Chapter 87.1

Chapter 87.1

‘I think this is a bit serious.’

Iellie glanced up at Zachary as she narrowed her brows. Throughout her married life with him, Zachary had never had a minor illness. She’d better put him to bed soon, she thought.

“If I say this, you will surely get angry.”

“What are you saying?”

Zachary smiled faintly. As he was so tired, the words that had been rotting in his chest burst out.

“…I think it would have been better for me to go instead of my father.”

“What are you talking about?”

Looking at her, who paused on the spot, Zachary lowered her head. His eyes were deeply sunken as he continued his words.

“It was better for my father to be alive than for me to be alive.”

“What?”

“Even so, I couldn’t stop my father…”

There was no strength left in his body. Zachary’s whole body was heavy like wet cotton. His head was no longer able to make rational decisions. Remembering his father’s last appearance, it pulled him like a swamp.

“You know what, Len?”

When a strange light flickered in his gaze, Iellie stiffened her shoulders. Zachary whispered with a sigh.

“My father chose to die on his own for me.”

His voice slowly faltered. Biting his lips as he rolled his eyes, he went on.

“…So, my father died because of me after all.”

“You… what are you talking about?”

“If it weren’t for me, my father wouldn’t have to choose that death.”

Even though Zachary tried to speak as calmly as possible, his voice kept shaking. He bit his lip.

“It’s as if… I killed both my parents.”

“Don’t say that, it’s…”

“My father and mother both died because of me.”

Iellie somehow tried to convince him, but Zachary shook his head. If it weren’t for him, they wouldn’t have to die like that. The despair that had long betrayed him overtook him again.

“Everyone who gets entangled with me will face bad results.”

Like confessing his original sin, he whispered that. At that movement, Iellie hugged Zachary.

“Len, let me go. I’m wet.”

“What about getting wet?!”

Hearing the harsh voice, Zachary stiffened his shoulders. The pale green eyes staring at his were all watery.

“Don’t cry, why are you crying?”

Zachary spoke to Iellie in a hoarse, cracked voice. His sorrow was enough for him. He didn’t mean to make her cry…

Iellie shook her head.

“Zachary, you are very sad.”

“….”

“But, you don’t cry at all.”

Zachary was at a loss for a moment. Iellie has always been like that. Even in the opera in the past and in this place now, she was the only one who genuinely cried and got angry for him…

Iellie spoke her words firmly.

“Then, I will cry for you.”

“Len…”

As he called her name, Iellie stared at the deep scars inside Zachary’s dry eyes. His blue eyes were as dry as the desert.

He whispered.

“Len… What should I do?”

“Zachary.”

“I, my father, because of me, everything…”

Iellie’s eyes, which were wet all over, reflected on him. Her eyes were as bright as buds wet in the spring rain. The moment he looked at himself in it, Zachary felt the last line that held him together crumble.

“Nothing.”

“….”

“I know it’s hard on you, but you don’t have to blame everything on yourself.”

However, she opened her mouth with a determined voice. The warmth inside her covered his heart, which had been hacked to pieces.

“Zachary, look at me.”

“….”

“If you’re confused or if you don’t know what to do… Then, look at me.”

Iellie, who said that, grabbed both of his cheeks. Because of that, Zachary’s eyes, frozen like ice, trembled. After forcing him to look straight at her, she opened her mouth word after word.

“I am by your side.”

“…Iellie.”

“I am someone who will never leave your side.”

Telling the unchanging truth, she uttered so. Light green eyes shone resolutely.

“Are you still scared?”

When Iellie asked, he clenched his lips. Was he still scared?

…Of course, it had to be, right?

‘All the important people left this world because of me.’

However, the little girl in front of him was Iellie, who it would not even be enough even if he had given all his life to.

“I…”

Zachary was about to say something though she wouldn’t let him talk. Iellie immediately swallowed his lips. Moist lips brushed against his heated lips.

He froze.

“…Uh.”

He couldn’t bear to push her away. Just like a traveler who had been wandering in the desert for a long time getting a sip of water. Zachary longed for her breath and body temperature. He stroked her even teeth with his tongue and went deep between her parted lips.

Their tongues intertwined as if indulging each other.

“Zachary.”

His name was muffled between the rapid moaning. Zachary looked like someone who would soon let his breath go without her. The rough breathing broke, and the umbrella fell from her hand.

‘…Even if everything in the world disappears, only you should be by my side. Please.’

Zachary wished earnestly.

Before he knew it, Iellie’s dress was loosely flowing down her shoulders. Her shoulders, exposed through the pouring raindrops, were as white as ivory. Then, he put his lips on her shoulder.

‘If you’re not by my side…….’

As his warm lips touched her shoulder, Iellie’s body trembled all over. Her nerves were on edge. The tongue licking her shoulder and the teeth biting and scraping at her skin were clear to the touch. As she gasped, she called out to him.

“…Zachary.”

However, Zachary didn’t think about leaving her. His lips glided as he kissed her softly. The next moment, he dug his teeth into her clavicle and pointed his tongue through the hollow.

“Aah, huu…”

An unfamiliar moan escaped Iellie’s lips.

She couldn’t quite come to her senses. Zachary’s hand gesture made her hotter, and the creepy cold sensation of the falling raindrops superimposed on her body. It seemed that her whole body melted like whipped cream at the dense touch.

“…Len.”

After a while, Zachary called her.

The voict soundeded terribly sweet and dangerous, like the growl of a beast. The sadness clinging to the depths of his heart touched her bones.

Under the shade of wet eyelashes, the blue eyes were sunken pitch black.

Iellie nodded her head instead of an answer and hugged his neck as tightly as she could. Once again, the kisses continued. It was a kiss with tenderness rather than the intensity of the moment before.

Zachary closed his eyes and accepted her.

‘Len.’

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