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It was said that the first person to be tempted would eventually become the loser in love.

In the past, I thought that saying was ridiculous, because in front of me, Shen Jianning would never be the victor.

He would fly home from work at night when I got mad, just because I saw a movie where I couldn't sleep because of the horror of it.

He would also suddenly hug me when I was angered to the extreme, using childish words to coax me, he said, Song Yi, I'll give you anything you want, don't bully me, okay?

I can laugh to my heart's content, like a fox that has eaten a grape.

I had always felt that I was the fox, and Shen Jianning was the grape that hung right in front of me, tender and juicy. Even when it swayed in the wind, it wouldn't budge an inch until it died.

Therefore, when Shen Jianning's mother, who often appeared in newspapers and magazines, was like a noble snow lotus blooming on a mountain, blocking me from entering an apartment that Shen Jianning had bought specifically for me, I didn't panic in the slightest.

I am not a white lotus, but she is the evil woman who forced the pure mistress to her death.

I have played to the fullest, the mood burst into full play, but the heart is laughing almost spasmodic.

Shen Jianning was summoned from a meeting at the head office with a single call, and I repeated my brilliant performance in front of him. I knew he hated that woman so much that I thought I was helping him.

Shen Jianning smiled until tears were flowing out of his eyes.

I think he's childish. Isn't that what revenge should be like? To be able to strike the enemy and make oneself happy, this was the highest level.

I said, Shen Jianning, can you be a bit more promising, can you be like a man, don't cry just because you're not in a good mood, so childish, shameful!

Shen Jianning nodded and suddenly pulled me into his embrace. He hugged me so tightly that I could barely breathe. It was also at that moment that I suddenly felt fear rising from within my heart.

I grinned, but my voice was hoarse.

Shen Jianning didn't say anything, but just continued hugging me tightly. His fingers tugged on my hair without any pity or caress. It was as if he wanted to completely destroy that head of black hair.

"Shen Jianning, you coward!"

I pushed myself away with all of my might and looked at the long hair that Shen Jianning was still holding, my eyes bloodshot.

All the suspicions and misgivings in my heart turned into reality. I was so angry that I started laughing out loud, "Hehe, Shen Jianning. Since you've come to a compromise, why did you grab me? Are you going to make me your mistress in your marriage, or are you going to take me straight to the Civil Affairs Bureau to get married? "

Shen Jianning trembled, but his hand loosened. I watched the long hair slip out of his hand. There were many such scenes in my memory, but I had never experienced such a heart-wrenching scene.

It was as if a human's life was like a strand of hair. If it fell, it would be impossible to turn back.

"Song Yi, I don't love her, but I can't let the Shen family be destroyed by me. I can't let myself have nothing. I can't let myself, who has nothing, be so incapable of loving you. Do you understand? "

Shen Jia Ning clenched her fists tightly, patiently enduring the pain. However, I found it funny. "You mean that when you marry, you compromise, it's because you love me. Shen Jianning, in your heart, am I such a person? "

"Aren't you? Songyi, no one knows you better than I do. You are hypocritical, lazy, you desire freedom but need money to support you. I love you, even your shortcomings. But, if I wasn't the young master of the Shen family, if I wasn't someone who could give you freedom and money, would you still love me? Song Yi, it can't be that you're doing this, right? "

I was suddenly at a loss for words, staring at the man in front of me.

In my mind, I recalled the first time I met him. He was riding a bicycle while I was carrying a drawing board. It was a very dog-blooded collision. A very dog-blooded relationship. Now, it was about to end.

I laughed until tears came to my eyes. I discovered that if two people were together for too long, they would really be infected, including the nature of the root causes.

"That's right, Shen Jianning. If you weren't the young master of the Shen family, if you weren't someone who could give me money and freedom, then I wouldn't love you. "So, now, I don't love you!"

I'm in my pajamas, cartoon, fat Pi Dai, laughing like a fool.

Shen Jianning used to laugh at me, saying that such clothes don't suit such casual style. I also laughed, but the loneliness in my heart was even wider than the sea.

Shen Jianning did not catch up, but when I slammed the door and left, he yelled.

He said, Song Yi, leave me, you are nothing. You'll come back, you'll come back!

His shout was a bit heart-wrenching, but it was also incomparably domineering. It was as if he had vented his feelings for a very long time, as though he was very confident.

Yes, five years after I first met him in college, my best years were spent with him, Shen Jianning. Perhaps, in everyone's eyes, I, Song Yi, was nothing after leaving Shen Jianning. Can't buy a bag, can't go into a high-end hotel, can't be like a proud white swan, raised his chin to look down at all the tragedy in the world.

I stood in the street and smiled like a fool, like a star.

So it turns out that all the fairy tales are lies. Even if you ignore all the details, erase all the stockings, hair, perfume, lipstick, and text messages that are ambiguous to the point of being naked, but the truth is the truth. Even if you get cataract blind, those things still happen.

"Hey, miss, how much is the night?"

The drunk guy stuck his head out of the car and looked at me with cloudy eyes. His split mouth showed yellow teeth.

"Do you have ten?"

That year, I was beaten black and blue by my drunken father. That year, I knew that I was a bastard that no one wanted, that my mother and others raped and gave birth to me and I died. My father, wearing a green hat, looked at me as I grew longer and longer.

Ten dollars, the fare from our town to the city, and I've always thought that the city, brightly lit on television, must be warm, like a house with a big star, enough to make him laugh until he dies.

I smelled the unfamiliar smell of alcohol, which made me loathe it but also tremble with grief. I was pulled into the car, and the obscene laughter stopped abruptly as my arm was gripped.

"Song Yi, you're really despicable!"