Chapter 238

238 I WANT A CHILD

July would turn thirty six tomorrow and she had been very adamant about not celebrating her birthday. She made the same very clear four years ago.

Celebrating her first birthday when Knox finally returned to her side had been lovely. She loved it when his eyes were on her and treated her the way she would never forget. It didn’t mean that he didn’t do that on a daily basis, but he made her feel extra special on her birthday.

However, the joy didn’t last long, as the realization hit July very hard when she realized that she was aging. She was one more year old and this bothered her.

Since then, she didn’t like it when someone mentioned her birthday. She didn’t want to celebrate it at all or even remember such a thing.

Yet, it was only her wish if she could erase the day she was born from her head, the more she tried to forget it, the more she remembered how old she was.

And she would be thirty six years old tomorrow. She was not happy about this, as she sat in front of her boudoir, staring at her reflection for hours. She had been hiding in this place ever since she realized what today’s date meant.

She tried to look for any wrinkles on her face or how her skin had changed. Maybe it was only her being paranoid, but she couldn’t get rid of the thought of how she was no longer young anymore.

People always said that she looked way much younger than her age, but it only placated her for a few moments, because later on she would doubt what they said. It could be that they only wanted to take her good side and just sugar coated whatever they said to please her.

This issue had been weighing her down.

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“I have been looking for you.” Knox came from behind her and kissed her shoulder and her cheek, as he sat down beside her. “Why are you here, beautiful? We have a meeting to attend.”

July smiled softly at him and rested her head on his shoulder. She said nothing and this only made Knox furrow his brows. He could sense her uneasiness. Her reflection in the mirror told him that she was restless right now.

“What is it?” Knox asked her. He raised his hand to caress her soft black hair. She just cut her long hair to shoulder length. She looked refreshing and younger. Everyone would always say that and Knox agreed with them. “Is there something bothering you?”

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A lot of things bothered her, but she couldn’t say them all to Knox. She didn’t want to keep complaining about the same thing again and again, since she was afraid it would upset him.

“Tell me,” Knox coaxed her to speak.

In the end, July lifted her head and stared into his blue dark eyes for a moment, then she spoke about this for the first time. “I want to have a child with you,” she said.

July had never brought up this topic before and they had never really talked about this, therefore she was not sure what kind of reaction that Knox would give her.

But seeing how a child became the topic now, July could say that the first thing that showed on Knox’s expression was sadness, but it only lasted for a few seconds before he regained his composure and his face softened.

Knox looked at July gently and caressed her cheek. “I will do everything for you, love, you know that,” he said and this made July light up, because she thought he would do it for her. He would become the father of her child, but the next words that Knox said crushed her. “But, not this one.”

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Eros would always give this kind of feeling every time he entered a room. His presence was very strong and no one could deny the domination that rolled off of him.

He was only thirteen, but the moment he walked into a room, he looked like he owned this place, as if he was the alpha of this pack.

Damon, the beta of the pack, would always look at him with sharp glaring eyes. He didn’t like Eros at all and moreover he couldn’t understand why Alpha Liam kept him around. He could be a threat for his position.

This morning, just like any other morning, Eros had come to the dining table, dished some food into two plates. So he could then bring them back to his room, where he would eat his breakfast with his sister, Emily. After all, she was not allowed to come to the dining room and sit there along with the other shifters, because she was human.

As all the shifters in this pack hated humans.

“Can you get me a healer to my room?” Eros talked to a young female omega, who was serving food for breakfast for all of them. Emily fell sick again last night and he was barely able to sleep, thus his mood was not really great this morning.

“Yes, sure,” the young girl said, but Damon didn’t like it.

“If you want to take a healer for your human companion, you should ask one yourself,” Damon said sharply and the whole dining room turned quiet.

This room was so big, it could be easily described as a hall with around hundreds of people eating there at the same time at two very long tables in the middle of it.

But, when Damon said that, the room fell into a pin drop silence, as tension could be felt in the air.

Eros looked at Damon for a moment and the look in his eyes was so scary to say the least. A few people there had to lower their heads, because the domination in his stance was too hard to bear.

However, Damon didn’t back down, until Liam patted his shoulder. “Let him do whatever he wants,” he said calmly.

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