C100 I wish I could die

"Their union made me wish I were dead. I don't understand why she was always stronger than me, why I was always in her shadow, even though I was her bridesmaid at the wedding and had a great gift sealed, but my heart was still bleeding. After they resigned to go to the Haizhou to establish the Zhong Tian sect, I no longer had the mood to work at the Xingzhou's national brigade. Since Zhang Xiaobo and Gao Qiang invited me to join them, I went along with the flow and came to the Zhongtian Tourism with an indescribable feeling and complex motives. Most of the money was saved by Zhang Xiaobo. Although Gao Qiang had made a lot of money from doing business, he had spent a lot of money and did not have much savings. From the founding of Zhongtian, Zhang Xiaobo was chairman, Gao Qiang was general manager, and I was manager of Deputy General Manager and tour guide department. And so, we began our history of entrepreneurship in the Zhongtian Tourism. To be honest, Zhong Tian's foundation had been laid by Zhang Xiaobo, not only because most of the investments were hers, but also because of the development of the company and the formation of the team, she had personally recruited a good set of people to teach, market and tour guide, and had even brought all of the salesmen to go out, one at a time to meet the customers, sell their products, and do after-sales services. If not for the foundation she had laid at the beginning, the Haizhou who had strong hands like the forest, and fiercely competed against each other, would not even have had a place to stand at. "

Zywane listened attentively.

"I saw that their relationship was very stable. As the work progressed and time went by, my heart gradually died. I focused on my work and was not willing to think about it until something happened."

"What is it?" Zywane could not wait any longer.

"In the second year after the establishment of the company, Zhang Xiaobo became pregnant. At that time, the company's situation was already very good. Its business was growing rapidly, and its customer base was becoming more and more stable. The news of Zhang Xiaobo's pregnancy made the Gao Qiang's family extremely happy. The mother-in-law personally came to take care of the daughter-in-law, so that she could rest and recuperate at home most of the time. This way, the company's daily work would be managed by me and Gao Qiang, and Zhang Xiaobo would occasionally come to the company to look around. After staying with Gao Qiang for a long time, my heart slowly started to move again. That feeling of not being able to come for a long time also started to stir in my heart. As for Gao Qiang, once his wife became pregnant, the number of times they spent their lives as husband and wife decreased significantly. Even when they were young and in high spirits, he would occasionally look at my face and chest with a peculiar gaze. "

"Isn't Gao Qiang a half cripple? How can you still do that? "

"That incident of his happened only in the past half year. In the past, he was still full of energy, how amazing."

"You guys then started stealing the clear water?"

"Yes, I sat in the back with him on a business trip to Hangzhou. I was sick, leaning on him, and he put his hand in my chest, and I didn't refuse. Although I kept telling myself that this wasn't right, the feeling that I had suppressed for so many years made me move forward step by step, and I did like being strong. "When we arrived in Hangzhou, the two of us took up residence in a hotel and started our first night …"

"Then it's all over, isn't it?"

He Ying nodded her head, "Then, like a river that has been torn asunder, I couldn't budge an inch. Even though my heart was filled with guilt and uneasiness at the time, I was quickly filled with satisfaction after obtaining it and the urge to take revenge. I felt that my strong relationship was searching for my past loss, a compensation to my past, and also felt a sense of revenge in my heart. At that time, I didn't think about it too much, and I didn't dare to think about it too much. I just wanted to be able to maintain this relationship without being discovered. Gao Qiang and I were very unrestrained at the time. In cars, offices, hotels, parks, the wilderness, and the seaside, there were traces of us having fun everywhere. Most of us were in the office after work, on the sofa, on the desk, and in the bathroom. Until a rainy night... "

"What's wrong?"

"It was a weekend night. There was a typhoon in the weather forecast and there was a strong wind outside. It was raining heavily and the employees of the company had all left work. Gao Qiang called home and said that he would be working overtime at the company, so he would be back late. Then, after locking the door to the company, the two of us sat on the sofa in the reception room and began a new round of craziness. Just as he was immersed in his thoughts, Zhang Xiaobo suddenly walked in, carrying a lunchbox, and saw a scene that we could not stand to watch.

Zywane held his breath and said, "Continue."

"At that time, both Old Gao and I were stunned. Zhang Xiaobo had the company's key, so she could directly open the door and enter. Zhang Xiaobo watched on dumbfoundedly. He suddenly let out a sharp cry, threw away his lunchbox, and rushed into the storm … The next day, I heard that she was hospitalized, had a high fever, and had an abortion. At that time, she was four months pregnant. She had been crossing the road in the rain when a motorcycle had knocked her down and the driver had run away. She had been lying unconscious in the rain for more than half an hour when a passing car had driven her to the hospital. Lying in the hospital for half a month, Zhang Xiaobo didn't say a single word. Every day in the hospital, Gao Qiang would apologize and swear a curse, but she would never say a word. I wanted to go to the hospital to see her, but I didn't have that face. I wanted to die, and I didn't expect that to happen. "

"I can understand the heavy injuries she suffered in her heart. One was her closest family member, and the other was her closest friend. The two of them betrayed themselves at the same time and suffered a double blow that no one would be able to bear." Zywane sighed.

"Yes, from then on, my heart began to plant the seeds of inner demons. My heart began to bear great self-blame and guilt, but my selfishness and the pursuit of love and desire would also frequently grow in my heart. After leaving the hospital, Zhang Xiaobo directly asked for a divorce from Gao Qiang. There was no room for negotiation. I went to find Zhang Xiaobo, and as I cried my heart out to her, I apologized and asked her not to get divorced, so I chose to leave. However, Zhang Xiaobo appeared abnormally calm. He didn't scold me, nor did he even say a word of reprimand. He only said one sentence, 'I have always regarded you as my own little sister.

Zywane's heart trembled as he looked at He Ying.

He Ying continued: "At that moment, I was ashamed. I didn't even know how I left, so I made up my mind. But I didn't have the time to leave. In just a few days, Zhang Xiaobo and Gao Qiang had gotten divorced, and even the division of property had been completed. After that, Zhang Xiaobo left the Haizhou and we never contacted him again. That meeting was my last meeting with her so far. After Zhang Xiaobo left, I too felt disheartened, my heart was as if it had died, and I planned to leave Shang Tian. At this time, Gao Qiang bitterly advised me to stay. He knew that Zhang Xiaobo had left, and the skies had collapsed, if I were to leave now, the entire company would collapse. Where should I go from here? My heart is in a dilemma. The man that I have always desired is right in front of me. The opponent that I have always been unable to surpass has left. What else do I need? While I was hesitating, I accidentally discovered that I was pregnant. Needless to say, the child was strong. When Gao Qiang found out about it, he paid me a great deal of attention. He tried to dissuade me from going on a mission, promised to marry me immediately, and changed the company's legal person to my name. "It should be said, everyone has their own selfish desires. In that short period of time, my selfish desires gained the upper hand. Furthermore, I had a child and there was even greater material benefits. Thus, I agreed to Gao Qiang's request, and …"

"As a result, there is a new female chairman, and there is a new female chairman, and there is a new female chairman, and there is a new female chairman, and there is a new female chairman, you and Gao Qiang, right?" Zywane felt suffocated.

"Yes, I finally had what I wanted, I finally defeated an opponent I hadn't surpassed in years. However, I didn't feel any joy or hurry, nor did I feel the happiness and happiness that I had imagined. On the contrary, that inner demon in my heart was lingering in my heart, growing bigger and bigger, unable to be shaken off. Moreover, through this incident, I also saw through Gao Qiang. I know that Gao Qiang married me not because he loves me so much, but because I have a child, but because I have an irreplaceable role in the development of the company. Actually, he had been carrying Zhang Xiaobo in his heart the entire time. Many times in my dreams, I was awoken by his sleep-talking. He had been calling her name the entire time. Even more unbearable was the fact that he used to call out her name when we were married. I finally understood that what I had was a body, that I was a substitute for her, both physically and spiritually. I know, Gao Qiang probably hasn't cut off his connection with Zhang Xiaobo for the past few years. It's just that he was hiding it from me, and I know that the person he truly loves is still Zhang Xiaobo. I thought that what I had obtained was actually nothing more than nothingness. I didn't defeat Zhang Xiaobo, and even after she has left, I still live in her shadow at all times. "

Zywane was not in a good mood and did not say a word.

A legendary character, a mysterious beauty who was covered by a veil, in Zywane's eyes, Zhang Xiaobo had always been a mystery. Today, hearing He Ying's narration, Zywane felt extremely shocked and shaken in her heart. It turned out that behind this legendary beauty, there was actually such a tragic story about love and hate.

At that moment, Zhang Xiaobo made Zywane feel that he was a little clearer on one hand, but more mysterious on the other.

He Ying continued, "Actually, not long after I got married to Gao Qiang, I found out that we were already so close that we looked like gods and gods. It could also be said that we were in the same bed and had such strange dreams. The quality of our lives as husband and wife plummeted. Although everyone tried their best to make up for it, even taking advantage of your efforts, the results were meagre. It was the child who played an important role in keeping us together. The child was the only link that held us together. In the past few years, we have never quarreled, and have always maintained our mutual understanding and politeness. However, behind this seemingly friendly attitude, there is a deeper accumulation of contradictions, a backlog of more and more questions. In the end, your resignation became the fuse of the explosion of the gunpowder barrel. "

Zywane nodded, "I finally understand. I finally understand a lot of your actions and thoughts. Everyone will go down the wrong path and do the wrong things in their life. However, as long as they can realize and correct these mistakes, they are still a good person."