Chapter Sixteen

Chapter Sixteen

I woke up before Chase the next morning and in a completely non creepy way, I just watched him sleep. I lay on one side facing him and aw how his breath rose and fell steadily and the gentle breaths that fanned across my face. The blanket was bunched at about his waist and he looked so adorable like that.

He looked so innocent and vulnerable right now. I didn't know what to say to him when he woke up. I didn't know what I wanted. I know that I should be thinking of myself, but I didn't want to hurt my brother by having more with him, and I didn't want to hurt him or myself by shutting him out again.

I felt like I was in an impossible and no win situation right now and I didn't know what to do. I was so confused by what I felt. Was it just the sex that was making me so drawn to him or were my feelings, like his, developing more and more.

I know he can be an asshole, but he's also one of the kindest and most gentle people I know, which after last night is weird to say.

My whole body is a bit sore, especially my ass, I'm sure that's nice and bruised and I don't even want to know what it looks like. It's almost to the point where it's way too much, and I needed some pain killers. He was going to feel like crap about that, I already knew that much.

Did I want more or not? It's a yes or no question, but it's such a complicated one. Or maybe that's just me who is making it complicated and the answer is just as simple as yes or no.

Do I trust him? With my life.

Do I think he's going to cheat on me? Definitely not.

Do I think he cares about me? Yes, I know he does.

Do I care for him? Of course.

It there chemistry? Oh hell yes.

Is he a good guy? One of the best.

And I know that Riley would be pissed off, but deep down I know that he would get over it. he cares about us both too much to let a relationship between Chase and I get in the way. We both lost too much already to destroy relationships, especially one as strong as a twin bond, or an almost twenty year friendship.

When I put it that way it sounds so simple, that there shouldn't be any question on what I should do, but at the same time I just feel like I need something else. I know it sounds selfish or stupid, but I just still can't wrap my mind around the idea.

I don't know how long I had been laying here when he started moving around. His arms came out and wrapped around me, pulling me closer to him.

"Good morning" he mumbled

"Morning" I smiled at him, he was just so cute.

"Don't look at me like that"

"Like what?"

"Like you just saw an adorable little puppy"

"I make no promises" I teased and he groaned.

"Shower and food" he nuzzled his head into my neck.

"Then get up" I rolled me eyes and pushed him away from me. I walked to the bathroom still fully naked and there was a slight gasp.

"Are you okay?" he asked and I turned to face him confused

"Why wouldn't I be?"

"The bruising, it looks pretty bad"

"It's sore and hurts, but nothing I can't handle I shrugged and put my hands on my hips "Don't worry, just may be a while before it goes way"

"I'm so sorry" he said softly and the look of guilt in his eyes made my heart hurt. I knew he would feel bad but I'm fine.

"Don't worry about it, I enjoyed it last night as much as you did. I'll be fine, you just have to be careful with me" I gave him a small smile

"I don't know, I-"

"Stop with that. I'm really fine. In fact I'm already thinking of how fun tonight can be" I smirked

"Do you have to do that this early in the morning?"

"Do what?" I asked innocently. He was staring at me and his eyes slowly left mine and moved slowly down my body and then back up.

"You're going to be the death of me" and with that he got up and followed me into the bathroom, I had just gotten the water on and to a good temperature when his arms wrapped around me. That small gesture made me smile.

"Come on, and then I have to do laundry before I make food."

"Don't you want to go out for brunch?" he asked and I shrugged.

"If you want to than we can, but I can cook if you want me too"

"Let's go out. Can't just stay inside all day." We talked as we showered all the sweat from last night off. goodness, I'm glad I have more than one set of sheets.

It took all the hot water to shower because we kept messing around in the shower, not that I minded. When I stepped out I wrapped a towel around my body and one in my hair. When I turned to Chase he had a towel wrapped low around his hips and droplets of water running down his chest. He looked yummy, and I wanted to lick the drops off his skin one by one.

He chuckled and I raised my eyes to his.

"Don't worry about checking me out, I was doing the same thing" he winked and I rolled my eyes.

I put on lacey and skimpy bra and underwear set and nothing else before walking over to the bed to strip the bedding off. I made sure to put some extra sway in my hips and I heard another groan.

"You don't play nice"

I turned to look at him with the blankets and everything in my arms

"Are you complaining?"

"Nope"

"Didn't think so" I started the wash and grabbed my second sheets and went to make the bed, to which he jumped in to help me with.

"After brunch do you want to go walk around or something?" he asked as I was putting on the last blanket. I tossed him a two of the pillow cases before answering.

"Do you want to? Or would you rather come here?"

"Here is nice, I quite enjoy it, but I figured it would be a nice change to go have some fun"

"Alright" I agreed. My body needed a break anyways.

Chase went around and cleaned up while I went to my closet and looked at my clothes. What would be comfortable for today. It's been a while since I just went out and had a nice and relaxing day, did whatever. I didn't know what to wear. Business suits were my usual attire, or clubbing clothes.

I grabbed a pair of cut off shorts and a loose and flowing tank top with a sleeveless cardigan; I tossed on some vans and went into the bathroom.

I dried my hair and it sat in its natural waves that flew down my back and applied a very minimal amount of makeup. Just on my eyes and some lip stain. I looked in the mirror and was happy with what I saw and went to the living room to find Chase waiting.

"I love that you don't take long to get ready. And you look beautiful" he smiled at me and we headed outside. Like before he opened the door for me and closed it before getting in the driver's side of his car and we headed off to wherever he decided was a good place.

When we arrived there were some bitter sweet memories. This is the place we used to go the first Sunday of every month with mom and dad. I've only been a handful of times since they died.

"Is this okay?" he asked a bit worried

"It's great. Thank you" he grabbed my hand and opened the door for me like a gentleman "Thank you" I told him politely.

When we got in there the same people were all working.

"Brylee baby, how are you doing?" Greta asked as she pulled me into a hug. She's been the hostess here forever.

"I'm great, how are you?" she always could bring a smile to my face.

"I've been just lovely. Debra, look who's here" a waitress came out and wrapped me in a hug as well.

"Oh Brylee, it's been too long. Hello Chase, it's good to see you too" she went and hugged him too.

We sat there and caught up for a bit, they called over more people and we all got to say our hello's before Debra brought us back to the table that we always sat at.

"Do you both want the usual, or are you guys eating new things now?"

"Just the usual is fine." Chase told her with a smile

"Usual sounds great" I said in the same manner.

She walked away with the menu's that she didn't even put down and I looked at him.

"Thank you, I haven't been here In a couple years. It's nice to be back."

"I thought you would like it, but I wasn't sure if it would bring up some unwelcomed memories though."

"It's been a long time, I miss them every day, but it gets easier with the time." I half lied. It will never be easy, there are so many things that I wish they could have seen, they missed so much already, and were all still young. They got to be there for Monica and Riley's wedding, and the birth of the monsters, but I'll never have that.

"Hey" he reached out to grab my hands "Let's have a good day. Not think about the heavy, just go with the flow, alright?"

"Sounds like a good idea, I can try"

Debra came with our drinks and I didn't miss the knowing look she shot me, I just chose to ignore it and look away, she laughed lowly and walked away.

"What do you want to do today?" I asked as I took a sip of my lemonade.

"I have a few ideas" he winked and I was now skeptical, I don't know if I liked that look.

"And those would be" I asked slowly.

"Shopping" he suggested and I raised an eye brow and looked at him like he just suggested we go there on a flying carpet.

"You," I said slowly and pointed at him "Want to go," I paused "Shopping?"

"For certain things, yeah it would be fun" and I got another wink and picked up on where he was coming from.

"Perv" I mumbled

"When it comes to you, damn straight" he admitted. Well at least he wasn't ashamed of the fact.

We ate brunch in a great mood. It was nice being back and we had a lot of interesting conversations that had me laughing. He was such an easy person to be around, and I was glad that had him.

When we finished lunch we headed off to go shopping. The first store we stopped at was a lingerie store.

"I can't wait for you to try it on for me" he told me as he opened the door to the store. He's such a guy.

"Okay, how about you pick them out then, and I'll try them on"

"I like this idea" he placed a quick kiss on my lips and we went looking around the store. It seemed he wanted to see me in everything because he was just grabbing one thing after another, I really hoped they were in my size.

When he finished there were probably twenty outfits' to try, and he wasn't allowed in so he took a seat outside the fitting room.

I grabbed the first one and wasn't so sure about it, looking through they were all so different but all so skimpy. Well I know they were supposed to be, but these looked pretty revealing, more so than the ones I had at home. Well most of them. I had some pretty revealing numbers there too.

I slid into the thong that had a little ruffles around the top making it look like if it was longer, it would be a skirt and the lacey matching bra. This would be something I could wear under my clothes and I liked it.

I opened the door and Chase's eyes snapped up and he licked his lips. He stepped forward and closed the door a bit so only he could see.

"Damn you look sexy" he told me and I did a turn.

"You like it?"

"That one's a keeper" I nodded and put on the next one.

They were crotch less panties and a matching bra and those had the same reaction. I think I may like these; they would be great for a nice quickie when I had a skirt on, and they wouldn't get ruined.

I tried on some more pantie and bra sets which I loved all of them before moving on to the outfits.

The firt one was a bra top and short shirt with a thong that had a little strip of material own my stomach which we agreed was a keeper.

Then there were some that weren't so great like a weird bra thing and some bottoms that came up to high, those were uncomfortable.

I thought he was going to rip the top off a few.

One of them was a see-through black mesh that was opened down the front and bows connected under my breasts and at my hops and then at my neck, it was sexy and one of my favorites. The backs covered my ass and the slit in the front went down to make it crotch less as well.

The next was a backless and side less body suit that was lace and went around my legs like body short underwear.

I had one that started below my breasts and had straps and a matching bra. It was lace and different.

I got a couple corsets and bustier. Chase's favorite corset was the one which didn't have a place for my breasts, it just went under them and pushed them up more.

And then my second favorite one looked like a dress, but was see-through. The top was long sleeved and lace and the bottom was a mesh dress.

But my all-time favorite looked like a dress too. It was a halter on top, the middle over my stomach was lace, and the bottom was ruffled mesh with a bow. It was pick and adorable.

We started a pile with all the lingerie at the register and moved around the store. We got some candles, massage oil, body candles, and edible body paint.

I don't know if we're going to use some of this stuff, but at the time we were so caught up in everything that it didn't matter. It sounded like something that we would want to try and so we were going to maybe eventually try it.

The next room we got more bondage things that we could ease into, we got more handcuffs and a couple blind folds. Some things he got doubles of because he wanted them at his place as well if we ever moved it over there.

And then we finished off with some other toys. I had my own, but Chase wanted to try to use some on me.

"I don't know" I said uneasily

"We can try things, and if you don't like them then we don't have to do them again. I wouldn't push you into things you didn't really want to do, but I think that we could always explore more."

I thought about it for a minute and there was nothing wrong with experimenting, he wouldn't hurt me, and he said he wouldn't push anything I didn't like.

"Alright" I agreed

We went around and grabbed some other vibrates, mini ones, ben wa balls in different weights, a pocket rocket.

"There's something else I wanted to try more with you." he bit his lip nervously and I eyes him curiously.

"Okay" I trailed off

"You didn't have a problem with it before, but I just wanted to try it some more, but I don't want to freak you out."

And I got more curious.

"What do you mean?" I asked and he reached over to grab something. I eyed it and wasn't' sure about this one. I mean I know that we've done it before, but I was so drunk at the time.

"You liked it" he leaned in to whisper "And it made you so wet for me to do." I bit my lip to muffle the groan. Being in a sex and lingerie shop with him was making It hard not to jump him.

"Okay. We can try some things" I said before I could change my mind

He grabbed anal beads, butt plugs and a few other toys for that area.

"And something I want to try" I told him slowly

"Anything baby" and I walked in the other room and came back with nipple clamps. I loved the idea of the pleasure and pain they would cause me, and he wouldn't have to do it to me, he could use his hands and mouth for other things.

"Alright" she shrugged and we decided to get different lubes before going up to the counter. They rang everything up and I gave them the membership rewards card I had. I went to grab my debit card.

"Nope, put that away" Chase told me

"No. I'm not letting you pay" all this added up so quick and was expensive.

"I went to slide my card when he grabbed me and pulled me away and handed the lady his card instead.

"Chase stop, this stuff is like all for me, especially the lingerie." This was stupid, he shouldn't be paying for it all.

"Oh baby trust me, that's just as much for me, if not more" the heated look he gave me would have had me wet on the spot if I wasn't already.

"Brylee, time to go" he told me and I just nodded and helped him grab the bags. When we got to the car I could no longer keep my hands to myself.

I placed my hand on his thigh and he sucked in a breath, as I moved my hand up his leg and closer to his member his hand gripped my upper high and he squeezed to keep under control.

The sexual tension has been building all day and I couldn't wait anymore. I popped the button of his jeans and undid the zipper. He hissed out a breath and gripped the steering wheel harder when my hand made full contact with him.

The windows were tinted thank god, so I moved my belt and bent over to take him into my mouth.

"Fuck Brylee, what are you doing?"

I sucked on his head and pushed him into my mouth again before scraping my teeth against his shaft when I pulled back.

"God damn it" he moved one hand and grabbed my hair to pull me off but I just moaned around him and he moaned too and pushed my head back down. The grip in my hair was tight and he pulled and pushed my head like his life depended on it.

"Oh fuck Brylee, just like that" I kept going and every time I moaned his penis twitched in pleasure. I've never done anything like this and I was quite enjoying it.

"Fuck it" I felt the car pull off somewhere but I didn't care. He was going to come in my mouth during this drive and to make sure of it I massaged his balls and stroked his shaft while I sucked harder on him.

"Lee, I'm" he moaned again when I deep throated him and bobbed my head. His hand went back into my hair and he pushed on my head as his hips thrust as much as they could into my mouth. I sucked harder around him and felt him coming.

I swallowed as he came until his cock was twitching and he was panting.

I pulled back and let go of him with a pop and his eyes were so dark. He grabbed my head and kissed me hard. I fumbled around for my seatbelt buckle and as soon as I had it undone he pulled me onto his lap.

"Naughty Brylee" he tisked and I grinded against him as an response. He groaned and gripped onto my hips. I pulled back in a panic, he wasn't driving.

I looked around and we were in an empty level of a parking garage, I was just fine with this.

I maneuvered until I got my shorts down, with a mishap of accidently honking the horn.

I was so wet and I rubbed my soaking core against his penis and it didn't take long for him to start standing at attention again, when he was rock hard and his member was practically begging to be inside me, I slammed down on him hard and fast. I let out a cry of pleasure when he let out a loud groan.

I rode him fast and hard and I didn't care if the windows steamed up or the whole world could hear me moaning for him. I was past horny and I wanted what I wanted.

"Fuck yes Brylee" he pulled my hair back knowing how much I liked it "You like that?"

"Yes, pull harder"

"No"

"Please" I begged and pushed my breasts into his face. he pulled down my tank top and his teeth gripped onto one nipple hard. I cried out again in pain and tried to move away. His grip then tightened and pulled me back and he nipped at it again and then moved to the other.

My breasts were stinging in pain but I just kept getting wetter. He flicked one nipple over and over and the pain increased. I was struggling to get away.

"Don't you dare stop riding my cock Brylee" he warned and I moved focus back to grinding against him and bouncing to take him all over and over again.

"Good girl" and his tong came out and gently sucked on my breasts and the stinging was so good I couldn't wait for him to do it some more. The pain went away and all that was there was pleasure.

"Fuck Chase" I groaned

"You better come all over my cock, and it better be soon" he told me

"Yes, Sir" I spoke and dug my nails into his flesh just second before I was yelling his name in pleasure. The squeezing of my walls around him set him off too and I felt him come inside me again.

I was panting in pleasure and I couldn't move. My body was cramped from the position, but I wasn't going to complain.

"You're so sexy when you come, and I love to hear you yelling my name" he told me and his member twitched inside me.

I moved off him and pulled my underwear and shorts up as I moved to my seat. He fixed himself and started the car again. it took a minute to defog the windows and we finished the short drive home.

He helped me with the bags and it was only four thirty when we got back to my place.

His arms wrapped around me from behind again

"Have you thought more about our talk, about us?" he asked and I nodded "Well?"

"I don't know." I confessed "I feel like there's just something missing, is it just the rough sex that makes this work? Could I even enjoy normal sex? Would we work for more than just sex?"

"We had a nice time at lunch today, and I think we could, you're just too sexy for your own good and I want you all the time."

"I don't know" I groaned and turned in his arms to face him.

"What can I do to help you make up your mine?" He asked me

"Do you want to me with me for me, or for the sex?"

"For you, the sex is just a huge bonus."

"Can you be with me without being bossy and in control?" I asked him

"I can if you want, Brylee. I love bossing you around, I don't lie. But I know you like it too. I can refrain from sex if it's what you want' I can be gentle if it's what you want."

"I'm afraid" I confessed

"Of Riley?" he rolled his eyes.

"No, of feeling more" I whispered. And that's what It came down to. I was afraid to be with him, I was afraid to open up to him, well not him, but anyone. I was afraid to connect more emotionally with him, to give him such a large opportunity to hurt me.

"Look at me" I adverted my eyes and he gripped my chin and he pulled my face up to meet his. "I care about you more than you know, I feel more for you then you can imagine. I want you because you're beautiful inside and out, you're funny and strong. I want you because you're Brylee" he said softly and kissed me gently.

"Okay" I didn't know what to say.

"Let me show you how I feel about you. I'm not good with words, you know that. But I can show you if you just say yes." His lips were a whisper away.

I was terrified to believe what I already knew deep down.

"Yes" was all I said before he kissed me again, but this kiss was slow and precise and gentle; the opposite to most of our encounters.

His hands roamed down my waist before he bent down and picked me up bridal style and walked me to my room. His lips didn't leave mine as he carried me or slowly lowered me to the bed.

** So have you guys ever tried on lingerie or lets go pg, swimsuits? you can try bottoms on OVER your clothes, which is what she does. :)