Chapter 146: I can also hear it

"What should I do with him?" Noras frowns. 

God Cina, who is reduced to a small child, is lying on the bed in a fetal position. Noras has checked this god's body and core. The sight of the damages makes him sigh. How long will it take for Cina to recover if he can recover? A thousand years? 

Noras sighs again. "Who is going to raise him?"

The god of trees and lands has no kins except for the other gods. Obviously, Noras can't leave this small kid in a forest. If Cina's memories return, then it's fine. He presses his hand on Cina's forehead and looks for memories.

Blank. There's nothing. Every corner of Cina's mind is empty. 

His eyes snap open. "What did Amara do?"

Did the forbidden realm also take Cina's memories in order to suppress him? Qeshaya has done it to the Dark God. However, the memories of Dark God came back after he started recovering. 

"The situation is different." Noras leans back in the chair, studying Cina's sleeping figure. When the gods used their strengths to seal the Dark God inside Qeshaya, they made sure that the Dark God would be suppressed only. Qeshaya weakened the Dark God by suppressing both memories and strength. If a mortal tries to summon Qeshaya, it wouldn't receive enough energy from the mortal. Kresi's soul and body were also intact. Adira was also fine.

Did Qeshaya absorb Cina's memories and strength to suppress him?

This is god's death. 

It's true that gods are immortal, but there are ways in which gods can die too. Losing all the memories is one. In deaths like this, gods are reset to their initial forms. Though he's Cina too, he will never be the same. Cina will grow up into a new person. 

Noras holds his head, feeling exhausted. "Do I have to raise a god now?"

The other gods aren't back yet. They must have gone to a distant world. He has to send a messenger. Noras raises his head when he feels a presence. Why is Renasir Ari here? The third moon is also here.

He walks out of the room and takes long strides toward the sitting room. Since she's here without Adira, it must be related to what happened in Qeshaya. He pushes open the door and enters the room. Renasir Ari is sitting on the couch with one hand on her belly and another hand around an invisible entity.  Ril'Yah is also beside her. 

Renasir Ari looks at him coldly. "God Noras, what happened to Adira?"

"Is something wrong with him?" Noras asks her with a heavy voice. God Cina is enough of a problem now. If something happens to Adira, he has no idea what to do. 

"He doesn't remember anything before the time I freed him from Qeshaya," Renasir Ari replies. Her voice is low and emotionless, hiding everything in her heart. "He doesn't remember me."

God Noras' heart drops to his stomach when he hears that. "What happened to Kresi?"

"I don't know." Renasir Ari curls her fingers and knits her forehead. "She didn't wake up before I left the castle."

"He might have lost his memories because he spent some time in Qeshaya." God Noras creases his forehead, looking down at the floor. It was only memory suppression, right? If it's only the suppression, he can make him remember. "Renasir, wait here. I will see Adira now."

After God Noras is gone, Ari fidgets with her fingers. Even if she knows that the amnesia is temporary, she has an ominous feeling. Would he truly kill their child if it was also a nameless creature? He wouldn't even try to draw a name and save their child. Is he that kind of person?

Or is it because he doesn't remember anything?

"Ril'Yah, what is the difference between a mortal and a god?" Ari questions the girl beside her. "Why I am having this difficulty understanding him? It wasn't like this when he was Kyo."

"Renasir, I know what you are thinking about. Being a god isn't easy." Ril'Yah tells her with a soft voice, "We have to make choices that a mortal wouldn't make. Kyo didn't remember his true self. He didn't care about his responsibilities. The Dark God Adira is a god. He has to do things that Kyo would not have done. Gods can't show kindness without thinking about repercussions. Think about it. You saved Kresi. Though you did nothing wrong, God Cina took another decision. One thing led to another. God Adira lost his memories today and Cina died in a way. If the nameless creature died before the trial, things might not have gone this far."

"You are here though." She mutters, "You are trying to save a nameless child."

"I am a selfish one, Renasir." Ril'Yah sighs. "According to the laws, the nameless creatures should be killed. With time, they will forget about themselves and turn into a creature who would eat other people's true names. When it reaches that stage, there's no turning back. No matter how much it devours, it will never be content. It will also seek the true names of the gods. That is the reason why gods kill the nameless creatures at sight."

Little Ai peeks at Ril'Yah. The third moon is also pretty. She's nice too. But she rarely talks to him. Then, she can't hear his voice. 

"What is your selfish reason?" Ari narrows her eyes. The moons might look young, but they are way older than anyone else in this room. Why is Ril'Yah going this far to save Little Ai? Would it harm Little Ai in the future?

"I will tell you if you are able to draw the name." Ril'Yah stands up. "I am going to the Mirins. They still have Renasir Mayaeira's things. I will look for the knowledge of the names."

Ari says nothing. She pulls Little Ai closer to her. Gods are complicated. She's having trouble understanding Ril'Yah too. If everyone just talks, it wouldn't be this complicated. 

Before the Renasir Mayaeira died, she gave away last of her powers and knowledge to her. It only means that Renasir Mayaeira didn't know the knowledge of the names. Does Renasir Mayaeira have something left behind? 

If even Renasir Mayaeira didn't know, then why does Kresi knows? Did Kresi learn from somewhere else? Why is that girl so mysterious?

She doesn't want to blame Kresi for what happened to Adira. If she was in Kresi's situation, she might have done the same.

It seems like he truly believed that he loved Amara at the moment.

Does he truly love her now?

"Mother." Little Ai nudges her. "What are you thinking about?"

"I never thought that love would be this complicated," Ari murmurs softly.

"My love for you is simple, Mother." He rubs his cheek on her arm and smiles up at her. "I love my sibling too."

Ari chuckles, rubbing Little Ai's head. "I guess so. My son's love doesn't lead me to overthink."

Honestly, what's wrong with her? She shouldn't be thinking like this. She loves Adira. He also loves her. Nothing can change that fact. Love might not be enough in a relationship. Differences in opinions might be there. She should try to understand his side.

Since he doesn't remember her, this is also her chance to know him better. When he remembers her, his attitude toward her will also change. 

"Mother, I can hear their heartbeats." Ai presses his ear on her belly. "They are growing fast."

They? Ari purses her lips. It hasn't been long since she got pregnant. How can he hear heartbeats already? 

"They told me that they miss their father." Ai blinks at her. "When are you going to return to the Dark God, Mother?"

Foetuses can talk? "Child, don't play jokes like that. It's too soon for them to speak." 

She's sure that they don't even have a mouth.

"I can also hear it."