Chapter 678

It's not like, it's love.

It's love

Shen Yuechuan didn't know how he left the bar. On the way back, he had a splitting headache.

If the tortuous life experience is a joke made by God, what about Xiao yunyun's feelings for him?

A bigger joke?

He can't understand that he has not been allowed to live a normal life. Why can't Xiao yunyun love her well and spend her life well?

It's enough to play tricks on him. Why should Xiao yunyun fall in love with him?

In retrospect, Shen Yuechuan suddenly found that as long as it was what he wanted, he would not only never have it, but also affect people around him.

As a child, he wanted a complete home. However, as soon as he was born, his father died. Su Yunjin suffered from severe depression, and soon became an orphan.

Now, he wants to have a love affair with Xiao yunyun like a normal person. However, kinship is like a steel wall between them, which makes them suffer.

He asked himself if he had done anything wrong in his last life?

Back to the apartment downstairs, the driver saw Shen Yuechuan still holding his head and looked at him worried: "Shen special help, are you ok?"

Shen Yuechuan didn't speak. He just waved to the driver to get off.

The driver was very uneasy, hesitated for a moment and asked, "do you want to contact President Lu?"

He is very clear about the relationship between Shen Yuechuan and Lu Boyan.

In his opinion, if anything happens to Shen Yuechuan, it is the right choice to contact Lu Boyan.

"No need." Shen Yuechuan raised his head sharply and said solemnly, "I'm ok, but I haven't had a good rest these days. My head hurts a bit. Let's get off work. What happened today Don't tell President Lu. "

The driver didn't think Shen Yuechuan was uncomfortable at all. He thought Shen Yuechuan just wanted to hide the fact that he had seen Qin Han. He nodded and got off the bus.

Shen Yuechuan stayed in the car until his headache eased. He pushed the door open and went back to the apartment.

In the apartment, as before, all the household appliances and furniture are placed neatly, spotless and orderly, which seems to have no taste of home instead, more like a cold and rigid temporary apartment.

Shen Yuechuan suddenly remembered Xiao yunyun's apartment which was much smaller than his apartment.

He has been several times, each time is different from the last time, or there are a few more scented candles, or a few more flowers, or the sofa has changed into a new cloth cover.

Every time, it looks more warm than last time, and it is easier for people to have a sense of belonging.

He asked Xiao yunyun, "are you going to transform here?"

"When my cousin asked me to live in the apartment, the hardware was in place. I was only responsible for the soft decoration." Xiao yunyun said with a smile, "where do you live? How do you like to toss about?"

At that time, Shen Yuechuan secretly thought, if one day he smoothly turned Xiao yunyun to his home, how would she toss the apartment?

In fact, Xiao yunyun can do whatever she wants. Even if she is going to dig a swimming pool in her apartment to have a swimming pool party, he will contact the construction team for her at once, without any comments.

As long as Xiao yunyun stays here to accompany him - to accompany him to sleep, to accompany him to wake up, and to repeat for a lifetime, he will not be bored.

Such a tiny wish can't be realized.

Now, maybe

As long as he went to Xiao yunyun and told her that she was not the only one who suffered.

He and Xiao yunyun can be together at once.

But he can't be so selfish.

Not to mention that they are brothers and sisters, they are not allowed to be together in the normal law.

Just considering his current physical condition, he could not persuade himself to express his love to Xiao yunyun.

Twenty years ago, after his father died, Su Yunjin was suffering from depression and lived to this day relying on drugs. Would he let Xiao yunyun taste the pain again?

Even if his illness can be cured, Xiao yunyun does not have to bear the pain of losing his lover, and the fact that they are brothers and sisters cannot be changed.

Imagine how much gossip and finger pointing they have to face together.

He can give Xiao yunyun all the love, but he can't guarantee her happiness.

What's more, Xiao yunyun works in the hospital. He can't imagine how much trouble gossip will bring to her future career.

The worst result is that he is like Jiang ye and leaves xiaoyunyun alone to face everything.

In this way, he would not forgive himself even if he went to hell.

In any case, he should not use Xiao yunyun's feelings selfishly to coax her to be with him, which is not happiness for Xiao yunyun, but the greatest misfortune of his life.

He should let Xiao yunyun completely forget him.

After making this decision, Shen Yuechuan felt that all the pain on his head had been transferred to his heart, and stabbed him for a while.

He went to the balcony, looked at the lights in the sight range, and lit a cigarette.At this time, there was nothing to distract him except tobacco and wine.

Xiao yunyun, who is in the same area with Shen Yuechuan, doesn't realize that her biggest secret has been revealed. She reviews her book until 12 o'clock. The sleeping pills she took half an hour ago have played a role. Her whole body is surrounded by an impenetrable feeling of sleepiness and falls asleep soon after falling into bed.

At seven o'clock the next day, Xiao yunyun woke up on time. After washing up, he ate some breakfast casually, got on the crowded subway and went to the hospital.

he can take a taxi, but occasionally in the same way as the sardine can, the morning peak subway can make her awake to realize that there are many things more important than love.

Like survival.

So many people live well without love. She can't waste herself because she can't be with Shen Yuechuan.

This kind of encouragement is effective. Xiao yunyun's life is restored day by day.

She thought that she had finally slowed down. When she was about to give up sleeping pills, she suddenly received a message that was enough to break her soul -

this morning, as usual, she came out of the elevator with her bag, feeling that there were many problems in life.

For example, what to eat at noon, squeeze the subway or take a taxi to work?

"Beauty!"

A familiar voice came without warning. Xiao yunyun's subconscious reputation was Qin Han.

"Why are you here?" she said

At this point, young master Qin should be on his way to the company. How could he appear here?

Qin Han leans on a 7-digit sports car and laughs gracefully: "I'll pick you up for work."

Xiao yunyun goes over and wants to tease Qin and Han. He hears Qin and Han continue, "by the way, tell you a message."

“…… What's the news? Xiao yunyun suddenly felt that the news was the key point, repressing the pounding and accelerating heart rate, "say it."

"You have to be mentally prepared." "This is not good news," Qin said

“……”

Qin Han hesitated again and again, and finally said, "Shen Yuechuan has a girlfriend."

He knew that the news would bring a big blow to Xiao yunyun.

But it's a fact. Sooner or later, Xiao yunyun will have to face it. It's better to know sooner than later.

Xiao yunyun can understand every word Qin and Han said. When those words are put together into a smooth sentence, it's like someone bumps her soul hard and her heart sinks

Not disappointed, not lost, just I feel like my heart will never beat again.

At this moment, Xiao Yunming is standing in the center of the city, but he feels that he has been thrown into the wasteland of the north where there is no grass. The cold wind and cold rain roar and surround her heavily. The monster opens his mouth to devour her

As if after a century so long, Xiao yunyun finally found his voice, and asked with difficulty, "when is it?"

"Just these days." Qin Han said, "I confirmed it yesterday. It's true."

Xiao yunyun "Oh" voice, trying to make himself appear indifferent, red eyes but betrayed her mood.

"I'll tell you in advance, lest you meet by chance and you don't react." After dinner, Qin Han asked, "how about going to work? Do you need me to ask for leave?"

“…… No. " Xiao yunyun closed his eyes and forced his tears back. "If I don't go to work, I will think more."

Qin and Han agreed with Xiao yunyun very much.

No matter how emotional failure, professionally, Xiao yunyun is a good doctor who does her duty. Going to work can divert her attention.

Qin Han opened the door: "then get in the car, I'll take you there."

"Thank you."

Xiao yunyun sat on the passenger seat, mechanically fastened his seat belt, and felt the pain of pinpricking at the bottom of his heart.

Afraid that she would cry, she had to close her eyes.

She warned herself, don't think, don't think.

But reason can't control thoughts at all.

What kind of girl is Shen Yuechuan's new girlfriend?

He said that he wanted to settle down. Would this girl really be Shen Yuechuan's last girlfriend and then become Shen Yuechuan's wife?

Expensive and eye-catching sports car in the early peak of the flow of hard ahead, while waiting for the red light gap, Shen Yuechuan looked at Xiao yunyun, said: "don't think nonsense."

Xiao yunyun shook his head: "if Shen Yuechuan wants to get married, I can't accept it."

Qin Han hesitated for a moment and asked tentatively, "if he really loves that girl, does that girl really like him?"

He thought that Xiao yunyun would say that she was relieved. At least Shen Yuechuan was married because of love. At least she would be a good girl to take care of him in the future.

He thought that Xiao yunyun would at least keep such a sense.

However, Xiao yunyun's response was totally unexpected——"I know I should bless him." "But I don't think I can do it."

Qin Han: "..." Wipe!

Xiao yunyun really can't do it, because she really likes Shen Yuechuan.

She wants to be with Shen Yuechuan, to hug him, to kiss him, to do all the intimate things with him, to stay with him for life.

But now, the person who wants to do these things with Shen Yuechuan has become another girl.

How can she sincerely send her blessing?

Qin Han could not help sighing: "you are really sincere. However, what can we do without blessing? On the day of Shen Yuechuan's wedding, you can still get married? "