Chapter 54 - My Dear Hana (6)

He puts the orchids in the vase. He sits next to her bed. She is breathing on the machine. She is strong. His dear Hana wouldn't die. She wouldn't leave him alone in this world.

She is in pain. A lot of pain. He is not happy. It hurts him to see her like this. He whispers to her ear to come back. She must not give into death. She must win and come back for him. He is alone. She is his life. If she has to die, it must be him. Her soul must go to him instead of death.

He reads his favorite book to her. The protagonist of the book is struggling to accept his darkness.

He knows that she is listening. The protagonist is like her. She has been alluded by the light of the world and forgot about her radiance. The protagonist is tempted to become ordinary in every second of her life. In the end, the protagonist gives into her darkness and becomes whole. Her shimmering light reaches all the corners of the darkness. She is baptized by the blood. Finally, she accepts her fate.

Every day, he tells her to become strong and fight death. She must not let it win. She must not be tempted to fall to the grasps of death. Pick up the shadows and make a bridge back to him.

She wins. She wakes up. For months, he watches her struggling in her daily life. Steeling her heart, she goes back to university and takes the Bar exam. She gets enough score to become a prosecutor, but she decides to be a lawyer. That's his first victory over her. She is unbecoming.

That day, she drinks to numb her sorrows. He knows that she is upset. The love for her parents hasn't been washed away. Removing people from her life is easy. However, people can still occupy hearts after their deaths. Little by little, he must purify her heart and write his name on it. Her heart, mind, soul, and body are his only.

When she goes to the hotel with Jung Kwang-soo, he knows that she has mistaken that boy for him. How can he let other men take her first night? He won't. He takes the pieces of her purity and naivety. She cries and mourns in front of him. Only him. He comforts her. He loves her wholeheartedly. He sees a shadow of her true self returning. When he leaves, he leaves a new Hana for the world.

He keeps a close watch on her. He celebrates her birthdays and victories with blood. He returns pain to the people who give her pain or trouble. He visits her time to time. It's easy to guess the code of her door. It's last four digits of her father's case files number. To keep a watch on her, he installs cameras in her apartment.

One day, he sees her touching herself in the screens at his house. She must be thinking about him. She has not gone to any other man. He decides to go to her. How can he resist when she wants him so much? But, he can't reveal himself to her yet. Ahn Hana is not his Hana yet.

He mixes the sedatives in her leftover food before she comes back. When she falls to her dreams, he goes to her. She is beautiful when she is sleeping. He takes her clothes and drinks her beauty with his eyes. He must make her body familiar to his.

When he makes love to her, he whispers to her. He is sure that she is subconsciously listening to her. He pleads her to give in. Be his dear Hana. He is alone and suffering without her in this ordinary world. Come to him. How long must he wait? He has so much love for her. When will his Hana dear realize that she also loves him back?

She would never respond. He would love to hear her voice. It will take time. He will wait for the right time. For now, he must reach his dear Hana buried beneath the layers inside her.