Chapter 86

Hold on... Hold on... Hold on

Gu Xi told himself countless times to stick to it.

It's critical.

The road of this love is almost nowhere to go.

Sometimes, if you don't work hard, you can be remembered in your heart. It doesn't matter if she can't stand on the table. There's nothing she can do. It doesn't matter if she is not understood by her relatives. The girlfriend who was passed on as his brother can also don't mind. Only this person turns his mean words into a sharp sword and pierces his heart, which makes Gu Ku really tired and powerless.

"Girl. Sorry. Come back."

Gu Xi's body trembled desperately. This was the first time she heard Chi Jingyao say "sorry" to herself. Such a man would say sorry to himself. She squatted on the ground crying bitterly, pounded her forehead and said, "I said I would accompany you for ten years, but I think I can't hold on..."

Chi Jingyao went to her side, leaned over and picked her up. He hugged her in his arms. His hoarse voice sounded in Gu Xi's ears, and his thin lips gradually moved to the corners of her eyes, "girl... Sorry..."

There was a faint sigh in the aftersound, which made Gu Xi suffocate and cry. He didn't know what to respond. The warmth gradually penetrated into the four bones of the body, and only those two words were clearly printed in his mind.

Sorry, I can't respond to your feelings.

Sorry, it's been on your own.

Sorry, I shouldn't have hurt you so much.

Gu Xi was held for about ten minutes until she gradually stopped crying. Her tears rubbed against Chi Jingyao's clothes. She sobbed for a long time. Her lips were gradually covered, and the faint smell of tobacco shrouded her. Tears always slipped from the corners of her eyes, and her body was tightly bound. The temperature between her lips was heating up and gradually boiling into a struggle to resist death.

She looked up and looked into each other's eyes.

There are eight hardships in life: life, old age, disease, death, love, parting, resentment for a long time, can't ask, can't let go. She can't beg and can't let go, which is her feeling for Chi Jingyao.

Too many helplessness lie between each other. No matter how close, it is also a dream in the end.

I woke up. All the good things will disappear.

Chi Jingyao rubbed her hair, went to the door and opened the door. His cold eyes glanced at Secretary Ding, who was struggling with himself, "I'll leave early today. You put all the arrangements and things into tomorrow."

"Er, yes!" Secretary Ding really didn't dare to think more. He immediately got up and went to Chi Jingyao's desk to clean up the materials.

Gu Xi followed Chi Jingyao into the special elevator, hung his head for a long time, and then whispered, "where are you going?"

Out of the building, I found that the sky had already fallen. The whole city a was submerged in the rain, and the distant street lamps were hazy like sparks in the rain.

"Pick out a birthday present for you. What do you want?" Chi Jingyao returned his car to the parking lot and asked Gu Xi, who sat in the passenger seat.

She was stunned. "You... You pick it yourself?"

Chi Jingyao's hand stopped slightly, "I can also let others pick."

"No... that's not what I mean." Gu Xi blushed. This feeling was like she made trouble for no reason. Finally Chi Jingyao compromised her feeling of choosing gifts for herself. In fact, she didn't lack anything. After thinking for a long time, she whispered, "is it really OK to choose any gifts?"

Chi Jingyao glanced at the little face with red eyes. Since he was with him, Gu Xi has hardly cried less. In the final analysis, he is really not a good man. He can't even agree to the small request of spending a day with her on his birthday. His voice was cold. Chi Jingyao said, "say it."

He didn't even want a house, but he didn't know how to satisfy the "greedy" girl.

Gu Xi looked at the heavy rain outside the window of the car. He always felt that it was inappropriate to go anywhere now. He had to say, "can you cook me a meal?"

Boss Chi's car suddenly stopped and stopped in the middle of the parking lot. It was almost unimaginable to look at Gu Xi, but those eyes were bright and full of expectation, obviously hoping that he would agree.

Chi Jingyao almost wanted to subconsciously ask if the girl deliberately made trouble for herself? As a result, Gu Xi also said seriously: "I have lived alone for many years. It seems that I haven't eaten the food with the feeling of home for a long time..."

There is an uncle beside her mother. The uncle is very kind to her, but he doesn't seem to like himself very much. For the happiness of her mother, Gu Xi can't remember how long he hasn't been home. It was also because she was too naive and always involuntarily regarded Chi Jingyao as her boyfriend that she put forward such unrealistic requirements.

Gu Xi glanced at the building of the famous company in the night. The logo was particularly shining, which almost calmed her down in an instant. He said quietly, "I thought too much just now and didn't need any gifts. Just have a meal with me when you are free."

Chi Jingyao stopped talking and started the car. The direction was Gu Xi's small home outside the Fifth Ring Road. The car window was hit by raindrops, rustling. I don't know when the heavy rain will turn small. Looking from the window glass, it is still gray. Even if the bustling city a is beautiful and colorful, in such a haze weather, only the changes of street lamps are left.

When he got downstairs, Gu Xi pushed open the door and said, "thank you for taking me home."

Chi Jingyao pulled out the key and raised his eyebrow. "Don't you want me to cook?"

Gu Xi didn't react for a moment. He said back to his feet from the outside, "really... Really?"

Chi Jingyao closed the door, and the rain sprinkled on him. He was a little cool. "Go and buy food materials. I'll wait for you at home. This time, it's not an example."

Gu Xi was silly. She never thought Chi Jingyao would promise herself. She immediately nodded nervously and put her door key into his hand, "I, I, I, I go to the supermarket now."

She really can't appear in other public places with Chi Jingyao. In a city that can be stolen = photographed everywhere, probably the only safe thing is her small old area. No one will disturb, so this is also the relationship Chi Jingyao is willing to come.

Chi Jingyao went upstairs and opened the door again. The exquisite and small look was as warm as Gu Xi.

I haven't felt at home for a long time. He is not the same. He walked into the room, took off his coat, and went back to the small room. The light blue bed was cleaned up. The bookcase was full of professional books and some romantic novels. The photo album he read for the first time was still in place, so he took it down easily.

Gu Xi was cute when she was a child, but she was a little bitter. Looking at these old photos alone, it is difficult to associate with such a lack of personality. Of course, taking away these bitter childhood, Chi Jingyao really couldn't figure out what kind of family would cultivate such children.

The photo album turned back, getting older and older. There were photos of youth and vitality in school uniforms and ponytails, as well as group photos with classmates when they were walking in the park, and then turned back. Chi Jingyao's hand stopped slightly and pulled out a group photo of Gu Xi and another boy.

At this time, Gu Xi was more childish than he looks now, and his appearance was almost the same. The boy's face was the feeling of a beautiful and good student. Only a self righteous evil smile on the corner of his lips set off the fake deep or evil Love preferred by the little boys at that time. The two people's feelings seemed excellent, and there were at least five group photos.

Chi Jingyao took out the photo, looked at it carefully and put it on the table next to him. This side began to turn again, turned to the end, but stopped again.

Time seems to go back to three years ago, the girl with a shawl and straight hair stood timidly outside the set and asked very carefully: "are you the male star? Hello, my name is Gu Xi..."

The man looked at it quietly. Even if he knew that the workload would be so heavy tomorrow that he might have to stay up late, he felt particularly quiet at this moment.

Gu Xi bought a lot of dishes and could almost fill up the refrigerator. Anyway, she had no arrangement until the end of the year. After so many years of struggle outside, she could hardly wait for the settlement of film pay. It's really good to spend the new year at home. As soon as she laboriously opened the door, she saw Chi Jingyao opening his wardrobe and holding a few pieces of his underwear in his hand. She immediately blushed, put the bought dishes aside and rushed directly over, "look... What do you do with this!"

Chi Jingyao frowned slightly. "The style is really a little old."

“……”

Gu Xi replied, "others can't see it in it."

Her eyes were burning, and her deep eyes swept over her, "I will see."

"..." it's breaking to discuss your underwear style with such a serious face.

She hurriedly grabbed his underwear and stuffed it back into the cabinet. She replied vaguely, "I'll buy it again in a few days."

Chi Jingyao rolled up her sleeves, untied the buttons on them, relaxed a little, walked to the kitchen without saying a word, and Gu Xi carefully scanned her room. She always felt that she had opened everything to each other, and all her secrets had no way to hide.

There were two photos scattered around the bed. Gu Xi rushed to pick them up and suddenly missed a shot.

One did not say why it was taken out alone, but the other was taken out three years ago because he was too excited. He received a good advertising list and asked the staff for help to take a picture at the scene.

That thing

The incident three years ago came back to her eyes again. Chi Shaojie's words ran into her eardrum like a magic spell, which shocked her face and heart. Gu Xi got up from bed and ran to the kitchen door with two photos.

Chi Jingyao is studying how to open the stove and how to use the chopping board. He is expressionless but very serious.

Gu Xi asked carefully, "these two photos..."

Chi Jingyao replied, "look around. Is that your first boyfriend?"

Gu Xi was stunned and raised the photo of himself and the boy. It seemed that he had more group photos with him, so Chi Jingyao came to this conclusion. She replied in embarrassment: "no, this is my cousin."

While talking, the corner of his lips raised slightly and seemed to say with extra pride: "my cousin Gu Bai is a professor of a well-known university. It's also possible to say that it's first love. He likes to follow his ass since childhood!"