CH 85

Our eyes filled with complex emotions collided in mid-air. Even though what I said was not words that contain sweetness, it must have resonated with Kir. His eyes melt as if something tightly cored is unraveling.

A twinkling light began to drift in his empty and cloudy eyes, that was about to lose everything. The warmth seemed to return to his pale face. A streak of relief passed through my heart, which had been devastated by Kir’s dramatic change.

“So, let’s not overdo it. Studying hard is good, but let’s not do it too much. I will wait for you.”

I spoke calmly and slowly, like a grown up. Slowly, so he can get used to it. I don’t want him to grow up right now. In my gaze facing Kir, there was only kindness. Hoping that this little boy’s sorrow would be relieved, I persuaded Kir to be as careful as possible. Kir, who stood still and shook his eyes, moved a little.

“Yes.”

“I think Kir, who was originally cheerful, is fine. I don’t think you need to grow up quickly. You are still a child, so do it like a child. That’s fine too.”

He nodded his head slightly this time, letting out no voice. As if his small movements had become waves, they suddenly turned into large movements. Kir’s head moved up and down quickly.

I thought he was trying not to show his face, so I stopped looking at Kir. Because I knew that tears welled up in his red eyes. He’s not the kind of guy who will notice my consideration for protecting his pride, but I wanted to protect him this time because I was sorry and worried for him.

When I turned my gaze slightly, Mrs. Seryl and Knight Henry were also smiling lightly. In particular, Mrs. Seryl looked like she was going to shed tears, perhaps because of her fragile personality. The two of them spent more time together with Kir than me.

No matter how mean the child was, they watched the child grow up in real time. The pity would have been greater than the bad feelings.

As I showed a faint smile, the two of them gave a glance lightly. The gratitude contained in it was visible. Now, it’s a relief to know that Kir has people around him who can take care of him differently than before. Even if the important Grand Duke is stuck, the surrounding environment changes, and there are people around who will take good care of him.

I have solved the things that made my heart suffocate. I decided to satisfy my desires now while Kir bowed his head and cleared his emotions.

“Would you mind pouring me one more drink?”

While Mrs. Seryl refilled the glass, I reached out for the sweets in front of me.

Maybe it’s because I’ve heard that walnuts are good for the brain? I don’t think it’s particularly tasty, but I strangely liked walnuts. It doesn’t taste like chocolate, but it makes me want to eat it over and over again. I picked up the walnut cookie placed in front of me and ate it.

For reference, Kir no longer has seizures now when he sees nuts. Shortly after the second slap, I was horrified to see a walnut pie served during tea time. I was afraid that Kir would have another fit when he saw this. But Kir explained in a blunt voice.

“Originally, I didn’t get angry that much. I got a little angry back then. I don’t get mad at seeing nuts all the time. I’m not that weird.”

He’s a weird kid no matter where I look, but he gave me such a bizarre excuse and shocked me.

“Then, what made you angry?”

I thought it would be convenient if I knew where the seizure button was, so I could be careful about it. So I asked, but, ironically, Kir did not tell me why he was angry until the end.

“I won’t be angry anymore, so eat as much as you like.”

Since that day, desserts with nuts have been added regularly at tea time, and Kir is not annoyed by the issue.

Anyway, now was the time to fill up both my cheeks with walnut cookies that I can eat as much as I can and munch hard. I felt Kir’s gaze touching my cheek. The eyes that still had a red tint from the tears were slightly hazy, and they looked possessed.

It wasn’t the first time Kir’s eyes looked like that. It was a look that came up often when we had tea time.

Usually, Kir’s reaction was divided into two big categories. The first is annoyed. At the beginning of tea time, he showed a lot of anxious expressions because he couldn’t stand his anger. At that time, I think it was because I thought of him as less of a child than he is now, so anger welled up inside me.

And when I learned how to match Kir’s mood, he often looked at me like that. To put it bluntly, it’s the eyes that look covetous.

Do you want to eat it that much? Should I give you one? He used to look at my cheeks vaguely enough that those words came out of nowhere.

But what I couldn’t believe was the desire in those eyes, what I was eating right now was a walnut cookie. These are nuts that Kir detests. So, of course, he wasn’t desiring these cookies.

Then I don’t know why he was looking at me that way. Even though I knew Kir’s gaze, I ignored it and just picked up the cookie and ate it.