Chapter 1014

As a prince, I don't know whether I am lucky or unfortunate. I have the father's unique love and trust, but all this because of my poor health, there is no possibility of inheriting the throne.

My father can trust me without any scruples and give me all kinds of favors, because no matter how much he trusts me and dotes on me, no minister will fall on me.

My body determines that I will never be able to ascend the throne. I think so myself. At least since I was sensible, I have never thought of becoming an emperor.

In the Xiao family, anyone can sit on the throne, but I can't. of course, my body makes people have no time to think about this.

A man who is always fighting for his life with the king of hell, what qualifications do he have to pursue something else?

Every time I get sick, I think I will die, but I go to survive again and again, fighting for the last breath to survive.

I do not give up, do not give up the world, I want to see what the world will become tomorrow?

If I die, I will never see again, so I try to live, even if I am sick, I will smile to the world.

Every time I get sick, I look at my mother sitting at the head of my bed with red eyes and haggard face. My heart aches and sometimes I can't help thinking, if I die, can my mother be free?

If I die like this, can my mother and concubine have another healthy child? Instead of being stuck with me all the time?

However, whenever the idea arose, my mother would cry with me and say, "you're going to die, and my mother is not going to live. You're the only child in her life, and she'll never have a second one."

If I don't feel moved, it's a lie. In the palace, where people eat people, and where interests are the most important, family affection is a luxury. Fortunately, I not only got the love of my mother and imperial concubine, but also got the trust and love of my father and imperial concubine.

I really think I am happy, I lost my healthy body, but I have the true feelings that the prince in the palace can't find in his whole life.

I thought I would live like this all my life until I died in bed, but her appearance changed my fate.

I know who she is, Lin Xiang's daughter, the prince's fiancee, but she married my uncle Huang and became my Aunt Huang.

My mother's wife once told me that she was a poor woman. Originally, the queen revealed that she wanted to point her out to me, but she was rejected by my mother's wife, and my father did not agree. They all thought that she was not worthy of me.

Not many people know about it. After all, the queen just has this intention. It doesn't work out and I don't care. I don't think she is not worthy of me, but a person like me who will die at any time should not marry or ruin a woman's life.

When I first met Aunt Huang, I didn't have a good impression of her. I thought she was a frivolous woman. It was normal for the prince not to like her. He even felt aggrieved for uncle Huang. But what happened later made me understand how wrong I was when I looked at people with prejudice.

She is very good, really good. There is no better woman in the world than her. Even if she destroys my life and makes me see the cruel truth, I still appreciate her for letting me grow up and let me understand how stupid my life was.

My little Aunt Huang is not a frivolous person. She took the initiative to talk with me that time. She just wanted to take the opportunity to diagnose me and make sure whether she could cure my illness in private, so as not to say it in advance and make me happy.

My little Aunt Huang is not stupid either. She knows the seventh Prince's plan, the prince's stupidity, even the Queen's badness, and my mother's wife is not a good person. But she still chooses to treat me. Even if she knows that it is not good for uncle Huang's great cause to cure me, she still chooses to help me, and even persuades my uncle Huang.

At that moment, I was really moved. At that moment, I also regretted it. More than once, I was thinking, if the queen had been more tough, or my mother would have backed down, or I would have fought for it myself, would she have married me?

As soon as this idea appeared, it seemed to take root in my heart. From time to time, I would think of it, and from time to time I would come up with the idea of regret. I regret that I didn't fight for it at that time, and I regret that I looked at her with prejudice, but

It's too late!

It's hard to buy a thousand gold. Early knowing is the most painful thing in the world. What's more, even if early knowing?

I have thought more than once, what if I go back to the past, before she and uncle Huang were married?

If I marry her, can I give her happiness?

No!

After I got well, I realized how stupid I had been before. I thought I could see through everything, and I was the most understanding person in the palace. As a spectator, I watched the people in the palace fight for me, but reality fanned me.

I've never seen through anyone. I always thought that what I have is ridiculous, self righteous and ridiculous. I'm not the one who lives the most clearly in the palace, but the one who lives the most muddled.

My mother's wife loves me, but she doesn't love me as much as she shows. She loves me more, but she loves power more. She will treat me so well because she can't have a second child except me. She will put all her love on me because I am liked by her father.

Even if I can't succeed to the throne, as long as I live one more day, I can help her win more favor from the emperor. Even if I am enfeoffed in the future, my power will not be weak.

My mother and concubine, she loves me, but she loves herself and power more. Similarly, my father and Emperor doted on me and trusted me because I was disabled. As soon as I was healthy, my previous love and trust disappeared one by one. In his eyes, I was just an ordinary prince, and there was nothing special about me.

For a long time, I feel like a joke!

My body has recovered, and my life has returned to normal. My life is no different from that of an ordinary prince. My mother and concubine are happy for me. What's more happy is that I am in good health and can begin to fight for the throne.

I was forced by my mother's concubine to contact my grandfather's family and negotiate with the minister to determine my future wife. My future wife doesn't need to be virtuous, beautiful or like me, as long as her family can help me.

Watching my mother talk about the advantages and disadvantages of each girl's family one by one, and what each girl's family can do for me, I almost couldn't help asking her: can't I marry a woman whose family doesn't help me? If I like a woman whose family doesn't help me, can't I marry her?

Married, is it for a helping hand? What about Lin Chujiu and uncle Huang?

Lin Chujiu, a daughter who was abandoned by Lin Xiang, has any help for uncle Huang?

No, but after uncle Huang married Lin Chujiu, he still treated Lin Chujiu as a pearl.

After Lin Chujiu married uncle Huang, although he didn't have the help of his family, he helped uncle Huang with what he had learned and accompanied him all the way, even to the highest position? Isn't such a woman worth marrying?

I don't know what the answer is, because I never ask. I'm afraid that once I ask, I can't restrain my ambition.

I even thought more than once, if I married Lin Chujiu, would the man who ascended to the highest position be me?

Unfortunately, there is no if in this world

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