Chapter 20 Have You Ever Despaired

"What are you thinking about out here alone?" a cold voice said from behind while Mandy was indulging in her moment spent alone in contemplation.

She was at a corner with her hands on the rails staring blankly at the night sky. Mandy slowly turned around and curled her arms in front of her.

'Nathan Jin?!' she thought in surprise upon seeing him standing behind her. 'Why did he follow me?' she asked in her head while releasing a deep sigh.

"I needed some fresh air," Mandy said without looking at him. She slightly twisted her head, staring at the view of the city. She wasn't aware that Nathan was observing her every move.

Nathan pulled his face and said, "Good excuse!" His dark eyes were stern, and she could sense danger from his looks.

"Mr. Jin, I'm leaving," Mandy said shakily.

Nathan noticed her strange reaction. 'She's making excuses, ' he thought. There was pressure, and he didn't know where it was coming from. He closed the distance between them with quick strides.

Mandy froze where she stood until Nathan reached her, and their faces were only an inch away from each other.

"You want to leave?" he asked skittishly. There was eagerness in his eyes. His manly deep voice reverberated in the cold dark night. Nathan moved a bit, and before she knew it, Mandy was firmly imprisoned in his arms, and his warm breath fell onto her face. Mandy felt burned by their closeness.

"What the hell do you want?" Mandy asked in surprise. She struggled to get away from him.

Mandy wondered, 'I have done nothing to wrong him. Why is he doing this to me?'

"What do you want?" Nathan asked in an exasperated voice. "Tell me, and I can help you," he said as a soft command. Nathan hugged her even tighter.

Mandy could even smell his enticingly aromatic and masculine scent. She became more aware and nervous. She clenched her fists and moved with slight resistance. Mandy may be young but not naive. She clearly assumed and read between the lines of what Nathan said. The Zhou F

amily was in financial trouble and desperately needed his help. Nathan indirectly expressed an indecent proposal to her to be his woman.

"Mr. Jin, you must have misunderstood. I don't want anything." She swallowed after saying those words.

Nathan released her and put his arms around her waist. Mandy felt embarrassed by the huge seduction act.

"Mandy, have you ever despaired?" Nathan asked, ignoring her confusion. He pulled her and suddenly pushed her with both hands. Her back hung up on the guardrail. Her eyes widened like saucers when she realized that she could easily fall from the rooftop with half of her body almost hanging over. Nathan pinched her neck fiercely as if he wanted to push her into hell. Her fear magnified.

With her head down, Mandy could see the stream of cars underneath. She felt her heart jump abnormally with fear. For a moment, she thought it would be much better if she died. That way, she would not have to suffer as much. She blinked and closed her eyes. Facing oblivion, she thought, 'I'm tired, really exhausted.'

Suddenly, she felt a warmth enveloping her waist. It took some time for Mandy to come back to her senses. She realized that she was so vulnerable. She had even thought about dying.

'No, I can't die. If I die, who will take good care of my parents?'

When Mandy finally stood on her feet, Nathan sneered, "We won't be relieved until we die. And we have to endure the hardship of living."

Mandy raised her head and looked at Nathan. He always kept a feigned smile on his face, which was dangerously unpredictable. He had been like this since the moment she saw him hours ago. She felt that she had fallen into hell. The smart words that came out of Nathan's mouth made Mandy feel that he was sneering at her.

'Ha-ha-ha! Why would a young master like him, who lived a comfortable and well-off life, ever feel tired of living? Does he always make fun of other people? He does find happiness in the pain or suffering of others, doesn't he?'