Chapter 57 - Selene's Feelings

~ Back at De La Sierra Hotel's Rooftop ~

Renz was still hugging Selene when she gently pushed him away from her body. She couldn't help it. She was upset and angry with him. 

Those negative emotions… she kept it deep inside her heart in her previous life. Now, she wanted to let it all out so that she would feel better.

Seeing Renz and Micaela together triggered her, bringing back painful memories from her past life. The wound of their betrayal was still fresh so it's natural for Selene to feel this way.

Maybe getting drunk was another factor that Selene wanted to pour her heart out right now. She gained the courage to tell Renz those things she was not able to tell him before.

But there was one problem. Renz could not remember what happened in her past life, only Selene and Eros were aware of Renz's and Micaela's betrayal.

"Selene, what's wrong? Are you mad at me because of Meghan? Please let me explain first," 

Renz tried to hold her shoulders but Selene just shook her head and moved a step back while trying to steady her footing. She was a little bit dizzy because of the alcohol she drank.

"Don't come near me. Don't touch me! I'm mad at you, Renz." Selene raised her voice.

Renz was taken aback since this was the first time he saw Selene speaking to him like this with her angry expression. But aside from anger, Renz could see a gleam of sadness in her brown eyes.

"Selene, Meghan lied to you. Please believe me that kiss never happened…" Renz said, convincing Selene.

Little did he know, his words just now added to Selene's pain.

'Meghan and Renz didn't kiss… does it mean… Micaela was his first kiss? Was it Micaela all along? Why her, my best friend?'

Selene laughed dryly at that thought, her expression showed some bitterness. 

Renz couldn't understand why she was acting like this. Renz frowned when he saw the empty bottle of tequila on the couch.

'Did she drink that alone?' Renz looked at Selene helplessly. 'This explains why she's acting strange. She's drunk already.'

"Selene, come with me. Let's go home." Renz said, extending his hand to her. He tried moving closer to her but Selene raised her hands, signaling him to stop.

"Just stay there… I hate you, Renz! I hate you for hurting my feelings. I gave you all my love and affection but you didn't return any of them. Instead, you betrayed me!"

Renz was clueless. He was wondering why Selene was saying this to him. 'Betray her? How? When did I?'

This time Renz closed their gaps, holding Selene's shoulder. His eyes filled with confusion.

"Selene, let's go home. Let's talk about this once you sober up," Renz said to her softly. He was being patient with her. He thought Selene was just spouting these things because she was drunk.

But Selene started struggling from his grip. She started hitting him, throwing punches at his chest as she continued to vent out her frustrations.

"I was your fiancee but you fancied another woman. And do you know what is the most depressing part? She is my best friend! You cheated on me with my best friend! I hate you, Renz. I hate you but still, I can't stop myself from loving you!"

Renz didn't know why but hearing these words from Selene, he felt a pang of guilt deep inside his heart although he couldn't remember doing those things to her.

In the end, Renz just stood there, letting Selene punch him all she wanted while listening to her.

"I even sacrificed my life just to save her because I knew you would be devastated if something bad happened to her."

Selene let out another giggle. "I'm so dumb… so foolish when it comes to love. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have sacrificed my life."

"But to think about it, even if I stayed alive… I would still be left alone so I guess… dying that day was not a bad thing too at least I saw you cry for me for the first time."

Selene's tears started to fall from the corner of her eyes. She was shedding tears once again.

"My grandma was gone… and I lost you… including my best friend... I lost everything..." She said with a hoarse voice.  She stopped hitting Renz as she got tired already.

Renz's frown deepened after hearing her last words. "Selene, what are you saying? Grandma Elysa is still here. I am here. You didn't lose me…"

After saying that, Renz engulfed Selene in his arms, hugging her tightly. "Look, I am here," Renz repeated, stroking Selene's hair to comfort her.

Selene had finally stopped struggling against Renz. She just let him hug her as she continued crying in his arms. They just stood there, hugging each other for only God knew how long.

Unknown to Renz and Selene, there was another person on the rooftop aside from them.

Eros had witnessed everything. He was there, watching them from the shadows. He concealed himself so that Renz would not see him.

Eros's hands were balled into fists while looking sharply at Renz. He felt sorry for Selene. He could understand her pain. Eros was furious seeing how badly Selene was hurt by this man. 

Seeing her tears, Eros had the urge to come over and snatch Selene from Renz's arms and wipe away her tears. 

But he couldn't do that. He should not interfere with the two of them. This was another chance for Renz to redeem himself and took care of Selene.

When Selene started talking about things that happened in her previous life, Eros should have stopped her because Renz would not understand her since he couldn't remember any of those memories.

But Eros chose not to interfere. Selene needed to let it all out and he thought Renz should hear those words from Selene, letting him know what Selene would feel if ever he would betray her again in this lifetime.

Selene had already sacrificed a lot for him including her life. This time, it was Renz's turn to do something for Selene.