C218 I heard his heartfelt words for the first time

He continued to pretend to read the newspaper, but his heart was in turmoil. Should he go over and express his gratitude? For such a big surprise to be given to him, no matter what, he had to thank her!

After thinking for a long time, Zhu Qingyun mustered up his courage and walked outside.

He didn't dare go directly to her office. Instead, he took a detour to the bathroom.

After staying in the bathroom for a long time, he finally managed to get some water out. Afterwards, he washed his hands under the tap repeatedly. As he washed his hands, he thought, should I go in? How do I get in? What would you say to her when you go in?

Recalling the disagreement between him and her, he felt guilty. With his working attitude, if she was able to get herself involved at a critical moment, it meant that she was still reminiscing about old friendships.

When she first came, Zhu Qingyun remembered that he went to find his uncle. His uncle also said that her coming to the Ministry of Propaganda would be his chance, but at that time, he didn't believe it at all.

He did not believe that this woman could have any thoughts about him. He did not believe that she could have any feelings for him from the past. He did not believe that this surprise would come so quickly and so suddenly! He thought again of what she had said to him when she had called him into her office:

She told him not to hate her so much, to let this relationship between them die out … She said that she was a person who struggled upward in order to survive, just like the grass in a crevice. She had to drill through the soil and squeeze through the crevices in order to find sunlight, rain, and to prevent her life from withering.

She said that she sacrificed a lot of things in order to achieve what she had achieved today. She did not regret, she said that there must be gains in life, that when the heavens opened a door for you, they must have closed another window for you … She said that she wanted him to cherish his little family, cherish his current life …

Now that she thought about it, she must have felt a terrible pain in her heart when she said it. It was precisely because she herself didn't want to let go of this relationship that she would say such words! Zhu Qingyun thought to himself. She tactfully expressed the misery of her life and the pain in her heart, but at the time she did not understand it, let alone think about it! When he thought of this, he started to regret in his heart. For the first time, he felt sorry for this woman. He always hated her so much that he never thought about it from her point of view. From the looks of it, the pain in her heart was no less than his! However, he always regarded himself as the victim, so he was full of hatred towards her. From her point of view, wasn't her current life and the pain she had endured hurting her as well? Although this kind of injury wasn't brought to her by him, it could still be said that he had brought this upon himself. But, as a man who had loved her deeply before, after he truly knew of her misfortune, his heart still ached.

Zhu Qingyun held his hands under the tap for a long time, looking at the splashing water, he took a deep breath. Go and face her, say thank you or not, just face her with an attitude and let her know that the hatred in his heart has already been resolved …

He shook the water from his hands, lifted his head, gathered his courage, and walked quickly to her office.

When he reached her door, he slowed down again. After pausing for a moment, he finally lifted his foot and stepped into her office …

Du Ruiqi was looking at a document, and upon hearing footsteps, she raised her head and was shocked: It's him? She had finally walked into this office, and for the rest of the day, she had been looking forward to …

She smiled and said, "Qing Yun, take a seat!"

After saying that, she refolded the document, closed the folder, got up and walked over to the sofa, and sat down.

Then he started boiling water and preparing to make tea.

Zhu Qingyun pursed his lips, looking at her hands that never stopped moving. He wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say.

After some thought, he finally opened his mouth and asked, "Is your family well?"

As soon as he said that, he regretted it. He didn't want to say anything bad, he wanted to say this! How stupid!

Du Ruiqi took out the tea leaves and waited for the water to boil before making the tea.

She sat up straight and looked at Zhu Qingyun, then smiled and said, "It's good, it's slowly getting better. It's all over."

"Good, that's good!" He stuttered, then suddenly asked: "How is Zi An?"

Hearing Zhu Qing call him "Zi An" so cordially, Du Ruiqi's heart inexplicably tightened: Why did he suddenly start to care about Zi An?

She looked at him, steadied her heart, and said, "It's good, it's in Grade One. What about your son? "

"He's also in the first grade." "Yes," he said.

"Yeah, time flies very quickly. In the blink of an eye, all of the children have grown up and have gone to school." Du Ruiqi said with a little sigh.

"Mm, yeah …" This, I saw this announcement, I did not expect, thank you! " After a few twists and turns, Zhu Qingyun finally mustered up the courage to say what he should say.

She smiled. This was what he was going to say to her today, right?

"Hehe, no need to thank me. This is the result of your hard work." Du Ruiqi said, "Just like Zhang Min and Luo Jian, it's the organization's affirmation of your work, and the organization's trust in you. That's why I gave you this chance. I'm just recommending it, that's what I should do. "

Zhu Qingyun looked at the woman in front of him with disbelief. Was this what she had just said? Why did she say that? Was it not because she was trying so hard to recommend him from behind that he had his own promotion? Why did she have to be so understated? Or was she always like this, not accepting credit, not fawning on him, and not revealing herself?

He had also heard of her promotion style and had always said that it was the result of your hard work, but was she also going to avoid him like this? Why couldn't she confess what she had done for herself? Why couldn't he feel more moved by her kindness? He really couldn't understand the woman in front of him!

"I know my job. In terms of work, I'm not the best." Zhu Qing Yun looked at her and said, "To be honest, when you first came here, I was conflicted. After Minister Feng talked to me and you talked to me, I slowly began to focus on my work. I'm sure you felt it yourself. You have always known that the past is my fault. I used to do things on the basis of my temper, but I never thought that I would be able to do it this time, because I knew that there were others more suitable than me. "So, I thank you. I sincerely thank you!"

Zhu Qing's sincere words surprised Du Ruiqi. After so many years, this was the first time she had heard his heartfelt words, and he sincerely thanked her for her words. They had been separated for more than eight years. He had hated her for eight years, and cursed her in his heart for eight years. Today, this man's heart was finally no longer as hard and soft. This was because he felt that she was treating him well, that her feelings for him still existed in her heart. Her nose suddenly felt sore, and her eyes became misty.

She didn't dare look up, just stood there. She was afraid that he would see the mist in her eyes. She leaned over, took the boiled water from the small coffee table beside her, and poured him a cup of green tea.

The scalding water rushed into the transparent glass cup. The originally small and dry leaves were soon spread out. They were as green and glistening as the leaves that were moisturized in the spring rain. They swirled in the water, rising and falling, looking really beautiful!

If life was this boiling water, she would rather make this leaf that had been stir-fried before. She would moisten and unwind in this pot of water and once again liven up her life. Because most of the time, life is about choosing you, not about choosing your life. Even though you are unwilling, you still have to face it. This is life. Learn to bear, learn not to grieve, when the reality told you you had to face naked, you could only smile.

Du Ruiqi brought the cup of water that she had finished soaking in, bringing it to Zhu Qingyun. She tried her best to retract the mist in her eyes to the bottom of her heart, then raised her head to look at him with a shallow smile and said: "It's your job and achievements that allowed you to win this opportunity. To be honest, I've been looking forward to your progress. Sooner or later, with your ability to work and your performance, you will be able to climb the stairs. But in the morning she had the chance, and then she could go more smoothly and faster. In the administrative unit, age is a treasure, one year earlier and one year later are two completely different concepts. Work hard, and there will be a chance in the future. I will do my best to recommend you, but all of this is the result of your own hard work. Qingyun, we are all children of farmers, it is not easy to walk out, you must have experienced this difficult battle, so, we all need to cherish the opportunity, we need to make our path more smooth, more often, depending on your own mind, calmly face life, enthusiastically face work, put down the unhappiness in your heart, then you will be able to live more happily, work more smoothly. "Only by following your heart will you be able to do everything smoothly. I believe that your luck in the future will definitely be better!"

"To be honest, I have a stubborn temper. All this while, I have not been able to face my past." Zhu Qing Yun looked at Du Ruiqi and said, "The last time you came to talk to me, you told me so much, I can't understand. However, I understand now. After so many years, you have suffered many heartache and pain that others do not know of, but you have never shown it. And I always thought you were happy. I always thought you had the life you wanted. "

"Thus, I am unable to feel at ease. The feeling of being defeated and abandoned constantly oppresses me. As long as I see you, I will have this sort of feeling. That's why I avoided you the moment you came to Ministry of Propaganda, because I didn't want to face you, didn't want to bring up my own painful past. Now that I know how narrow my own heart is, unable to forget, unable to put it down, unable to get rid of it, I have tormented myself for eight years, moving forward and living my life in envy of you. Today, facing my promotion announcement, I found out that your heart is much more generous than I thought it would be. You have borne what you can't, you have faced what you can't face, and you have done what you shouldn't have done. " Zhu Qingyun looked fixedly at the woman in front of him as he spoke.