Chapter 195 - Although

Although Steven only wanted to set aside everything that was human in him and kill every single one of the enemy members in the room he was in, that being a floor inside the castle which king Henry ruled his kingdom within, Steven managed to keep his cool as he was promised that if he managed to calm down and wait until everyone from Julius' forces were to be present in the area. After that, Steven would get his wish of fighting all of the enemy all at once without having anyone interrupt him.

One by one, the remaining elite members of Julius' army began to arrive. Julius simply greeted them with a nod which helped them understand their situation. Unlike Steven, they managed to analyze the situation before taking action which meant that they didn't make fools of themselves like Steven.

"Hello there everyone," said Steph as he was the final member to arrive at the destination. Steph quickly gave a nod to Julius which indicated a greeting.

By this point though, Steven had fallen asleep due to him not being able to wait until Steph could arrive. However, before Steph could even say his first word, Steven woke up with a jump as his eyes widened. Steven simply didn't say a single word and instead gave Julius a glance which seemed to ask Julius for permission one last time before Steven would go all out against king Henry as well as all the other enemies of Julius.

Julius wasn't going to keep Steven waiting as that might cause Steven to become threat instead of an ally, so instead of making the wiser decision of making a plan with all of the members of his elite attack team, Julius gave Steven a nod of agreement which notified the Steven who was hungry for battle that he was allowed to do as he pleased.

Steven gave one last glare before leaping straight towards Henry as he wanted to kill him with a single blow. After all, Steven needed to start the show with something impressing. That being to kill the strongest one in the room from the enemies side with a single blow which would cause all of the other opponents to tremble in fear as Steven killed every single one of them one by one.

Although Julius wasn't the type of person to enjoy killing people even if they were his enemies, he didn't bother to stop Steven as Julius had gone through far too much and his mental fortitude was starting to deteriorate.

"Where have I felt this feeling before? It feels so familiar," Julius said to himself as he tried to think of the feeling he had in his head. Julius felt nauseous and didn't want to even speak, let alone move.

After thinking long and hard and coming to no exact conclusion, Julius decided to close both his eyes and tried to imagine the day which he felt the same feelings he had now.

Although it was disrespectful to Steven that Julius was closing his eyes and focusing on something other than his own comrade's battle, Julius didn't care in the least. Well, more specifically, he didn't find any value in the battle which Steven was having as the outcome had already been decided. As such, Julius concerned himself with something which he valued a lot more, that being his mental health. After what had happened with Liz then Vivi just a moment ago, he didn't know who he could trust. He didn't know if the whole world would turn its back on him and force him to fight all his battles on his own without anyone being there to assist him.

Julius had already abandoned by his father, teacher, and even his own mother disliked him.

No matter what Julius did, he could never seem to succeed in building meaningful relationships with his loved ones. In the end, Julius was always getting betrayed.

After closing his eyes for a while and allowing all his thoughts to pile up one on top of another, Julius' head began to go blank as it couldn't think of any possible way to function any longer.

Julius was having so many thoughts occurring inside his head all at once that his brain had to stop thinking all together and completely restart.

"Hey king Julius, are you alright?" Spike asked as he saw Julius' body to wobble before falling towards the ground only to be caught by Spike a moment before he hit the ground.

"What's wrong sure?" Spike demanded with a clear look of concern as he didn't want his king to have been injured in the least, let alone to die. Even the topic of death was quickly taken out of Spike's head as there was no way that he would be able to comprehend the death of his king.

If that were to actually take place, Spike would be in denial for the rest of his life. Luckily for him, Julius wasn't dead, he just passed out from thinking too much.

However due to that, Julius was placed into a dreaming like state where he envisioned things which weren't there. For a while, Julius went with the flow of things as he didn't even realize what was going on. Due to him having passed out without any warning, Julius himself didn't know that he was dreaming and instead thought that everything which he was experiencing was in fact real.

Julius only realized that he was dreaming when he spotted something familiar inside his dream like state. Although for most of his unconscious journey Julius getting transported to random places and nothing made sense, this time when he was hallucinating, things were very vivid and descriptive.

Julius saw himself inside a dark room as an old man began to panicking as he experimented with potions.. The old man looked to be in a panic for some reason as he kept taking occasional looks at Julius as if he wanted to make sure than Julius was there which was a little weird until Julius himself realized that what he was experiencing was not just a dream but a whole memory.