Chapter 46：I Hate You, I Love You

Looking at the caller name, Hai Rin frown a little. She want to return the call but suddenly a new message pop up from her screen. She slide open it.

'Mr. Chu said that you going out with Richard. Are you okay?'

She replied his message with 'I'm okay.' She put down her phone and take her dress that has been thrown to the floor by Richard before.

She look at the dress in her hand, her heart felt a bit regret and angry to herself for making it hard for him. She turned him down twice when he want to do it with her.

'It can't be help Richard. You have no feeling for me.' She sigh and tidy up her messy hair. After half an hour, they drive out from the house and head to the mansion back.

All along the way to the mansion, Richard did not say a word. Both of them drown in their own feeling.

Yu mansion.

Xu Nian open her eyes slowly. Her throat feel a bit dry and her body also a bit weak. She turn her head to her side.

She look at the man who was lay down beside her. His face makes her heart flutter. She smile and caress his cheek.

"Lin.. Dear, I'm thirsty." She said slowly waking him up.

Yu Lin who was in a deep sleep suddenly heard the voice he missed so much calling his name. He open his eyes looking at the woman who call him.

"Mm. Wait a minute." He kissed her cheek and walk to the bedside.

After Xu Nian refreshed up, Yu Lin sit facing his lover with a complex expression on his face. Sensing something was wrong Xu Nian ask him gently.

"Tell me. I'm ready to her it."

"We cover your trace and existence. You will need a new identity and face to keep you safe from the Rong. I will do anything to make sure your safety is secure. I just need you to cooperate with me."

The explanation that Yu Lin tell her is not shocking enough for her. She calmly look at Yu Lin face.

"How about my identity as a stunt girl? I like this job and my name too."

"I will handle that matter. After all, your identity as stunt girl is not known by many people in the industries. About your face, we will ask a few plastic surgeon to make your face a bit different from now. Your style too need to be change."

"They wouldn't dare to do something like that. After all, doesn't matter whether your face turn out to be ugly or beauty, I love you for who you are. Not because of your face."

"Hm. Then I guess I had no choice. I let you decide which is good for me." She smile brightly. Xu Nian don't mind about her changing her identity and her face.

She knew Yu Lin treasure her so well. As long she can protect him, she will feel so happy.

"Nian..next time, I'm begging you..don't risk your life for me. I really can't bear to see you get hurt. Please..." he place his hand on hers. There is a bit regret on his voice.

She take a deep breath before she nodded.

At Lee mansion.

Hai Rin and Richard keep silent when they both walk into the bedroom. Both of them didn't show up at the dining room.

Richard give an excuse that he being busy about his new business he set up in England, while Hai Rin give an excuse that she was tired from going out earlier with Richard.

When Richard go to the study room, she lay on the bath tub with a full of water inside. She pour a glass of wine and put on the side of the bath tub. She turn on the stereo and close her eyes.

The lyric of the song that play on the stereo made her feel even sadder. Her heart was in a confusion state. She didn't want this feeling to keep growing inside her heart. But it seems like It also won't go away.

Feeling used

But I'm still missing you

And I can't see the end of this

Just want to feel your kiss against my lips

And now all this time is passing by

But I still can't seem to tell you why

It hurt me every time I see you

Realize how much I need you

I hate you, I love you

I hate that I love you

Don't want to but I can't put anybody else above you

I hate you, I love you

You want her, you need her

And I'll never be her

A warm tear fell from her eyes. She wipes it slowly with the back of her hand. She curled up her body in the bath tub. This song really tune with her state right now. Her heart feel a bit ached.

I don't mean no harm

I just miss you on my arm

Wedding bells were just alarms

Caution tape around my heart

You never wonder what we could have been?

You said you wouldn't and you fucking did

Lie to me, lie with me, get your fucking fix

Now all my drink and all my feeling are full fucking mixed

Always missing people that I shouldn't be missing

Sometimes you gotta burn some bridges and I should stop reminiscing

But I learned from my dad that it's good to have feelings

When love and trust are gone

I guess this is moving on

Everyone I do right does me wrong

So every lonely night I sing this song

Richard who was standing in front of the door silently walk back to his study. He squeeze his chest with his right hand. His face show a full of mixed feeling inside his heart.