Chapter 135 - One Hundred And Thirty-five

His words shook her to the core. She felt as if her heart would stop. There was so much emotion in those words that he said. Deep inside her something whispered that he was speaking the truth, that he meant those words.

But did he?

Her husband was still hugging her close to his chest and Alexis wanted to bury herself in there. She wanted nothing more but to be in his arms forever but right now it seemed like the most impossible and logical thing to do. She could not stay with him, she could not stay with him and drag him back.

She needed time. She needed time to recover from what happened and to become a better person because she was sure that she was not going to be the one that had been kidnapped.

That part of her was gone.

"You don't have to.." in broken words she cried into his shoulder. "Please.. If it's not what.. you want, you can go.." she offered again, knowing well that someday he would rather forget it.

Angelo in return gave a tired sigh in return. She knew that he was wondering what was making of this again and again.

He pulled apart and held her face in his hands. "Why do you have to say that and break my heart every time?" His eyes searched something on her face. "Do you have to say that even when I am assuring you that I do not want to leave you?"

"For now you think that." She explained. "But when all I could do is cry and mop around, you will want to leave."

Angelo was ready to snap at her for this. She had readily made her mind and was not ready for any change with even the reasons in front of her. He had done all of this to make sure that she would stay by his side and her she was wanting him to leave her.

If only she knew.

But she did not and he had to make sure that he was clear in carrying out his words which word he would not leave her. Period. It will have to be that to make them apart and he was not going to allow that to happen as well.

So her with the fragile state of mind he knew that he had to take a different course. A course that would ensure that he would win this battle and his wife's heart.

Gently, he held her face in his hands and joined her forehead to his. His words were carefully put together to make the strongest impact on her mind. Because he knew that this was something that would influence her the most.

"I love you, despite the abuse and troubles that I put you through I love you. And now when you need it the most and I cannot be there for you then what is the point of me loving you? I want to be there and I do not want to be there just because I pity you and the situation that you are stuck in but because I want to from the bottom of my heart to be there for you, to help you grow into a better person and take command of life your back again."

He gave her forehead a hard case and then continued, "trust me Alexis if I did not want to be here, I won't be but I want to be here but I am. so just so you know you are not getting rid of me that easily. You and I are going to stay together forever and I will help you no matter what the situation might be."

His words stuck in her mind. He wanted to be where he wanted to be with her not because of it but he wanted to live here for her and that made her cry. Her heart jolted at his words. His expressions with the utmost sincerity without blinking his eyes as he held her stare while saying those words his hands were shaking and his facial expressions were calm. He was saying the truth.

And for as long as she had known him he was going to carry his words and promises.

He wanted to cry again. Tears gathering again in her eyes as she thought of what happened to pull away from her forehead from hairs she hid in the crook of his neck and cried. She cried for everything. she cried for the faith she cried for The torture that she had been through she cried for The torture that was going to come because she knew that recovery was not going to be easy. It was going to be very very painful and she was not ready for it. She was not ready for any recovery.

Alexis is wanted to stay where she was. She was someone who just was in limbo. She wanted no movement because she had no idea in which direction should she go to.

but in front of her was her husband who is arms around her and she was crying on.

'So should I tell him? Would he be able to help me?' she wondered as her sobs gradually came to a standstill. 'but would that make me crazy? I don't want any treatment from someone who would consider me a victim. I do not want to be effective I choose not to be a victim but the wall is going to make me one."

"I.." she choked on her. "I have no idea where to go or what to do. Angelo, I just want to stand where I am and not move." She sniffed as she tried to stop crying. "I just want to stay.."

Angelo knew what this was about and he was not going to be stupid enough to rush her. Whatever happened of his eyes otherwise she was not bothered so for her recovery had to make sure that was happening in the best way possible as well.

"It's quite an alright sweetheart. We will go through everything in the way you want. It's just you here and nobody else.." He smiled as his words charmed her heart.