Chapter 826

When song Yuanqing was a small official, Lu Fangqi was already very famous. She was a teacher in the school of humanities, University of political science and law. Because of her excellent conditions, her pursuers were really ranked from the second ring road to the Fifth Ring Road. However, she chose to marry song Yuanqing at the best time.

Since she was pregnant with Song Xi, she had a clear reaction to pregnancy and vomiting, and she couldn't work at all. At that time, the University of political science and law only had three months' pregnancy leave at most, so Lu Fangqi had to resign and become a full-time wife at home.

Song Yuanqing runs to both ends of the government's house every day. Sometimes when she passes by her house, she has to go back to see her. So Lu Fangqi feels sad and thinks it's worth it. Before Song Xi was born, she said, "if a boy is called Le, a girl is called Xi. It's good to be safe and happy. She'll be happy all her life."

Before Song Xi was five years old, the whole family atmosphere was very harmonious and warm. At that time, song Yuanqing's official position was not high. Besides his normal work, he could spend the rest of his day with his wife and children. Therefore, Song Xi still had pictures of playing with song Yuanqing and Lu Fangqi in his childhood.

Song Yuanqing is very enterprising and ambitious. In his life, he is doomed to be unwilling to just make a little fuss. Therefore, with the start of his career, Lu Fangqi is happy for him. At the same time, she gradually feels that he has less and less time to get along with song Yuanqing. Sometimes he is so busy that he has no time to make a phone call. She misses him, Maybe only from the TV news.

She can't complain like an ordinary woman, because she knows that her husband is not an ordinary person, he has his career and revenge, so for a long time, Lu Fangqi has been trying to suppress herself, trying to adjust her mood, so that she can adapt to today's life.

But this practice not only did not make her better, but also made her more confused. Why do you want to get married? Is marriage just for the envy of the official wife in the eyes of outsiders? Song Yuanqing's official position has been promoted all these years, but her happiness is getting worse every day.

She began to get used to his coming out early and coming back late. She got used to his busy work as soon as he got home. Sometimes she didn't even care to eat. She got used to two people lying in the same bed without saying anything, and she got used to all the unhappiness. Yes, she got used to it, but it's true.

Lu Fangqi began to feel fear, fear is nothing else, but she gradually can't feel the love between Song Yuanqing and her. She got married because of love at the beginning, and the rest of her life is long. She can't imagine repeating such a life year after year. She will go crazy.

She tried to talk with song Yuanqing to see if he could spare some time for the family. She didn't need to be a senior official's wife. She hoped that she would be as happy as before.

But it turns out that even though song Yuanqing promised, he could not be satisfied at all. Lu Fangqi had lived such a depressed life for seven years.

For seven years, she had fantasized that she would be better soon, but without it, song Yuanqing's officials could only do more and more, and he could only give her less and less time. She wanted to divorce more than once, but Song Xi was very happy. She only needed to see her father occasionally and know that he loved her.

Maybe this is the difference between love and other feelings. Lu Fangqi knows that song Yuanqing has not cheated, nor does she not love this family, but she can't feel that he loves her. As before, she has to squeeze out time to see her.

Lu Fangqi has been suffering from depression for more than two years, and has been secretly adjusting. For a while, she felt very uncomfortable. She went to the hospital for examination. It turned out that there was a tumor growing in her head, and the location was not very good. The operation was risky. She was very calm after hearing this. It can be said that there was no fluctuation and she did not cry.

When she got home that day, everything was as usual. She called song Yuanqing and asked him if he would come back tonight for dinner. Song Yuanqing had an appointment, so she ate with Song Xi. During the dinner, she suddenly asked, "Xiao Xi, do you love your father more or your mother more?"

Song Xi eat rice, casually back: "want to hear the truth or lie?"

"The truth," Lu said

Song Xi said, "love my father more."

"Why?"

"My father is so busy that he doesn't forget to bring me gifts when he is on a business trip. Shouldn't the key man hold up the whole family? My father is the pillar of our family. In my heart, he is the same level as Superman. "

The first person that Song Xi worships is song Yuanqing, which is also related to Lu Fangqi's early education. She thinks that all emotions should have a sense of ceremony, and that both his wife and children should worship song Yuanqing.

She teaches very well. In Song Xi's mind, song Yuanqing is perfect, because he is so busy that it is precious for Song Xi to squeeze out a little time to accompany him. On the contrary, Lu Fangqi is here every day, and Song Xi is used to it.

In Song Xi's mind when he was young, song Yuanqing worked hard to support the whole family so that she and her mother could live a carefree life. Who is he?

There are many straws to crush Niu. Lu Fangqi's decision to divorce song Yuanqing is not impulsive. She can't explain what love is to Song Xi at that age. What's more, everyone's definition of love is different. Lu Fangqi just wants to wait for Song Xi to grow up and say to her face-to-face: "mom wants to be a good example for you. Life is her own, Only you know whether you are happy or not. Never be hard on yourself. "

But Lu Fangqi did not expect that she wanted to be a good example, but the end was to let Song Xi down.

It took two or three months for her and song Yuanqing to get divorced and go through the formalities. During this period, song Yuanqing recovered, but Lu Fangqi has made up her mind. Song Xi is the last person in the family to know the result. She has no right to speak, and it is a foregone conclusion to know.

At the age of 11 or 12 years old, she was ignorant and seemed to know nothing. Song Xi somehow defined Lu Fangqi as a person who abandoned her husband and daughter. Maybe Lu Fangqi didn't tell the reason, or maybe song Yuanqing didn't sleep in the middle of the night and smoked silently. She had seen song Yuanqing shed tears, so she asked with red eyes: "why did mom leave?"

Song Yuanqing said, "your mother is not happy here."

Maybe it's this sentence that made song xijue in his youth. Lu Fangqi is too irresponsible. What's unhappy? Where is not happy? She left when she was not happy. Will the rest be happy?

Song Yuanqing seldom mentions Lu Fangqi to Song Xi because she thinks she's still young and can't understand what she says. Later, she doesn't know how long, maybe half a year later, she accidentally learns that Lu Fangqi has a new boyfriend next to her. At this moment, she completely blows up, and all the causes and consequences are understood. She pins Lu Fangqi on the moral frame of unfaithfulness, and she resists with indifference, Every time she sees Lu Fangqi's sad eyes, she will feel happy, but the happiness is temporary, but the pain is lifelong.

Since then, Song Xi has isolated the word "mother" from her life. She says that she doesn't want her mother. She says that song Yuanqing and song Yuanqing are the only ones who depend on each other these years. When she knows that song Yuanqing has found Dong Lijun, for a moment, she feels that the whole world is lonely and she is the only one.