Chapter 203

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If you were to ask me, “Would you kiss a girl?” I would have probably answered in my previous life with, “I don’t know… I haven’t even kissed a guy yet”.

But to be honest, since my previous life, I kind of liked girls as well… so in this second life, this simply developed even more greatly as I got to know beautiful girls such as Emeraldine and Partner.

In my previous life, I had no friends, so I never created much of an emotional connection with anyone… even my male friends, which I thought were my friends, but were in fact not my friends in the end…

But even then, I never thought I would have ended up kissing Emeraldine as much as I did now. I felt… embarrassed and rather guilty. Yes, guilty.

Why? Because it felt like I had abused of our good relationship and got way ahead of myself… it is all my fault! I am just a degenerate. I know what she went through, and even then, I still went for it.

At this point, I am just experiencing new things more than anything. Even when I am already dead in this second life, I still want to “live” it to my very limits, which means not restraining myself with stupid morals sometimes.

But… maybe I went a bit too far? I really don’t want to make my life focused on romantic subplots! But… it feels so nice and cozy to love and be loved…

I felt like my phantasmal core was beating faster as I experienced such a warm sensation. It made me… feel all dizzy.

Is this a cringy feeling that couples feel when they love each other? It is cringy, but the good cringy feeling that you know is actually not cringy at all, and that only because of your own inexperience in romantic life is that you find it slightly cringy…

In my resume, my mind is a mess.

My thoughts are even more of a mess than before.

So this is what it feels like…

Ahh…

Now I feel even more guilty because I ended up doing it with Emeraldine when I had promised similar things to Partner… and then there’s Lucifer…

But… as long as I do it with them too later on, then it’s fine, right? I never thought I would end up going into the harem route. This is disastrous, to say the least.

However, I am not going to regret it! Emeraldine is way too cute! Who wouldn’t want to cuddle and kiss such a beautiful elf girl?! You would be insane if you didn’t want to! Girl or not, she’s hot and cute, and her personality is just the best.

After we ended up kissing each other, it escalated into a few more kisses…

And a few more and more…

And Emeraldine seemed to not be capable of stopping.

“Hahh~ Maria-sama… Kiss… kiss me… make me feel loved… I need it… I love you…” she moaned as she continued to hug me and rub her body over mine.

She was breathing heavily and getting all red as well.

“E-Emeraldine, stop! W-We have already done it…! T-There are people outside. We might be found out!” I said.

“I-I know, but… Hahh… I am so happy… Mooch~” she said as she kissed my lips once more.

“Th-That’s enough! I liked it too, but… let’s stop, for now, okay? W-We have to respect our… boundaries… and stuff,” I said.

Emeraldine was breathing heavily as she slowly calmed herself, before sitting at my side.

“Hahh… Y-You’re right… Sorry… I-I kind of got too ahead of myself!” she cried.

“You really did… But that’s okay… I allowed it, and… I kind of also started it and everything… It’s my fault… I am sorry….” I said.

Emeraldine held my hand tightly as she looked into my eyes with her beautiful green eyes.

“I-It is fine… I am actually happy… It… makes me feel happy. Don’t worry about it, please…” said Emeraldine.

“Emeraldine… You’re way too nice….” I sighed.

“I-It is just that… I’ve never felt like this for anyone… I-I am… Well, I am still dealing with my own feelings…” she said.

“Me too… I guess we ended up going a bit too fast there… Maybe we should take it easy? There are many things to do as well. I don’t think we can properly focus on this for a while….” I said.

“I agree… for now. I am just happy as it is… this was… something I will always treasure.” She said.

“Emeraldine… You really mean it?” I wondered.

“Of course…” she replied with a warm smile.

And as we ended up staring at one another for a bit, suddenly, the curtains of the carriage opened for Partner to sneak in.

“Huh? Master, did you sleep with Emeraldine? Not fair!” she said while pouting.

“S-Sorry, dear, should I have invited you instead? I just get confused sometimes, and well… Erm, we were working until late in the potions.” I said.

“Hmm… I see…” said Partner.

She looked at the two of us while rubbing her chin and raising an eyebrow suspiciously.

I don’t know what she was coming out with, but perhaps she was figuring out something?

…I would prefer not to tell her as she would be very jealous.

I know that she and Emeraldine, alongside Lucifer, had come to a non-aggression consensus after a while, where all three agreed on sharing my attention evenly…

But if she were to know that I kissed emeraldine before her, she would certainly get angry at her and probably sad, heartbroken, even… so I would prefer if that were not to happen.

Maybe I should give her a little kiss soon too?

Ah! I am talking about giving kisses like nothing! My sense of reality has really been shattered after kissing Emeraldine…

If it was only a little kiss, but… it ended up escalating into many, and I am sure she grabbed my body around too… Ah, so lewd… I must reject the horny.

Resist the horny!

“M-Master? Are you not coming to have breakfast?” she asked.

It seems it was a false alarm; she’s hasn’t figured it out.

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