48 Too Much

I glare at Binx and decide to just give up. I throw my hands up and walk into the kitchen, pulling out the strongest alcohol I own. I don't even bother with a glass. I open the lid, spin it off and knock it back, enjoying the burn.

"Drinking isn't going to fix any of this... Definitely won't get rid of the Shifter and Demon in the living room." Binx says staring at me with disapproval. I lower the bottle and wipe my lips as I say "Yeah well, my only lead just slit her own throat, summoning the demon that's now standing in my living room where my mother just died... A drink is going to fix a lot of things for me right now."

I hear a snort of laughter and look up to see Kian smothering his laughter as Xander glares at him with hatred but I decide to call it a night. "I want to be alone," I say lifting the bottle again as the house opens the front door for me.

Kian smirks and gives me a theatrical bow before saying "We'll finish our talk later, dollface." Xander growls at him but Kian just winks at him before walking out of the house. Xander looks back at me with conflicted emotions but I just can't right now.

Xander sighs and says "Call me if you need me... just because we lost the witch, doesn't mean we lost our only lead. We'll find another." I cringe at the burn of the alcohol and wave him off as he leaves. The house shuts the door and locks it, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

I lean against the kitchen counter and slowly slide down to the floor, drinking more of the alcohol to drown my emotions. Why would she just kill herself? What would that accomplish?? I take another sip and find myself pausing.

I lean forward a little as something starts to click. She wouldn't kill herself unless someone more powerful is behind her. Who's summoning all the demons and why? What do they want from me and how is it connected to the dark hooded figure? Who is the figure?

Why did they attack my house when I wasn't home? They would have known I wasn't home... And why the hell had my wards not kept them out!? I push myself up from the floor and stumble over to the wards to see that they were in place.

I start checking every single one in the house and find the ward on the living room window missing... I slide down on my knees and stare at the window with despair. My eyes burn as I bring the bottle back up and down the rest of it.

Who... who removed the ward in my living room? I lift the bottle to take another drink but it's empty. I start laughing but it's broken with my angry tears. I throw the empty bottle at the wall and watch it as it shatters. A piece flies up and hits my cheek, cutting me in the process but I couldn't care less.

How many people have been in my living room lately? I fall to my butt and switch back and forth between laughter and crying. When I realize that I'm sitting in the same spot my mother died in, I lean forward and scream, sending out a small blast of power.

I stay with my forehead against the cold wooden floor as I struggle to breathe. It hurts... it feels like something is clawing at my heart but I can't make it stop. "Please.." I beg in a broken cry when I suddenly feel the temperature in the room drop.

Something cold touches me on my back, making me freeze. I don't move or even breathe, I'm scared I'm just imagining it. Slowly, I sit up and look over to see my mother's spirit standing next to me with a sad look on her face.

I suck in and reach out with a trembling hand but stop short when I go to touch her. "I'm... I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry.." I say with a sob but she just shakes her head and points to the window. I look back to the window with confusion and say "I don't know... So many people have been here I... I don't know what I'm supposed to do."

She continues to stare at me and points at the window again so I struggle to crawl over there in my drunken state. I look at the window with confusion and touch it but nothing happens. I lean my head against the glass and close my eyes as I try to figure out what to do.

"Is father and Liam still alive?" I ask slowly opening my eyes. I turn my head to look at my mother but she's already gone. I slowly close my eyes with a sigh and trembling lower lip. I push myself up and stumble back into the kitchen, grabbing another bottle of alcohol.

I twist the lid off and knock the bottle back, wanting to drown everything out and make it stop. Just for a moment... I know this won't fix anything. I know it won't heal me but that's not why I'm drinking. I just want everything to stop for a moment, just a moment.

Hah... if I could have just a moment, I'd go back in time and fix the ward. Maybe things would be different then. I drop the second empty bottle and watch it roll away from me with a tear running down my face.

That's it... a moment. Just a single moment in time... I quickly pull myself up and grab my head to make the room stop spinning but when that doesn't work, I ignore the spinning room and stumble to my workroom.

I open the door and nearly fall over as I stumble into the room and switch on the lights. I stumble over to the large cabinet and start pulling out candles and different ingredients. Binx walks into the room and asks "What are you doing?"

I drop half the things in my arms as I stumble over to the middle of the room saying "I'm going to the past." Binx hisses and says "Are you insane!? You can't time travel! No one can!! Stop before you kill yourself!"