Chapter 94

There is no doubt that this is the most embarrassing moment in Xiao Jiashu's life. He felt extremely ashamed, as if he had been stripped of his clothes and rushed to the street to March. No, not only his clothes, but also his skin had been scraped off. He exposed his blue and red blood vessels and pulsating muscles to the sun, and exposed his open heart and unbearable emotions in the air. The pain was irresistible but unavoidable.

He covered his chest and stood in the same place for a long time before going out. He asked in a low voice, "does brother Ji see it?"

Lin LeYang, who helped him "keep the wind", shook his head, "he doesn't know, only I can see it. The same-sex relationship is always not accepted by the world, so we dare not show too close in front of people. I don't blame you for this. You don't know. I just don't want to see you sink deeper and deeper. Ji Ge treats people sincerely, which may give you some illusions. Please forget them. You will meet better people in the future. "

Xiao Jiashu took a few coconuts and left a low and inaudible "I will stay away from him". He is very glad that he learned to control his feelings when shooting Zerg. He is also glad that Ji Ge didn't see anything, otherwise he would be more embarrassed. Think of oneself often to Ji Ge text message call, think of oneself in order to catch up with him to tropical island, shame is gradually abandoned.

He detested himself like that. He had no sense of shame or morality. He wandered in front of other people like a clown. Others may be rejecting, disdaining and even hating him. How ridiculous is it that he not only has no consciousness, but also has the idea to pursue boldly? How sad is it?

Along the way, he gathered up his surging emotions, clearly wanted to throw them all away, but in the end he kept them in his heart. It turns out that the reason why a person becomes strong is that there are too many things in his heart. They become the cornerstone, making his fragile heart strong and hard to open. When the camp was far away, there was no fluctuation in his eyes.

Lin LeYang didn't smile until he was far away. He didn't want to do it, but he watched the relationship between Ji Ge and Xiao Jiashu become more and more ambiguous. He was anxious and just wanted to stop them.

That day, he heard Ji Ge's monologue. He was in great pain, but he realized it. It's strange that brother Ji shouldn't add the last sentence. What's the meaning of "in my heart, the little tree is like my brother"? If he was really with Xiao Jiashu, he would never say such words. He is cautious in his words and deeds and cherishes his feathers. If it is not convenient for him to disclose something to the outside world, he will only keep silent, but he does not disdain to lie or mislead.

So you see, Lin LeYang knows Ji Ge very well. In order to cater to him and get his approval, he has observed him so carefully. If you play the game of "observing words and colors" again, where will he lose to Xiao Jiashu? Ha, it's a pity that his mind is all used in the wrong direction. Do you need to observe the words and colors between lovers? No, they need care, understanding, giving and tolerance. He has been using a humble attitude in the face of Ji Ge, but he turned around to scold Ji Ge for looking down on him, his cognition has long been hoodwinked by himself.

But it's not too late to realize these mistakes. As long as there is a vacancy left by Ji Ge, he will stick to it forever and drive away all those who try to get close to Ji Ge.

Xiao Jiashu is the first, and things are much more smooth than he imagined, thanks to Xiao Jiashu's good family education. Lin LeYang has to admit that Xiao Jiashu's three outlooks are very good, and his cultivation is also good. He immediately decided to quit. He didn't get to the bottom of the matter, and he didn't have to be dogged. If he is a person with a weak sense of morality and knows that he is a third party and is unwilling to let go, then Lin LeYang has nothing to do with him.

It's true that honest people are always easy to be bullied.

They walked in the mountains one after the other, without a word of communication. They felt very boring, but they didn't force the guests to speak. Even if it's a company, there are some cases where they don't like each other and even have black hands. Isn't Lin LeYang secretly blacking Xiao Jiashu? They didn't deal with each other, pretending to be good friends.

Meanwhile, the corona is sitting on the rocks by the sea in a daze. He really didn't know how to deal with his relationship with Xiao Jiashu. His age and family background could be ignored. The only thing that made him worry about was his ability to read people's hearts.

He can easily feel the psychological activities of the people he likes or dislikes, so he avoids many pitfalls, learns a lot of secrets, and even goes well in business. But at the same time, he is also drifting away from his relatives and friends. The human heart is the most complex and uncontrollable thing in the world. The more in-depth exploration, the more shivering. But Xiao Jiashu is different from everyone else. If other people's hearts are mazes, then his heart is a garden, which can let Ji Mian see through at a glance, but he feels beautiful.

He is the only one who can make Jimian actively listen to his heart, and also the only one who can make Jimian completely relax and even feel happy. His heart is too simple and pure, but because of this, Ji Mian dare not touch easily.

If they are together, he worries that he will use mind reading to control Xiao Jiashu and make himself a devil, or arouse Xiao Jiashu's resistance in the process and make him a devil. Love and injury are often just a line apart, and his special ability makes it easier to cross the bottom line. Sooner or later, the beautiful garden will turn into a ruin, because there is no unchanging heart, only unchanging spirit.He can see through everything about Xiao Jiashu, but Xiao Jiashu knows nothing about it, which is obviously unfair. So he would rather look at the garden far away than destroy it by himself. He was ready to die alone.

When he was distracted, PD had to remind him in a low voice, "Mr. Ji, the bait is all hung up, why don't you throw it into the water?"

Ji Mian just regained consciousness and threw the fishhook made of sewing needle into the water. He knew that he couldn't catch any fish, but it was just an excuse to kill Xiao Jiashu. His feelings come so fierce, even if separated from the distance, it can burn the heart of Ji Mian like fire.

With him, Ji Mian doesn't know how long he can hold on, so he has to find a quiet place to stay alone for a while. He had to admit that Xiao Jiashu was his favorite image from the inside out. It was difficult enough to resist his silly and lovely ideas, not to mention the hot and sincere love.

In his wishful thinking, half an hour later, because few people came to the island, the vigilance of the fish was not high, but two of them were hooked, but the volume was small, so they were used to stew. When he brought the fish back to the camp, the other members of the team came back, drinking coconut milk.

"Captain, sit down and have a rest. Wow, you really caught a fish! We have fish to eat Huang Yingxue called, bouncing and jumping.

Ji Mian gives her the cleaned fish and subconsciously looks at Xiao Jiashu. He originally thought that the other party would be the first to meet him. As usual, he would walk around him foolishly with a simple and happy smile. But now he is squatting on the ground, cutting a pair of bamboo chopsticks with a dagger, never looking up.

This makes already ready season crown a little surprised, and a little inexplicable palpitation. He went out of control to listen to Xiao Jiashu's heart, but he didn't hear anything. He was sitting there with no thought, like an empty skin.

Ji Mian's heart trembled slightly. After sitting down, he asked anxiously, "little tree, are your feet better?"

Xiao Jiashu raised his head and said with a smile, "much better. Just now Yu Baixiu helped me re wrap the gauze."

With a sincere smile and a gentle tone, he seemed to be doing as usual, but it was totally different. But what's the difference, the season crown for a while was not clear. He calmed down and said, "let me have a look. Today is a long way to go. I'm afraid you can't hold on."

Xiao Jiashu immediately put his legs up, waved his hands and said, "it's really OK. You're not afraid of losing your appetite when you eat breakfast."

This is also as usual, so intimate, let the season crown heartstrings slightly loose. "Put on your socks a little thicker and don't be afraid of the heat," he warned

Xiao Jiashu nodded and agreed. Finally, he continued to cut the chopsticks.

Lin LeYang pulled off five bananas and distributed them to his teammates one by one. "Come on, let's taste the taste of wild bananas."

Yu Baixiu took a bite excitedly, then twisted his features into a ball. Huang Yingxue vomited on the spot and said, "my God, is this banana? Is this pepper? Why so astringent! "

Ji Mian frowned, but in the end, he still swallowed the banana, astringent to astringent, can fill the stomach on the line. He looked at Xiao Jiashu sitting opposite, but found that his expression was very calm. He was nibbling at Xiao Jiashu, as if he had no sense of taste. His every move is so familiar, it seems that he has returned to the state of shooting "Zerg", from the inside out into a cold machine.

Ji Mian frowned hard, but it was difficult for the camera to ask. I haven't seen you for half an hour. Why did the little tree become like this? He has completely got rid of the shadow of the role, there is no reason to attack after more than two months.

After a simple breakfast, they cleaned the pots and pans, and then set out to look for water. Xiao Jiashu walked at the end of the team. He didn't have a crutch. He looked very relaxed. From time to time, he would chat with his teammates for a few days and smile, which seemed very normal.

But the season crown is not at ease. He could not hear what Xiao Jiashu was thinking. If he closed his eyes, he could hardly feel his existence. So he had to go back to see him again and again, and had to ask him every few minutes if he was OK and if he could insist.

Without hearing Xiao Jiashu's voice, he felt as if he was missing something, and always felt insecure. He completely forgot the original intention of alienating Xiao Jiashu. When he can see through the other side, he has a lot of worries. When he can't feel it at all, he is nervous and anxious.

"Little tree..." As soon as he looked back, Huang Yingxue had no choice but to say, "how about you, little tree? Can you still insist? I said, Captain, how many times do you have to ask? I'm a pretty girl. You don't care. Why do you always care about Xiao Jiashu? "

Ji Mian's expression was slightly stiff. He said simply, "everyone sit down and have a rest."

"Ah, I can rest at last." Huang Yingxue and Yu Baixiu immediately collapsed on the ground.

Ji Mian went to Xiao Jiashu. Xiao Jiashu immediately stood up and said with a smile, "brother Ji, I'm ok. You don't have to worry. I'll go and be back in a moment. "

"Don't go far, pay attention to poisonous insects and snakes!" Ji Mian stares at his back, suddenly wants to smoke a cigarette. He worries too much, but he worries even more if he can't see through. What's the matter?

Lin LeYang handed the kettle to him and interrupted his thought, "Captain, would you like to drink coconut juice?" Before he set out, he chiseled all the coconuts and poured the coconut juice into the kettle so that everyone would not be thirsty on the way. It's cruel of the program group to say that if they don't provide mineral water, they won't!"No, thank you." Ji Mian gave him a light glance.

Five minutes later, Xiao Jiashu came back and everyone continued on the road. Following the footprints of the animals, they took the lead in finding a pool of water. Several monkeys were lying on the edge of the pool, looking very alert. The staff here immediately came up to congratulate them on completing the task and told them that they could choose to set up camp first.

For the convenience of life, the two teams naturally moved to live near the water source. There were two camps designated by the program team. One was on a large open stone, exposed to the wind, sun and rain, and there was no shelter; the other was in the jungle beside the pool. The terrain was sunken, with its back against the rock, so it was very cool.

Ji Mian called the team together and asked, "which site shall we choose?"

Everyone expressed their own opinions, and their inner thoughts came out like a barrage, which made Ji Mian a headache. But oddly enough, although Xiao Jiashu was responding on the surface, his heart was still. His soul seemed to fly away, leaving only a body.

Ji Mian suddenly took his hand. "What do you think, little tree?"

Xiao Jiashu naturally broke away from him, went to get the kettle and said with a smile, "brother Ji, you decide. You are the team leader."

"Don't you have any idea?" Ji Mian must be watching him.

"We all listen to the captain." Xiao Jiashu looks down.

Ji Mian still couldn't open his heart. Frustration and anxiety burned his nerves and made his breath slightly unstable. "Then choose the shady land," he said in a deep voice. "The shady land is closer to the pool and cooler, but we have to build the house on a tree."

"Building a house on a tree? How difficult that is Yu Baixiu began to howl.

"The land is high on all sides and low in the middle. When it rains, the rain will pour back. If you want to wake up and lie in the water, I don't mind. By the way, the surrounding trees are so dense, and there are many snakes and insects. Maybe they will get into your clothes... " Ji Mian did not finish, Huang Yingxue quickly interrupted, "build a tree, we must build a house!"

"Let's do it now. On the way here, I saw several bamboo plants, which can be used as building materials. Who will follow me to chop them Ji Mian stares at Xiao Jiashu.

Xiao Jiashu stood up and said, "let Lin LeYang go. Let's stay and find the right tree."

Lin LeYang immediately echoed, "OK, I'll go with Ji Ge."

"No, you all stay. I'm enough alone." Ji Mian took out a multi-purpose engineering shovel from his bag, which he specially brought, and now it's just in use. He finally understood that Xiao Jiashu was alienating and even avoiding himself, but why? Where have all those beautiful dreams and blazing love gone? Is he too tired to hallucinate, or does Xiao Jiashu realize in less than half an hour that homosexuality is a disease that needs to be treated?

In principle, he is willing to give up the season crown, they can avoid hurt each other, also can avoid those embarrassment and embarrassment. But for some reason, Ji Mian was very upset. He slashed the bamboo, trying to let go of his sense of powerlessness.

He didn't find out until now that he had nothing to do with Xiao Jiashu. He can only wait, whether the other party advances or retreats.

At the other end, Xiao Jiashu found a huge banyan tree with branches all over the sky. Let alone build a tree house on it, even a building. Turning between the branches two or three meters above the ground, he clapped and said, "it's built here. It's not high or low. It's just right."

"I think so. You need a lot of nails to build a tree house? What should we do without nails? " Yu Boxiu asked.

"Then rub the rope instead. Let's put up the shelves first and grope while we build them. " Xiao Jiashu pauses and goes on, "I see some surfboards beside the beach. They should be marine garbage discarded by others and washed ashore. I'll get them up and use them as floors. "

"Well, that's a great idea. I'll go with you." Yu Boxiu is in charge of the road.

"The surfboard is not heavy. I can carry it. You put up the shelf first. It's more troublesome." Xiao Jiashu's figure soon disappeared in the jungle, two PD followed behind him, almost unable to catch up with his pace. He doesn't look like the one with a foot injury at all, but he has more energy than the season crown.

When he picked up a few surfboards and climbed to the middle of the mountain, he suddenly fell down quietly and was rushed to the infirmary by two PDs.

In order to ensure the personal safety of the guests, the program team trampled all over the island a few months ago, and built simple buildings to store equipment and arrange personnel. Of course, there are also infirmaries with complete facilities. Guests don't have mobile phones, but PDS wear headphones and can contact each other at any time.

They soon received the news that Xiao Jiashu fainted and informed the guests.

An hour later, Xiao Jiashu opened his eyes. Before he could find out where he was, he heard a hoarse voice in his ear, "you wake up."

He turned his head and found that Ji Ge was sitting beside the hospital bed, his face was gloomy, his eyes were dim, and he had a cigarette in his hand. There were many cigarette ends on the ground, but there was no peculiar smell in the house. An air outlet was spinning rapidly on his head, making a creaking sound. The opposite window was open, and he could see the undulating ocean."The gauze on your feet is not wrapped tightly. It's all spread out," he said in a low voice after taking a puff of cigarette. "The blisters on your feet are all broken. There's a lot of blood. Don't you feel it?"

Xiao Jiashu looked at him stupidly for a while, as if analyzing what he said. After about half a minute, he sat up and looked at his tightly wrapped feet, "I really don't feel it. What's wrong with me?" His soul has been separated from * *.

Ji Mian threw half of his cigarette on the ground, stamped it out and said in a dumb voice, "you don't feel your feet are worn out. Do you feel the knife cutting meat? You think you're a robot? Xiao Jiashu, tell me what's on your mind? "

Even he felt ironic when he asked. As long as he tries to like or hate a person, he can see through their mind. But now, no matter how he knocks on Xiao Jiashu's heart, there is no echo. In front of him, it was not a person, but a deep sea. Only at this time did he understand why the disease of "deep sea phobia" exists in the world, because "undetectable" is the biggest fear. The ocean is there, so close to human beings, but human beings' understanding of it is less than one tenth of that of the moon.

Its profundity is no different from the abyss, just as Xiao Jiashu is close to him, but he can't guess his mind.

If Xiao Jiashu had not accepted him unreservedly and with all his strength before that, maybe he would not have thought much about it. But after experiencing such warm and meticulous care and sincere love, he could hardly face the cold man in front of him.

"Brother Ji, I don't think about anything. Am I ill?" Xiao Jiashu didn't feel the pain until this time, and immediately took a breath.

With this breath, Ji Mian's anxiety and anger were dispersed. As he called for the doctor with his communicator, he gritted his teeth and said, "the gauze on your feet has spread, worn out the blisters, and there are several pools of muddy water on the road. The wound is infected and inflamed, leading to a high fever. We have to send you to the nearest big hospital for treatment."

"Do I have to come back to record the rest of the show?" Xiao Jiashu stares at his fingernail.

"What else do you shoot when you are injured like this? You can't walk without ten days and a half." Ji Mian wiped off the helplessness on his face. "After the injury is stable, I will send someone to send you back home. Huang meixuan is waiting for you in the hospital. I can't leave here. You can take good care of yourself."

He paused and sighed, "don't be so heartless, OK?"

Xiao Jiashu nodded, "OK No more... "

The last four words got into Ji Mian's eardrum, which made him feel palpitating. He was about to ask. The accompanying doctor came in and helped the patient to have a round of examination. He was sure that he was all right and the fever had subsided. He immediately put the patient on the helicopter.

Xiao Jiashu was carried onto the cabin by Ji Mian. He lowered his head and said nothing else. He waved to Huang Yingxue, Yu Boxiu and Shi tingheng, then he lay back in the hospital bed, turned on his mobile phone and deleted all the contents about Ji Mian in his circle of friends. Microblog has too many people's attention, he did not dare to move, but when he turned to one of the photos, he suddenly burst into tears.

This is another group photo taken by the cast of the apostles half a year ago. Ji Ge embraces Lin LeYang in one hand and holds a mobile phone in the other, with a warm smile. He said that this is a new kid he saw and signed. Please take care of him. No wonder he always goes in and out with Lin LeYang. No wonder he sends the best resources to him and stands up for him at the critical moment. They are lovers.

Xiao Jiashu moved his fingertips slightly and praised the photo. He said in his heart: goodbye, my heartless

Ji Mian stares at the helicopter far away, looking inexplicable. Lin LeYang stood behind him and breathed a sigh of relief. Xiao Jiashu was better than he thought, but he told him that he and Ji were lovers. He was so miserable that he took the initiative to leave. I really hope that he will not come again in the next issue, so that he can be completely at ease.

At this time, looking up at the sky, Ji Mian suddenly turned to look at Lin LeYang, his face was gloomy and terrible.