Chapter 45 - Vacant Soul

About ten minutes later thanks to the food and the water I felt better and my head stopped spinning.

The salmon and the salad were so good and refreshing.

"The food is very good," he said, leaning his dish closer to me. "Taste the pasta, it's delicious."

I smiled, pushing my dish to him so that we could have a bite of each other's dish.

I nodded, "definitely worth winning the place over my ex and his lover." I exclaimed having the both of us laugh.

The food cheered me up and I was in a better mood, so I decided to talk to him straightly and tell him the truth. After my last relationship, It was the first time I saw in someone someone who could potentially earn my trust.

"Confessing time," I said before I took a mouthful of food to chew and gather some time to mentally formulate what I wanted to say.

"Now that you started to get to know me better, do you think I may be a person too attached to work? I am just trying to figure out what I did wrong." I said massaging my forehead, I need the opinion of a man from the outside and I knew Cameron enough to say he was brutally enough.

He frowned his forehead and sighed, then he shook his head. "Lily, there is nothing wrong with you. How many times do I have to tell you to make you believe it?" He said hinting at a smile.

"Maybe I…"

"Lily please. Trust me, there's nothing wrong with you. Last night I was thinking of you and I tried so hard to find some flaws in you and had to give up. I couldn't find any."

Was he being honest? I smiled with my entire face, nobody ever said something like that to me.

I looked down embarrassing but at my gesture of shyness he tilted his head to the side and smiled, he cupped my chin and lifted it to make his gaze locked with mine.

"Promise me you will never question your worth again."

My heart doubled over and pounded in my chest.

"Okay," I said, even if I wasn't so sure. I just doubted my worth since the day Carl left me. It was like I lost the esteem I had in myself and I started to deem true the blame he threw on me.

"Lily look at me and promise me." He said, his voice sounding more decide as if he was asking me to do that for him. "I hate to see such an amazing girl as you underestimate herself. I wish you could see yourself with my eyes."

I looked at him and chuckled, "why? What would I see?"

His eyes sparkled and a smile curved his lips, he caressed my cheek with slow moves with his thumb. "You would see a girl who devotes herself to the fullest in everything she does, a determined girl who doesn't let anyone get in her way. A carefree spirit, a funny, amazing, vacant and smart woman. I had met many women, Lily. But I swear to all the stars in the sky that none of them is like you."

How could he say all those nice things of me when I barely knew him, how can he read me so well?

"I don't see those things in me," I said, my voice creaked and I felt awful for even questioning his words.

"Then I will make you notice then. This is my new goal." He said, offering a smile which I returned.

"And why would you do that?" I inquired, his hand now massaging my hair.

"Because I care about you Lily. A lot."

"I care about you too," I said, and I felt my cheek heating. I was blushing for something so silly that I realized how much I cared about him too.

Maybe the quantity of time spent together sometimes doesn't equal the quality.

Maybe that was our case.

"We should give each other a chance," I said, holding up his gaze to check on his reaction.

"I told you about the rules I have and that I don't do dating, I never did." He continued, and I nodded, I knew that but I also knew that I wanted to trust my heart for the first time over my brain.

"I know," I said.

"So are you sure you are ready to listen to the rules?"

Was I? I didn't know, but I was curious and from my way my heart was beautiful I knew I looked forward to seeing him more often. What did I have to lose? Maybe it was time for me to do something risky even if It would make me suffer in the future.

"Yes," I said once again with a more decisive voice.

He smiled, I didn't expect him to be so happy but it was like his eyes sparkled and his smile widened.

The waiter walked to our table and asked us if we'd like a desert, I looked at Cameron and he smiled probably reading my gaze already. We shook our heads to say no, we were looking forward to talking more about this new adventure we were going to jump into.

"I guess we are done," Cameron said.

It was time for me to risk and finally live this relationship and connection we had to the fullest. Maybe it will successfully mend my heart and soul, I didn't care about other people.. It was time for me to finally care and prioritize what I wanted, and right now all I wanted was him.