Chapter 117 - Not Okay

"I said let. Me. Go" Shi Lian grits but Zichen is not listening to her. She struggles to twist her hand from his hold but he is stronger than her. 

At last, reaching his car, he wastes no time and pushes Shi Lian inside the car and he hops in as well. Once they both are inside, away from people's eyes, Zichen can actually breathe right now. 

Shi Lian, as angry she is, tries to click open the car door but Zichen has locked it snd there's no way for her to leave. 

"So now you are locking me here? Won't your date partner will be angry? " Shi Lian snarls, scoffing at him. 

"Jealous, huh? " he taunts, gazing at her. 

Shi Lian rolls her eyes hard, "It's not about being jealous here!" she lets out a frustrated growl, "Never mind, just please let me go."

Zichen frowns not liking the way she is acting. He admits he is wrong here but she too did mistakes. He scoots closer, he reaches to touch her face but sensing she backs away, narrowing her eyes at her. 

"Fine" he sighs, "I admit I am wrong. And she is not my partner. I don't even know her name!" he tries to explain, "My mother....she sets me with her and I had no way to say no to her. That woman... Wangli or whatever I never met her or I remember meeting her."

Shi Lian looks at him with no emotion, her arms crossed before her chest. He sighs and continues, "Trust me. We weren't even here as a date, she was bluffing for no reason"

Shi Lian scoffs as if she knows that she did it intentionally just to show her that they are a couple. 

"What?"

"Nothing. Now, if you are done, I would like to go" she says firmly, still not cooling down. As she reaches for the door handle again, Zichen pulls her by her arm so she now faces him, less than an inch far. 

She ignores the sensation, the feeling that is creeping inside her when he is around. She tries to ignore her heart beating, the butterflies in her stomach but no matter what, his charm is irresistible to her. 

His breath hits her nose tip and he wants to kiss her so much that it hurts. He can never explain just how she makes him go crazy, how her feel makes his heart beats like hell. 

He leans closer and kisses her, losing control. His mouth hovers over hers and his tongue dives deep into her. She struggles, trying to break but he holds her steadily. 

To his surprise, she bites him and pulls away from hold, breathless. Blood drips a little from the cut of his lower lip and the copper taste feels weird. 

"Shi Lian, I explained. I told the truth. There's really nothing going on between me and her" he says, wiping the blood with his thumb. 

"I don't care," she says flatly, holding back the emotions she does not want to spill out, not in front of him. 

"You went to dinner with that leech and you even told that you are dating?" 

"The same tactic your girl used" she retorts. 

"For the last time, she is NOT my girl. You better understand that" he growls, frustration clear in his face. 

"I...I don't want to talk to you right now, Zichen" says she as if she is tired of all these. 

"At least tell me why you are angry" he presses, taking her palm in his. 

She doesn't know what she should do. One moment she wants to punch him and the other, she wants to rip his clothes apart and kiss him hard until she is satisfied. But she has had much the drama needed for a day and she wants to be left alone. 

"Please, just talk" he begs and for the first time she sees the vulnerability in him. He isn't demanding like how he always does but urging. 

"I am angry because you didn't pick my calls. I am angry because you were with another woman when I was worried the hell about you. I am angry because you are being bossy and overly dominating. We agreed we will keep our relationship formal in public yet you just....cam out of nowhere and were trying to reveal everything" she expresses, blurting out all that she had in her mind, "I am also angry because I saw you with her, way too close. Call me jealous and as sure as hell I am. I am angry because you questioned my loyalty without even having any idea what was going on." She bites the inner skin of her cheek to not break into tears. As she is done with her venting, she looks up to meet his eyes and the way he is seeing her as if he is studying something. "I am just tired of all these dramas" she lets out a sigh and looks out of the tinted window. 

"I am sorry," he says with utter sincerity in his voice. She snaps her neck and faces him. "I am sorry for not calling you but I didn't have my phone with me. And you know I lost my composure when I see any male getting close to you. I am fighting inside to not jump and reveal our relationship to the media...but for you, I am waiting. And it's killing me, to be honest."

He reaches and caresses her cheek. She does not flinch and let herself feel his touch. "I am sorry, I should not have commented on loyalty. About me being bossy, you know that's the way I am....that's who I am."

"You are mysterious too," she says, her voice low. "You never tell me anything. You are like...sometimes I don't know who you are really. "

His expression changes. He draws his hand back from her face. He says nothing on that because he knows she is right. It's not that he doesn't trust her...but telling about his disturbing family and his past...he feels it's useless.

"You know me. You know me how I am. You cannot get to know a person better by learning about their family" he asserts. 

"See, that's your issue" she sighs, giving up, "you just change the topic every time. Yes, I said I would wait until you decide to tell me but...I cannot help but have this strange feeling as if...as if you are drifting away."

This makes him irritate. "I am not. Stop Overthinking, would you?" he says calmly but it sounds more like snapping. 

To avoid more confrontation and confusion, she does not want to argue more. It's better if they talk after they have calmed down. "I am tired. I want to go home. "

He wants to stop her, take her home and lock her up. He wants to hug her tightly and not leave her until she is back to normal. But he restrains himself from doing it. 

Without facing her he says, "Okay." With that he opens the door and giving him one last glance, she steps out of the car. He sees her walking, walking far and her figure fades slowly and suddenly he feels like she is fading away from him as well.