7 SELF CONFESSION / CAN'T KILL HIM

Agnes POV:

I started the day brushing my teeth, licked my fangs which I use to trim every three days.

Moving the brush on my teeth I thought about yesterday.

"What was happening to me at that time. I was just being drawn to him. Yesterday I controlled myself almost successfully. But how could I do this everyday ? "

Confused I questioned myself in the mirror.

Unfortunately I've applied for the position of his personal Secretary so I've to remain by his side most of the time.

"Roaming around him with that scent Oh how I'll overcome this !

But I've to__I've to find out my answers. "

Yes I needed to endure this.

I dressed myself in chocolate brown long coat, I've never wore a backless in order to hide that royal tattoo of vampires present on the end of my spine.

Tied my wavy red hair in a messy bun__though I did all this not to catch anyone's attention but with those features I was still pretty.

Except that scar !

Which I got during a fight with my ex-fiènce !

As after that night he came from vampire world to fetch me back. He was one of the royalty members as my father and I are.

We got engaged but due to certain reasons we brokeup and I came to human world on that study tour to find my true love !

He still want me back despite I hate him much.

I do believe upon the prophecy of our vampire seer that my true love isn't in vampire world and will be born many years after.

I've been looking for him, met many men but didn't felt anything till now.

But that man__my boss !

"Maybe he is the one I'm looking for though it wasn't clear in the prophecy that the man would be human."

Drenched into my own thoughts I prayed somehow for him to be that man-my mate !

But deep down I feel or I'd say I believe he's the one !

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Agnes went to the company and was assigned many files to study.

And was given a table besides Jairus. Both were sitting silently with heads buried in files.

Jairus POV:

I was glad to see her again. Happy I'd say or more than that. I arranged a table in my cabin for her. Right in front of mine so that I'd see her whenever I lift my head without getting caught ( :p )

She was working diligently studying each file carefully by placing her finger tips upon every word. I peeked though the corner of my eyes time to time. She was beautiful __heavenly.

Though I didn't know her but I guess I fell for her.

Oh heavens I was in love with her. Since When ?

I don't know....perhaps that night or perhaps yesterday when she came to me for job.

"Should I tell her about that night & apologize ?"

It was a tough question though I didn't knew about circumstances.

"I think I'd wait __since she doesn't remember me if I'll tell her it's quite possible she'll hate me. I'll make her fall in love with me.

Yes, that would be fine."

I came up with this solution.

Or I'd wait till she reveals her true motives.

"It's possible too that she remembers me and is here for revenge !

Ugh ! I don't know."

I threw my head on table with a thump in irritation.

I shook my head and those thoughts when she came to my desk with a file for some discussion. I immediately stood up & don't know why I ordered her to come close so that I'd see the words clearly. And obviously it was for__ to bring her close to me.

Don't know why I slipped my hand beneath the file and touched hers. A sweet sensation filled my body. My heart was longing to taste her again !

But I didn't wanted to do without her consent this time.

I , Jairus Ezekiel who neither asked for forgiveness nor forgive anyone__repented.

I regretted that night over and over again & swore never to take revenge on any girl. But this lady, I want her....I need her.

In this one week I became sure that I wanted her__badly.

I gave her much work & she went back home late.....only to see her more.

She doesn't talk much despite my many trials. But I like her roaming around me. As she walks by my side with such delicacy that it takes my heart every time. I started to take her with me everywhere in the meetings .

Maybe I was behaving like a pervert but my heart always says to touch her milky skin and to hold her hand. Within this week I got my chance when she got pierced her finger by the paper. I immediately went to her yelling for band aids, held her hand and lifted it upto my mouth in order to suck the blood untill the aid arrives.

But I found it weird as she jerked her hand down and didn't let me do so. Many things about her were wired. Like she rarely blink her eyes, didn't lift her beautiful green eyes much, she started to wear thin gloves but why ?

The most strange thing was that she wore them only when she was with me !

Agnes POV:

I was uncomfortable with my boss at first day. As I was aware of his stare. But why he was doing that ?

"Well I imagined my job an easy-peasy task but it wasn't. Not easy with his scent all around me."

Helplessly I muttered to myself.

He used to work within

air-conditioned room with windows closed. With that cold air coming from AC , his scent was spreading in the whole cabin arousing my vampiric senses to a peak state.

I used to control myself besides him. But it was tough__ quite impossible for me to stay away from him. The beast in me wanted him at once__badly. I used to avoid him, I started to stay away from him. But every time I tried this I was drawn to him more n more. The moment he touched my hand under the file a spark went throughout my body. I didn't pushed him back in order to suck his energy.

And again I didn't felt any exposure of spiritual energy. And that was strange. Perhaps he was the one. That's why I was being attracted to him. I guess he was burying me under a load of work intentionally. I've seen him staring at me with a strange feeling in his eyes.

"No matter how much I deny that I don't feel anything I was falling for him since the very first day .His glacial eyes and that weird feeling I loved it."

Blushing I hid ny face within both hands.

He always long for some private moments with me that's why he used to took me everywhere with him.

Though I loved being touched by him, the way he used to see me, the lame excuses he used to make to stay close to me __they're loveable.

" I can't hurt him or  kill him even if he's my culprit. Don't know what is this feeling but every time he's close to me I felt my heart racing."

I was sure that I was already fallen a prey to love-heated passion.

The day he held my finger close to his lips__Oh I can't let him have my vampire blood. It's forbidden and it's quite possible that he might die if he's not my soul mate !

I started to wear gloves in order to cover my hands so that I might not hurt him__though I can't suck his energy and he's safe. I think I'm stupid to do so.

I don't want him to find out truth about me so I kept my gaze low most of time because of my color changing eyes. I believe he'd freak out !