Chapter 57 The Days Of Regret…

The night Su Chen was making love with Chenxi, Lou Rouer, who was just next door eating their vinegar, was not the only one who was not able to sleep~

In a dark-room, on a messy bed, whose bed sheet hadn't been changed for a week, Mei Qing was sitting with blank eyes. She was tightly holding a teddy bear like it was the closest thing next to her heart.

She looked at this teddy bear with deep emotion~

"Oh, Su Chen….do you remember when you bought me this teddy bear 2.5 years ago?"

"It was the first gift you gave me."

"No, it was the first gift someone ever gave me!"

"I still remember that sunny day when you first confessed to me so openly, you so domineeringly said-

Mei Qing, in this life you can only belong to me."

"At that time I was so angry. How can a boy out of nowhere confess and give such a gift? But later when I realized your identity as the heir of Su Group, I didn't have the guts to refuse your present."

"Later, I came home and kept molesting this teddy bear everytime you annoyed me. Sometimes I would throw it against the wall, sometimes I would punch it assuming I was punching your face, sometimes I would tear a part of it and foam would come out."

"But look at me now, I have knitted all the torn corners of this teddy-bear. After all, it's your only gift left with me."

-Mei Qing laughed at her irony.

There were already some small needle injury marks on her delicate fingers which she got while learning knitting to repair the broken teddy bear.

When she went to Su Chen's house to ask him to let her family go, she got what she wanted but deep in her heart, she knew it was not something that she actually yearned for. It was only something her parents and other family member wanted~

That time she wanted to ask Su Chen for forgiveness because she knew she was in the wrong.

Even though she said she didn't like him, it was still selfish for her to take all the benefits that he gave her and her family without ever saying a simple Thank You!

But Su Chen knew her mind was turbulent, her heart was in a mess. He told her to go home and think clearly.

And she indeed did what Su Chen said.

There was a subtle emotion in her eyes whenever she saw or heard Su Chen was with another woman.

When he went on a date or slept with Chenxi, this feeling only got more and more intense.

Can she still say she had no feelings for Su Chen?

At this point, she did not know the answer to such a simple question.

Therefore, she locked herself in her room and introspected everything she had done so far.

She recalled the first day she met Su Chen when she was confessed for the first time.

She recalled the gifts he used to bring her.

She recalled the bouquet of exquisite flowers that he used to bring every month.

She recalled how meticulously he took care of her family, and never let any problem befall their group.

She recalled how her every new day would begin by seeing Su Chen's 'Good morning' message and end with Su Chen's 'Good Night' message.

No matter how ridiculous or exaggerated her request was, Su Chen would always fulfil them.

Everyone would laugh at him for licking her but he never cared and kept doing all those things, thinking that one day he would move her heart.

She was so ashamed, at this point, she realized she never spoke any word of gratitude to him.

'If maybe… One day, I said- Thanks so much for these beautiful red roses Su Chen, maybe then he would have smiled more, right?'

-Mei Qing thought in her mind.

For two full days, she was alone in her room. Neither her dad nor those family relatives who always used to flatter her came and asked what happened to her.

Her hair, which hadn't been washed for more than a week, gave a strong smell.

Her body, because of not taking a bath for many days and instead getting herself dirty while desperately trying to find things Su Chen once gifted her, gave a foul odour.

'If it was Su Chen..'

"If Su Chen knew that I had locked myself in my room and had not eaten anything, he would have directly rushed to my house and scolded me for not taking care of myself."

"I remember the first time he scolded me when I got sick while trying fasting for the first time while dieting."

"It's so strange that… if asked in the past who would have cared the most for me, the answer would not have been my parents but instead Su Chen."

"And, I too used to laugh sarcastically with my secretary behind his back."

"How ignorant I was!"

-There were already some small tears falling from the corner of her eyes.

Sometimes Mei Qing laughed hysterically, sometimes she laughed foolishly.

She realized she did not know when, with every small act, Su Chen had long left a very strong presence in her heart.

Even if she didn't want to admit it; her heart would beat wildly thinking about all their time together, all his cheap cheesy lines he would speak to impress her, every single sentence was vivid in her mind.

Her heart was already so full of Su Chen. Can it still accommodate someone else in the future?

It was 9 am, and a new day had already started but after spending so much time alone, Mei Qing seemed to have finally arrived at a conclusion.

Is this love? She doesn't know..

But all she knows is she can feel Su Chen is getting further and further away from her and she doesn't want it to happen.

She didn't care if her family was no longer a top rich family or if their business group had lost all its capital.

The ridicule and petty words of relatives and friends never mattered to her~

She was very sure at this moment.

"Su Chen, I finally figured it out!"

"After thinking clearly like you said I can feel it."

She used to say to her friends that a girl should marry someone who can keep her happy, never let her feel aggrieved or cry. Such a perfect man was standing beside her and she was so blind that she couldn't see it.

"I will fight for it."

"I know things can't go back to the way it was between us."

"But as long as there is even a slight chance, I won't give up that easily."

Mei Qing got up from the bed and went to the bathroom to wash herself, today her destination was only one: Su Chen's house….