Chapter 104

Chapter 104

The information Selina has uncovered so far has been enormous.

She revealed that the Crown Prince was behind them, and she also found out that Rosalyn was moving as a subordinate. In addition, there was a situation in which Irell was driven out, and that it was by the whole social circle, Juna, and Mrs. Janet, who participated in it.

They were secrets he would never have figured out if Selina hadn’t jumped in with her body. It was an achievement just for digging up the truth, which would not be known to the world and almost disappeared.

So, if she wanted to use her feet and go back, he would actively help. At least, that was how she saw Kalcion so far. He may have thought that it would be better for her to stop at this point, too.

The investigation was starting to get dangerous. She really had to risk her life to proceed.

“Still, I won’t give up until the very end, until I find out what happened.”

“You don’t have to rush. Now that I know whom to fight against.”

“No, I don’t think I’ll be able to stand it until I fully figure out what’s going on. If I go back like this, I will not know what happened until I die.”

For Selina to get lost, it meant she was to return to that world out there. She didn’t know when and how things were going to end.

“…Okay. Follow your choices.”

Kalcion quietly retreated.

“But, don’t get hurt like this again. Don’t risk your life. Never.”

It was already too late to tie it to the terms of her contract. This was Kalcion’s personal request.

She thought that her body had melted in the warm water, and the tremors had disappeared. However, as soon as the cold sheet touched her skin, the tremor rose again as if responding to the temperature. Even if they each lay on their own pillows, they couldn’t help but notice it as long as they were lying on the same bed and covered with the same blanket.

Kalcion turned to Selina.

“Selina.”

Even the gentle call became a shocking stimulus to her tense body.

“What?! Yes. Yes… why?”

He silently stretched out his arm and pulled her body.

Her light body quickly came with Kalcion’s slight force. The body he held in his arms without effort was exceptionally thin and light.

As he was holding her in his arms, her shaking was transmitted directly to his body. Instead of this tremor, he wanted to convey his body temperature though there was no way. He swept her back countless times, praying for the tremors to subside.

“You don’t have to hide your fear.”

“I’ll look weak.”

“Pretending to be strong is enough in front of the enemy.”

The only reliable ally in this world was Kalcion.

She had no choice but to take his side unconditionally and someone who would take responsibility for her safety. Besides, he even knew her personal secrets. They were in a temporary relationship as the contract was maintained, but it was clear that he was the most reliable person right now.

Selina wrapped her arms around Kalcion’s back and dug deep into his arms. Burying her nose deep and inhaling a breath, the smell of flesh coming in calmed her brain like a tranquilizer.

While the perfume he sprayed after finishing his grooming was to her taste, she also liked the original body scent that Kalcion had. It was a smell from the human body, but it was a heavy and cool body scent that made her wonder how he could smell like this.

“Are you better?”

Burying her nose in his chest and taking a deep breath, it seemed strange to even Kalcion’s eyes. He didn’t mean to scold her, he just asked out of pure curiosity.

Selina buried her face deeper, still holding her breath and rubbing her nose. It didn’t make sense, but Kalcion left it alone. If that was how her heart could calm down, there was nothing in his chest he couldn’t give up.

It was Selina, who always looked arrogant and imposing. Her frightened look twisted his stomach.

How many times had he already seen her frightened and withdrawn? Every time he looked at her, an emotion swelled in his stomach that was hundreds of times the discomfort when his men were injured.

If he left it alone, his body would explode.

Today was more than that… The discomfort that had been churning over his body went too far and penetrated into his guts. It felt like his gut was about to burst, and it hurt like his heart was being cut out—more than when he accidentally slipped while riding among the mountains and landed on a rock.

His eyes turned white, and cold sweat dripped from his body as he gazed at Selina, who was trembling with fear. Instinctively, he wanted the fear to go away so she could avoid pain. He seemed to be able to do anything if she could forget the difficult memories.

A while after he swept her back, he suddenly felt her face lifted from his chest, and he glacned up at her.

“I’ll keep an eye on you. Don’t worry, sleep.”

“I can not sleep.”

She was like this when she was almost killed by an assassin while on her travels. It seemed that she was unable to sleep because of the extreme tension and anxiety. That time he could deal with it by doing gymnastics, but he couldn’t use that method again this time. Selina had enough exercise, and training each other was no longer new.

Even though it wasn’t that she got tired from simple exercise and then was able to sleep comfortably, it would be thanks to the new stimulation. Doing something new distracts her mind. She would get tired relatively quickly, and the nerves that had been tightened for some amount may be released.

Was there anything new or unfamiliar to Selina…?

As he looked at her face and was absorbed in the thought, she suddenly asked a question.

“Has the Duke never really dated?”

“Why all of a sudden?”

“For someone who’s never been in a relationship, it seems like you’re very good at comforting and hugging.”

“Thanks to your teaching.”

He wasn’t joking, but Selina giggled. It was better looking like that than trembling no matter what.

“Well… then not a relationship, but an unrequited love.”

“Nothing…”

Acting would have been a little easier had she known that, but the answer was no.

“Well then, when you were young. When you’re full of life, getting all hot when you see a woman, is there ever a time like that?”

She was speaking of carnal desire for flesh.

As she continued to ask the questions, Kalcion’s head gradually returned to the past. Rather than lightly saying no, he really pondered, ‘Has that ever happened?’ for a long time.

“I don’t think I ever had anything like that to a specific woman.”

However, he didn’t remember anything either. No matter how indifferent Kalcion was, the memories of some decisive moment would be vivid. Just like meeting Selina for the first time in the snowy mountains.

It was that moment when he wondered if she was actually a fairy from the magical mountain that came down like in legends. The fairy now lived in front of him, breathing and sharing his body temperature with that face that sometimes made him forget that she was human.

It was not just her looks that made Selina feel like a fairy.

The facial features that are slightly different from others by the standards of this world are one of the reasons though her movements like fluttering petals, her voice like the chirping of birds, and her eyes that create the illusion of looking at jewels every time he saw it also played a big role.

Looking at those eyes that seemed to contain the night sky, he seemed to understand all the mysteries of the world.

“Ah…”

A subtle light shone in those beautiful eyes.

“….?”

“Then, if it’s to a specific ‘man’…?”

“What are you talking about?”

“No? So, what about a specific ‘animal’?”

“….”

“…Objects?!”

“None at all.”

He was wondering what she was talking about. As an actress, once the reins of imagination were released, it ran to the end of the world.

Kalcion made a grim expression towards Selina, who had made him a paraphilic. Ordinary people couldn’t even stand face to face with him when he did this, but Selina didn’t even take her eyes off him, staring at him. She was both strange and cute.

“When I was young, I lived more hectic than I am now. I didn’t even have time to open my eyes to color. From the moment I opened my eyes to the moment I fell asleep, there was no such thing as a spare moment.”

“I think about it every time I hear it, but by the standards of my time, that was child abuse.”

At Selina’s grumbling, he laughed a little.

“Because it was natural for me. After that time, I didn’t know how it felt like to be bursting with desire.”

Despite the fact that he had heard it from Dion and knew it, it didn’t feel real. Like Selina’s description of feelings of love, no matter how specific she was because he had never experienced like floating in a cloud.

“That… what about the… second generation?”

“What? Haha.”

He didn’t expect to hear this question from Selina.

It was a question of concern that Kalcion had been asked at least once since he succeeded the Duchy, as he was not so interested in women. At that, he burst into laughter once again because the situation was funny and exhilarating.

“Don’t you know that I don’t have a problem with my second generation?”

“How do I know that… Ah.”

Selina bowed her head as if she realized something along the way as she was speaking.

She had no choice but to know. Every morning when he wakes up hugging her, their thighs naturally overlap, and in doing so, she couldn’t help but feel the unavoidable changes in his body. While she pretended not to know, it was an indescribable secret that each other knew.

“That… Anyway, you never once told me about that desire. Hasn’t there been such a thing?”

Selina lifted her head again.

“No, honestly, looking at this pretty me, there’s no way you can stop thinking like that, can you? Unless you have a paraphilic disorder.”

“….”

Kalcion, lost for words, could not answer right away. What was he supposed to answer here?

It was like a pervert if he confessed that he sometimes got caught up in desire when looking at her face. If he kept on saying no, he would hurt her pride. Was there any answer that could protect his personality and Selina’s pride at the same time?

Time passed even while he was thinking about it.

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