Chapter 47 - Her Plans

The hand that was against her skin was growing warmer. Ran Xueyi thought that if they were in the middle of a snowy land, she might not need a heater. His hand and body temperature alone was enough to warm her body up till her cheeks and ears reddened.

"W-we can't..." she muttered as she looked at Song Yu Han with wide eyes.

"Are you still angry at me because of what I did?" Song Yu Han looked at her with a quizzical look in his eyes. He paused his actions and waited.

"Of course not..." Ran Xueyi quickly dispelled any doubts that could grow within himself and continued to add, "I just think that everything is going too fast. Besides, I need to tell you something."

Song Yu Han got off on top of her and sat beside her. He narrowed his eyes and asked, "What is it?" Was she going to reject him? But his wife already said that she was no longer mad at him. Did she lie to him because she pitied him? Song Yu Han had several thoughts rolling in his mind within just a few seconds of silence.

Ran Xueyi shifted her position and also sat up. She silently stared at him, not knowing what he was thinking inside his head. After a long pause, she finally said, "Earlier, I told you I received a call from the clinic, right?"

Song Yu Han nodded his head. "Yes, and that's how you found the truth."

"That's right. But that wasn't everything."

Song Yu Han raised his head and a deep crease appeared on his forehead. He waited for her to finish speaking as her face told her that something wasn't right.

Ran Xueyi released a deep and long sigh as she uttered, "They told me the procedure failed." She took a pause and continued. "It seems that I am not pregnant. Are you disappointed?" she told him.

As far as Ran Xueyi knew, Song Yu Han must have wanted a child through artificial insemination for surrogacy. She didn't know the reason why her husband wanted to do it when he could just find a woman to marry and have her give birth to his child naturally. He had both the money and looks to make any woman agree to any of his demands. Yet, her husband, Song Yu Han, decided to go to a clinic and let the clinic keep his seeds.

Although she didn't want to force him to say his reasons as to why he wanted to do it, Ran Xueyi still wanted to know. Did he do it because of the same reason she had when she decided to go through an IUI? Ran Xueyi wondered if he was disappointed. He married her because she carried the seeds he let the clinic keep and yet, her womb didn't get any result. Will he change his mind about her?

Ran Xueyi was now a little bit afraid. She was upset at him because he lied to her and even deceived her into marriage because she received his seeds. However, now that even the seed that was implanted inside her womb didn't bloom, the thought of him being disappointed and leaving her scared her a bit.

After all, even Ran Xueyi felt a bit disappointed when she heard that it failed.

The pair of obsidian eyes that looked like two black diamonds slightly widened at her words before it narrowed. The next moment, he was right at her face, only a few inches away from her. 

Ran Xueyi tensed up and caught her breath.

"I am," he echoed, his eyes never leaving hers. Ran Xueyi's heart was caught in her mouth as soon as his reply entered her ears. She blinked her eyes and frowned. But before she could say anything, she heard his husky and masculine voice speak again.

"I am disappointed. But not to the point that I will divorce you," his voice was unexpectedly calm and though he said that he was disappointed, any hint of it was not heard in his tone. "I am also saddened that we can't have our family sooner. But let's not think of this too negatively. We have a lot of time in our hands, we can still wish for a child if you want. But this time, no more clinics or artificial insemination."

Ran Xueyi gulped. Her mouth opened and then shut. She didn't know what to reply to him. She understood his meaning when he said there was no need for them to go to a clinic or go through the troublesome procedure of artificial insemination. The two of them could do it naturally without the help of science and they didn't have to worry about it failing. They could try no matter how many times, and if it fails, they will try again until they succeed.

However... 

There was something else she had to tell him.

"There's another thing I haven't told you yet," said Ran Xueyi as she looked away from his burning gaze.

His eyes narrowed once again. He reached out his hand and gently grabbed her chin towards him so she couldn't turn her gaze away again and could only look at him. He pinched her chin until her eyebrows furrowed. "Say it, Xueyi," he whispered.

The mellowness of his voice had a hint of danger buried within it. Ran Xueyi felt fear, but she braced herself and stared back at those obsidian eyes that could enchant anyone like a siren stranded on land.

"I p-plan to postpone the pregnancy for now." Ran Xueyi dropped the bomb first. She continued to tell him what she had planned and make him understand what she wanted. "I'm returning to the entertainment industry and I know it would be selfish for me to do this to you. But just wait until I announce our marriage to the public, then we can plan for a child."

Life of an artist was never easy. Especially to those who wanted to start or restart their journey.

And Ran Xueyi wanted to restart her life with Song Yu Han while pursuing her dreams.

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Author has something to say: Don't worry, the title of the novel and the plotline will be followed... Our Baobei is on his way. As for how.... you'll know in a few couple of chapters >.<