Chapter 456 - As Miserable As Me

When Noah saw the black cloth on Emily's arm, he didn't say anything. He walked over and patted Emily's shoulder. Then, he nodded at Vincent. He looked up at Ferne and said, "How is it?"

"It hurts so much." Ferne frowned and began to complain, "What's wrong with the doctors? They are reluctant to give me more painkillers. They don't allow me to drink too much water or eat too much food, let alone meat."

"It seems that they are going to starve you to death as the bullet didn't kill you."

Ferne laughed and scolded, "Screw you. I was definitely blessed as I survived a catastrophe."

Emily glanced at Noah, then greeted Ferne before leaving. A moment later, Noah also came out.

Only Lili was left in the ward. Ferne didn't speak. He cast his glance at the TV play. The volume was very low, and Ferne just watched the lines.

"What do you mean?" Lili stood in front of the bed, her eyes a little red. "You have something to say to everyone except me?"

Ferne was surprised for a moment and couldn't help but ask, "Is it that obvious?"

Lili almost went crazy. "You did it on purpose, didn't you? If you can't stand me, just tell me straight. What's the point of satirizing like this?"

"I didn't satirize," Ferne explained. "Am I not straightforward enough? I'm sick of you. It is written all over my face."

Lili almost used the stool to smash this bastard to death. Thinking that he was injured, she managed to hold back.

"Why are you married to me if you don't like me? Don't tell me that your parents told you to get married! Do you live for your mom? Do you listen to your parents every time? Are you a real man?!" Lili cried and shed tears, "I married you, yet you let me live like a widow. You don't touch me, and you won't go find prostitutes. Are you ... are you ... having a problem so you wasted so much of my time?"

Ferne said was speechless.

Although this was a misunderstanding, he suddenly didn't want to explain.

"Yes, that's right. I have a problem. It's not a big problem. I can't have sex with you even if I want to. I don't know how to explain. Anyway, that's it. If you want a divorce, I'll compensate you for your mental suffering."

Lili glared at him, "Divorce? I didn't marry you for the sake of a divorce! Don't lie to me, you just don't like me. I'm not that annoying! Why do you hate me so much even if we haven't met for so long?"

Ferne had never thought of getting divorced when he got married, but now he had this thought because...

"Go back. It's cold here at night and you can't get used to it," he added after a pause. "Stop crying. Crying at night will make you ugly."

When Lili heard this, she immediately stopped weeping and fanned herself, intending to force the tears back.

She opened the bag she had brought and put the dozen or so skin-care products on the table. She also put in the silk pajamas on the bed. When she zipped the bag, she had calmed down.

"I'll change, okay?"

Ferne was watching TV when he heard that. He was on the verge of a breakdown.

"I'll change what you don't like about me. I've learned to..."

Just as Lili was about to speak, Ferne raised his hand and interrupted her, "Stop learning. No matter what, I won't like you."

"Why?"

"Because..." Ferne looked at her. "I already have someone I like."

Lili stared at him in disbelief, "What did you say?"

Ferne's fingers moved, "Just like you heard, I have someone I like."

"Then what about me?" Lili's tears flowed out again. "Aren't you afraid that my father will kill you? You cheated on me, you scum! I didn't cheat on you even if you have ignored me for years, but..."

"No. I just have an unrequited love." Ferne raised his hand. "That woman rejected me. I'm just like you. Do you understand what unrequited love means? I didn't have sex with her."

Lili's tears stopped. She hesitantly looked at the blanket and his leg. She asked, "You ... can't have sex?"

...

Ferne didn't know why she thought this again. He didn't want to explain anymore, so he nodded and said, "Yep, so we have to have a Platonic love."

Lili seemed to have accepted this explanation and paused for a moment before saying, "Then you're as miserable as me."

Ferne was choked up.

Lili packed her bag and sat on the bed for a while. "Ferne, am I ugly?" She asked.

Ferne knew how much Lili cared about her face. Although she didn't look good, he really couldn't bear to hurt this woman. After all, an ordinary person couldn't endure the unbearable pain of being cut on the face.

"Not bad. You are more beautiful than before." This was the truth. Lili's previous face was so weird after the cosmetic surgery. Ferne felt that the face which had been recovered was quite good-looking as time went by.

Lili smiled and said, "That's what your friend said to me."

"Oh, my friend?" Ferne didn't know who she was talking about.

Lili pointed at the door of the ward. "The one who just came. The one who saw you as his son."

Ferne was lost for words.

"What did he tell you?" Ferne almost forgot that Noah and Lili had stayed in the suite for quite some time. At that time, Lili suspected that they had a relationship. After all, Noah got off his car naked and was caught by Lili.

It happened not long ago, but when Ferne recalled it, he actually felt a little nostalgic.

"He said it was best to be myself and he asked me to do that," Lili lowered her head. "But he was wrong in the latter half. He said that you would like the real me, but no. I've become who I am but you still don't like me."

Ferne didn't know that man had said such words to Lili. It didn't sound like that guy's style at all.

"He told me that he recommended you to a hospital for plastic surgery." Ferne stammered, "I didn't expect this."

"Yeah, he recommended one to let me recover my original face." Lili touched her nose. "He said that my facial features are pretty good. Perhaps he was lying to me."

Ferne couldn't imagine that Noah would tell such a lie.

But he looked at Lili carefully and found out that her facial features weren't ugly. In recent months, she probably had a 30 percent recovery. Her skin was well maintained. She rarely went out in summer because she was afraid of the sunrays. She did not travel far as she felt that other places would pollute her skin. She did not eat junk food and said that she was maintaining her shape. In fact, she just took care of herself and did not do anything wrong. The only one who was wrong was him.

He did not love her, but he locked her in the Dalton's. She just wanted him to repay her with the love she had for him, but he could not do so.

"You are indeed quite good-looking," Ferne said.

Lili suddenly cried again. "You really don't like me anymore. Otherwise, how could you make such a lie?"

Ferne didn't know what to say.