and quiet atmosphere. After another drink, he finally said to Xu canbai: "Xu canbai, sometimes I really look down on you! It's just a woman! Is it necessary to toss yourself like this? "For Xu canbai's depravity during this period, Yancheng is still more incomprehensible. He can't understand why a person who clearly exists independently feels that he can't survive without a person. People are supposed to live independently, shouldn't they?

Xu canbai, who has been used to alcohol instead of food, still looks the same even after drinking so much. He hasn't been drunk for a long time. Most of the time, he just sleeps in silence after he is full of wine, and has a headache again the next day.

Looking at Yan Cheng, he should have been half drunk. Xu canbai didn't care what Yan Cheng said, but he poured a glass of wine for himself again in silence. Then he said in a soft voice, "you don't understand now, little town. When you really have such a day, you will know that life should never exist independently in this world. "

Xu canbai's voice is very light. He seems to be explaining what he just said to Yan Cheng, and he seems to be mumbling something to himself.

Only the light in the box is still dim and silent, which makes the whole empty box more lonely. It seems that it is also slowly shouting, I don't want to, I want to change.

Until Yancheng mumbled to himself and fell on the sofa, from the beginning of non-stop talking to simply fell on the sofa and said nothing.

Xu canbai didn't manage Yancheng either. He was still drinking the wine in his hands in silence. Sometimes I even envy Yan Cheng. When I'm upset, I drink. When I drink, I get drunk. There is nothing to fret about, and the world is still beautiful for him.

And I can't do that anymore. I've seen too many dark things in this world, and the pain in my heart that I can't touch or tell to anyone. It's all the things that hinder my heartless words in this world. I seem to have been used to it.

Xu canbai continued to drink in silence in front of the quieter box, even though Yan Cheng had already passed out. But a lot of times, in fact, there is no relationship between drinking and being accompanied, isn't it?

Until the cold wine began to churn in his stomach, he finally resisted his life. Xu canbai always has a very serious stomach disease, but he doesn't pay much attention to it. He still drinks and has irregular meals.

He can't figure out how long he hasn't had a good meal. Also because of this, his stomach disease is more and more serious, and even began to fight against his body.

Stomach pain, but sometimes let himself more calm down. A person's late at night, this kind of intense pain can let oneself more sober, more sad. Perhaps only at this time of the body above the pain can slightly resist his heart sad bar.

Xu canbai put down his glass, and the intense pain in his stomach became more and more obvious. That kind of intense contraction, the stomach seems to be about to churn out. This kind of pain is very sad, but Xu canbai seems to have been used to this kind of pain and patience.

He bent down slowly and covered his stomach with his hand. Really feel very painful, it seems that this can also slightly relieve the pain. Xu canbai's slender body gradually shrunk into a ball, on the narrow sofa.

In such a late night, the table in the box is still in a mess, which seems to express the atmosphere just now. But it's just that you feel lonely, lonely and very sad.

The edge is already sleeping in the past Yan City, his stomach inside came tumbling pain feeling. His mind is still all just Yancheng said that sentence, gently she is pregnant.

Finally, everything has to start to do a thorough end? Xu canbai thought in his heart.

Maybe it's even better. Why bother? Why do you suffer like this?