Chapter 582 Apology II: Reconciliation

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CHAPTER 582

Ning Xiaozhi felt a whirlpool of emotions overwhelming her. Now that she started talking, she could not bring herself to stop.

It felt as if all her pent-up frustration, longing, sadness and anger were finally let out from the deepest part of her heart.

"Do you kow much I wanted your attention? How much I wanted to tell you so many things every girl tell their mothers? But you were never there and then if you were, you never cared."

"You were the worst," Ning Xiaozhi shouted.

"Iris calm down a little," Ning Yi reached out to her but she stepped away.

"I hot calming down. I want to know why. Why were you so mean and controlling? What were you seeking to achieve by doung all you did? Did you life is like a chess board with everyone in like as your chess pieces?"

"No. I don't know... I thought I was doing the right thing. I wanted the best for everyone," Mrs Ning tried to explain herself.

"Well look at where those thoughts and deeds has brought us all. You had no right... No right whatsoever to do all those things. Especially forcing us into marriages with peoole we had no interest in."

"And do you know the worst part of it all?" Bai Renxiang rhetorically asked. There was silence everywhere.

"The worst part is that your parents gave you all the freedom to do and decide whatever you want. Including the man you want to speak the rest of your life with," Ning Xiaozhi stated.

"That and the fact that dad never said anything about how you treated us. He stood by side without a word. You acted like a big coward," she faced him.

Mr Ning had nothing to say. What can he even think to say? Nothing. She is right after all. He was a coward.

"Yoy should have been the head of the family and stopped thungs before it escalated. But no. You watched and let it all get out of hand. What great parents I have," Ning Xiaozhi threw her hands in the hair.

"You guys have done nothing but to bring the worst out of me. Everything you never wanted me to be is what I became. And I am happy because at least amongst them I found the perfect man for me and everyone else today."

"Please forgive me. I turned a blind eye towards it. I turned a blind eye to everything and I am very sorry for that," Mrs Ning sincerely apologized.

"Let's speak facts here. You only did those things for what it would bring. The money, the name, the fame, the social status and for people to wish they were you," Ning Xiaozhi listed.

"And the result was pushing everyone away until even your husband felt irritated by you."

Bu this time, Ning Xiaozhi's eyes were red from anger and the ushed tears. All her emotions were boldly spread all over her. Was it her face?

Or her tone? Her gaze or her body language? They are spoke of how she felt deep within.

"You took away everyone's happiness. You dashed it against a wall and allow us to repair it by ourselves. You were so cruel, mum. And I hated it and I still do, I swear," a tear drop escaped Ning Xiaozhi's right eye.

"Please... I'm sorry. I have no words to refute or justify my actions or my said words. So please just forgive me. I regret it. I regret everything and I should have never done it."

"But ypy still did and the consequences has been met," Ning Xiaozhi cut in sharply and turned away from them.

"I'm sorry. Please forgive me, Xiaozhi. Yi, Li Qiang, Yingjie, please forgive me. I'm sorry. Zian, please forgive me. I should have been better. I want to be better."

"So please give me a second chance. Let's start over, please," Mrs Ning begged with her palms joined together in front of her face.

Her face were soaked with tears. She looked pitiful and sincerity was all over her. She really wanted to make amends.

She wanted that family she was unable to make and keep. Mrs Ning wanted to have a healthy and good family.

All she did, she had great doubt that if people were to know, they would never wish to be her. She will most definitely be a laughing stock.

"You know what is even funny?" she turned back. Tears she tried to keep in were running down her face.

"What is so funny is the fact that upon all these things you have done to me, I still want to forgive you."

Now their eyes settled on her. Shocked surprised and relieved. They all had an expression to make.

"My stupid soft heart can't just stay mad at you for as long as I want. I hate it but I can't just help it."

Ning Yi sighed and pulled her in for a hug. He rubbed her back soothingly, hoping it brought her comfort as she cried herself out.

"I want my old mum and dad back. I want our little happy family. I want so much better than just being controlled and told what to do. I'm tired," she mumbled.

"I'm sorry. I'm really sorry," Mrs Ning also cried.

Just then the door opened and Ye Chaoxiang walked in. "Darling, I bought your favorite trimasu ca–" He paused as his eyes scanned everywhere.

More faces, faint sobs, Ning Xiaozhi's shoulders trembling as her cousin hugged her.

"What's going on? Darling what–" Ning Xiaozhi pounced into his embrace before he could complete his sentence.

"Hey, why are crying?" He asked in a low voice.

"I can't help it. I'm tired of everything. I can't anymore."

"Can't what?"

"I can't hold in to this hate and anger anymore. It's exasperating a-and... and stressful."

"I know, honey. I know. So you have to let it go."

"I have. I forgive them. I don't want this to go on."