Chapter 9 - What I see is just a shadow of what I am - Final Part

I feel scared, almost wanting to cry. But somehow at the same time I feel comfortable with this shape. Almost as if this was my true form. The comfortable feeling made me calmdown. Let's think this shape is probably the result of my bloodline. After a ritual so powerful to make you able to change your shape probably you no longer look like a human anymore. And I just inherit this after all my blood is pure ritual blood.

First let's go back to my usual appearance. I think about my looks and my shape started to change before my eyes. First I regain my color after that the shadowy and smoky apparence dissappear and finally I got back all my factions. Curiously I wasted no magic at all when I change to my shadowy form but I feel like some was used to change back.

So that confirms which one is the real me. The more I learn, the more I worry. No wonder my great grandfather said to me that the magic community fear the House of Black. If all my ancestors where like me that only means that the members of our family were the perfect spies. I can use this for my future plans but I need more information about the the actual situationt.

If I am not mistaken in the war with Voldermort both the present and the future we got no help from any country almost as if we were isolated. But in the war against Gellert Grindelwald almost every single country participate. What is the difference?

Wait if I'm not wrong on that the most active fighting was Britain. That could only mean that most of the loses was ours. So most of the ancient families lost almost all their members. And just after the war I think the prohibition on the rituals was placed. So we got isolated and that's why we got not help with the current maniac.

No wonder a single maniac with a ritual could get so powerfull and no one can stop him there was simply no one left to face him. They can't be so incompetent right?

If everything is as I am imagining. The situation is dire. Dumbledore and minister are killing the country. It will not be enough to take them out of power, drastic changes will be needed and restore the old houses to power since the Ministry of magic is so incompetent that it is putting us at risk of an invasion of other ministries. I must make changes in the education of Britain.

But how I'm suppose to wrest away the school from Dumbledore. That's all I can think at the moment. I must devise a plan but first I need to master all my gifts. They will help me on this journey. At this moment I start to feel tired be so young does not help with all the things I must do. I just hope I grow up faster.

I need to look for allies, I am already beginning to visualize who are the people who can help me, but I still need more time. I must practice how to move in every shape too. So many things to do in so little time.

I suppose is time for me to ''learn how to read''. I can't be this passive anymore. Lucky I got Fomsey. I'm sure she will not say no to any of my requests. Well till Fomsey come to look for me in the morning I will do my best to master my shapeshifting.

I when back to my shadowy form and started practicing all the shapes I could think. I must say thanks to Fomsey for bringing such a large mirror. It really help me to understand every change i made. There is a lot for me to learn.

After 30 minutes of practice I started to feel really tired, having such little magic doesn't not help at all. I started to fall asleep. Maybe I can gather what is left of our family. If I am not mistaken my great grandfather could convince Andromeda to return to the family. Having one of the 3 sisters on my side would help me a lot in the future.

While I was thinking this I just fall sleep.