CH 109

But what is this, the little child declared that she would continue to take classes from the teacher she was taking. I gave various reasons for the sudden change in the situation, but it didn’t work for the little child.

This is a fact that Sir Henry did not tell me. When I glared at Sir Henry, he only made a troubled look. He acted like he knew everything, but he didn’t know it was going to happen. But this time, the little child was really determined.

Feeling that there was no other way, I told the little child to just do as she pleases. Yes, it was better to see her than not to see her at all, even twice a week.

But something even more shocking happened. The little child was very smart. She is one year younger than me. I was the Grand Prince, I took more lessons than others, but she was smarter than me. It was a strange situation even if I didn’t pay attention to the class.

How can the little child love studying so much? I hate studying itself.

The little child even captured the heart of Teacher Jeremy, whom I hate, with her cleverness. She was great. She had a knack for making everyone’s heart melt with a smile. Of course, she looks that cute.

Even though I thought it was a given, I was envious of the little child.

The little child made a good impression on everyone even if she said something cheeky. Like a person who was born to be truly loved, she was loved and acknowledged by everyone. So I was both proud and anxious.

Everyone likes the little child. It seemed that my place in the little child’s mind was gradually disappearing. I was worried about how long she would like me. The little child’s indifferent behavior became more and more frightening.

And the more I met the teachers, the more I realized after reading the little child’s cold face. She was tired of me now. I felt a sense of crisis.

I’ve seen quite a few people fluttering around me. There were many people who were eager to get close to me. They looked down on me for being young and tried to take advantage of me.

But such greedy people and the little child were different. I don’t know if it’s because I’m still young, but the little child didn’t try to use me. Maybe it’s because she was naive.

But for whatever reason, the little child had no greed, so I never doubted that she liked me. I didn’t want the little child to change, so I was always on the lookout for the little child.

So I noticed. That the little child has been acting to distance herself from me lately. I felt that she was trying to sever ties with me. In this situation, it seemed that there would be no way to meet completely if I kept my distance from the little child. Knowing that, I was nervous when the little child said she would shorten the tea time.

When I realized that the little child was so good at answering the teachers’ questions, I became even more anxious. More than the shame that the little child looked at me pathetically, the anxiety that the little child and I would grow further apart was greater.

I’d rather not say that we should study together. If I endured, even if I said I wouldn’t see her often, there would have been an excuse to see the little child anyway. It seemed that if the little child turned around, I would never have a chance again. The little child didn’t say it outright, but I got that feeling. I felt that if I let go of the little child now, it would be over.

Is it because she was young? The little child was interested in her surroundings and did pretty things equally to everyone. And with that, the little child’s heart towards me felt light. Obviously, the little child liked me first, but I don’t know why I’m more desperate.

So I threw out my suppressed heart. I held onto it saying I would try. I wonder if my sincerity worked, fortunately, the little child decided to study with me, saying it was a grace period. Still, it was a situation I couldn’t let go of.

“If you say you can’t follow along, I’m going to study separately, then don’t force yourself. I’m really going to study on my own.”

I couldn’t forget the little child’s words that if she wasn’t satisfied, she’d throw me away. So, I made up my mind to study hard.

As soon as I started studying with the little child, the burden increased. The grace period, which I thought was leisure at first, became a time of burden that was approaching moment by moment. There was no set period of time. If the little child changed her mind right away, that would be the end.

Unlike other children her age, she did not like to play. Thinking of the little child’s obsessive study behavior, I had no spare time.