Chapter 1136

Bai Xuanyu would talk about this topic with his own son. He was more or less embarrassed. He said in a stuffy voice: "Yizhen's parents are in love. There is no place for me between them."

"So you just give up. It can't be regarded as giving up. You just press your friendship at the bottom of your heart and make room for her forever, don't you? " Bai Ruqing finally got excited when she said, "why did you marry my mother at the beginning? Why do you marry her if you love her or not? Just because she loves you? Just because she loves you, she deserves to be abused by you! "

When Bai Xuanyu heard Bai Ruqing say this, he lowered his head a little, but he still said in a dull voice: "I do feel guilty for your mother, but I can guarantee that I have never done anything sorry for your mother."

"Tell me honestly, do you still like aunt Cui after you married my mother or even gave birth to me?"

Bai Xuan Yu opens his mouth, but he can't say anything after all.

When Bai Ruqing saw that he wanted to cry and laugh, she felt a little sad: "my mother once said that the name of Bai Ruqing was given to me by you. It comes from a poem, in which there is such a sentence:" do not lose the Tathagata, do not lose the Qing. ". The general meaning of this poem is that a person who practices Taoism will be sorry to the Buddha if he is in love, but if he is not in love, he will be sorry to the woman who loves him deeply. "

"At that time, you gave me this name. Many people thought that you gave me this name because you loved my mother very much. But only those who really understand the relationship between you and my mother know that you named me because you didn't love my mother at all at that time. You only have guilt and no feelings for her. "

Bai Xuanyu didn't respond to Bai Ruqing's words. It seemed that he acquiesced in the truth of his words. Finally, he only asked, "is that why you began to hate me?"

"That's right." Bai Ruqing faced up to this problem for the first time in so many years, "I envy him even more. Why do we grow up together and his parents love each other so much, but my parents seem to be apart. Even my mother is depressed because of these things, but his mother gets my father's heart. How ironic. Fortunately, I believed those people's words and thought that my mother died so young because she was ill. "

"I was too careless to consider your mother's mood. I was not considerate enough. I didn't find something wrong with her earlier, which made her live so hard at that time. But it's all my fault. It's my sin. Your aunt Cui didn't know that I used to like her from the beginning to the end, and Yizhen didn't know that there was such a thing. If you want to blame me, why do you blame others? "

"Don't you think I want to? But I can't. As soon as I see him, I will unconsciously think of his mother, and then think of my mother's bony appearance before she died. I'm not as broad-minded as you think. Every time I see you treat Huo Yizhen well, I will unconsciously think, why do you treat him so well? Why do you care more about him than your own son? Just because he's the son of someone you love? What about me? What am I? "A wretch you call to and wave away, who only represents that you once had a failed marriage?"