Chapter 62

“……” The book read Leng Leng to see him, the brain still some at a loss. She sniffed, as if trying to figure out what he meant, and hesitantly asked, "your girlfriend?"

Xie Ruhe still stares at her and whispers.

The tears of shunian didn't drop again. He said foolishly, "isn't that me?"

Xie Ruhe bent his lips: "it's you."

"Oh." Shunian looked back and thought again. She scratched her head and looked a little depressed. Then she asked in a low voice, "do I have to apologize?"

"You don't have to explain it for me."

"Explain what..."

"Explanation --" speaking of this, Xie Ruhe's voice stopped for a few seconds, and his ears became hot. He licked his lips and cleared his throat. "Explain, I love reading."

Hearing this, shunian suddenly looked at him, and his dull expression changed. Her eyes were still wet, and her mind seemed to be taken out in an instant. Subconsciously, she repeated his words: "I like reading very much."

Xie Ruhe didn't think that the book would repeat itself.

He is a Leng, droop an eye, notice her to stay Leng again nervous facial expression.

Like thinking of something, Xie Ruhe licked his lips, and his expression became unnatural. After a few seconds, he lowered his voice and said, "explanation, I like Xie Ruhe very much."

Shunian stares at him and mechanically repeats: "I like Xie Ruhe very much."

Quiet down in the room.

Xie Ruhe turned his head and put the back of his hand against his lips to hide the rising corners of his mouth.

Shunian blinked and realized what he had just said. Her mouth was open, her face turned red instantly, and she stood up at a loss, stiff as a robot.

Before she raised her foot, Xie Ruhe pulled her back.

Shunian completely forgot the sentence he said before. He just felt that he had been teased by him. He didn't know what to say, and he felt bored. She lowered her head, pursed her lips and said nothing.

"I heard it." Xie Ruhe raised her chin, her voice came down with the breath, with a little dumb, "thank you, I like you very much, too."

Shunian washes his face in the bathroom, trying to cool it down.

In the mirror, I have white skin, red eyes and nose, like a rabbit. The color of the lips also darkened, as if they had just been ravaged by someone, a little more gorgeous than usual.

She licked her lips and couldn't help but lower her head and wash her face.

Thinking of Xie Ruhe's saying "I like reading very much", his heart emptied and he went out of the bathroom in confusion.

Xie Ruhe is still sitting in the original position. When he hears the news, he looks up at her. Noticing his lips, shunian uncomfortably turned away and pretended to be calm and climbed into bed.

Xie Ruhe asked, "do you want to sleep?"

Shunian said vaguely: "no sleep..."

"Then sit down."

Shunian's action stopped, and he slowly climbed up to him.

They sat face to face.

Shunian's face is still stained with a few drops of water, and her skin is crystal clear, white as transparent. The corners of her mouth slightly raised, her mood didn't look as bad as before, but her words were still few.

She didn't take the initiative.

After a while.

"Read, you always have your own ideas." Xie Ruhe suddenly opened his mouth, his voice was slow and steady, "no matter what you say will irritate other people, or someone will argue with you, you will never change your mind about what you think is right."

Shunian raised his eyes: "ah?"

"And I think you're right. So all the time. " Xie Ruhe looked her in the eye and said, "if you say what you want to do, I won't refuse, and I don't want to force you to do anything. Including when you say you don't want to see a doctor, I think you have your thoughts and your reasons. "

“……”

Xie Ruhe raised his hand and scratched his hair: "there are also ingredients I don't know how to do. I just think that if you do what you want, maybe you will be happier and have a better life. "

His tone, more than a direct reprimand of her, makes shunian feel at a loss. She didn't know how to answer, so she could only listen to Xie Ruhe with her head down.

Xie Ruhe considered his words and said, "it's the same this time."

Shunian played with his fingers: "what."

"I hope you can see a psychologist." Xie Ruhe's expression is very serious, "but if you don't want to go, I won't force you to go. Besides, I can't leave you. "

The book read up, appearance Zheng Zheng.

Before, even if Deng Qingyu never showed any trace of fatigue and unbearable in front of her, because of Wang Hao's existence, shunian would feel like a burden.

In the extreme despair and pain, shunian even thought about it. If in that disaster, on the day Zeng Yuanxue captured her, she chose to die because she couldn't bear it, wouldn't it be better.

Then she doesn't have to live like this, and it doesn't drag her mother down.

Deng Qingyu, who has a new family, will not be allowed to quarrel with her husband day and night for her. She will not be able to sleep all night and cry bitterly for her.At that time.

Shunian wakes up every day to see heavy curtains, closed doors and three fixed locks. They are firm and heavy, like a heavy haze, which can't be dispersed.

Never want to pull the curtain in the past to see if it's dark or sunny. Lead a muddle headed life, don't know what happened outside, decadent and dark.

She never thought she would get better.

I just want to live, but it's hard to live. I don't think this day will last long. Maybe one day, she will choose a sunny day to say goodbye to the world.

It's about this life.

But I never thought about it.

One day, she will meet someone.

In her darkest time, save her from the abyss and heal her wounds one by one. Even though she is a burden, she is regarded as a treasure.

Shunian asked, "do you want me to go?"

Xie Ruhe said, "well."

"Oh." Shunian sniffed and said, "then I'll go."

Xie Ruhe was relieved and suddenly thought of something: "you don't have to ask your aunt for money."

Shunian quietly turned out his cell phone, opened the bank and looked at the balance. He made a sound without any confidence.

Xie Ruhe said, "you use mine."

Hearing this, shunian immediately shook his head: "no way."

Xie Ruhe frowned: "why not."

"I don't know how long it will take, and the cost is not low." Shunian's eyes trembled and murmured, "I can sell my house..."

Xie Ruhe thought about it and roughly understood her meaning: "do you think I can't afford it?"

Shunian was startled by his words and waved his hand: "no, it's not."

As if she didn't hear her denial, Xie Ruhe stares at her, so he decides for dozens of seconds, and then promises: "I'll work hard."

“……” Shunian was bluffing by his serious appearance and said slowly, "OK."

Xie Ruhe raised his lips and couldn't help touching her head.

Soon, shunian realized that something was wrong. She frowned and explained seriously, just like a little old man: "I think this is big money. I can't let you give me so much money."

Xie Ruhe thought, "then you should take it as your money."

Shunian looked stubborn: "but this is your money."

"It will be yours in the future."

"Ah? Why

"Because we will get married later." Xie Ruhe looked down at her, the Adam's apple sliding up and down, and then said, "so you can take it as, you used your money in advance."

“……”

Reading suddenly lost the feeling of reasoning with him.

Her attention was focused on his last sentence, and her expression was empty. After a long time, shunian whispered, his face looked very calm: "OK."

Silence.

I don't know how long later, shunian suddenly got into the quilt and hid the whole person inside.

Xie Ruhe's impulsive, but also because he said something at a loss. Aware of shunian's action, he looked at him and asked rigidly, "what's the matter?"

Shunian didn't say a word.

Xie Ruhe pursed his lips and asked again.

Still silent.

He moved the next position, just want to continue to ask.

The person in the quilt suddenly uttered words, and the voice sounded stuffy: "can you have an early warning, high-energy warning or something before you say these words in the future..."

Xie Ruhe said, "hmm?"

"Otherwise I would, that's what it is." Shunian showed his eyes from the quilt and said gently, "maybe you can't see it. I'll be a little I'm sorry

“……”

Xie Ruhe was stunned, and his nervous mood dissipated. He bent his eyes, reached out and touched her eyes, chuckled and said, "it's hard to see."

Xie Ruhe asked Shu Nian for advice, but he didn't change his psychiatrist.

Although shunian said that, she also knew that it was definitely not the problem of the psychiatrist. The main reason was that she could not get out of the shadow. Wang Yue has been doing very well and knows her situation very well. They get along very happily.

Moreover, if we change doctors, we should also have a period of running in with new doctors.

Shunian has no intention of changing a psychologist.

After thinking about it clearly, shunian made an appointment by phone.

The next afternoon, she went out with Xie Ruhe. I haven't stepped out of the house for several days, but maybe there is Xie Ruhe. Shunian doesn't feel as terrible as he thought.

Shunian was led by Xie Ruhe and said without words: "I saw you in the hospital several times before. I went to do psychotherapy."

Xie Ruhe nodded: "have you been there recently?"Shunian looked back and said honestly, "it seems that I haven't been there for several months, because I don't have time and it doesn't affect my life. I can't remember to go."

Xie Ruhe's expression is thoughtful: "do you have a fixed time?"

"Yes." Shunian said, "usually every Thursday morning, because I have to go to the studio in the afternoon and evening. If I have time, I may switch to the afternoon, because I want to sleep in."

“……”

"Then it became the sixth of every month."

Xie Ruhe was doing something very important. He wrote it down carefully: "I'll remind you later."

Shunian looked up at him, watching him seriously remember things in the notepad of his mobile phone. She thought for a while, and said, "did you like me before?"

Xie Ruhe said, "well."

Shunian was a little curious: "then why didn't you tell me?"

Hearing this, Xie Ruhe stopped and looked at her. I thought about what would have happened if I had told her at that time.

His lip line straightens, honest way: "said you will scold me."